Keeping Faith.

I just swore. so what?

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Thu, 24 Dec 2009 16:49:00 +0000

attention people!!

I'm soooo pisssedd off rite now. Rawwwwrrrr!!

hey, faker. who the hell you think of yourself huh?
bagus sgt ker? I should just called you B***H lah.
you think you're sooo good enough ar? you acted like a real B***H you know.
you think you're sooo like Diva huh? blueekkk.
pleaseee lahh, i don't even want to know about your fucking life lah. sorry, i'm tooo busy enough rather than minding your business. syok sendiri ker minah nie??
just so you know, i don't give a damn about your life. bcoz who are you to me? a superstar? a top model? ohhh please..you're just some stupid morons who love to get all the world's attention on you kan? my advise? get a life you jerk!

phew. now, i feeel so damn relieved lah. bahahahah. ooohhh, thank you my baby blog. you're the only place where i can yell at the top of my lungsss!!

Infuriated,
Me.

ain't no sunshine when you're gone.

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Thu, 24 Dec 2009 14:19:00 +0000

the most wasted day is that in which we've not laughed :D

hello living people,

i'm doing nothing at the moment. just had my supper. meat loaf sandwich and Nescafe.
oh gosh. i miss my besties and my coursemates so damn much :D
frankly speaking, i've forgotten when is the last time i laughed like nuts. like seriously o.O
this is suck man. for not having a great laugh for quite some time. huhu..
guys!! i miss your jokes and your companion lahh.. can't wait to see you guys this January.
ohh btw. I read an email from Jonathan just now. Jonathan said something about us probably wouldn't be getting the subjects that we had chosen earlier back in Ipsah. huhu..
i'm begining to feel worried now. am fear of the thought that i will be getting the subjects that i don't like at all. i really hope everything is going to be fine in the next year. *pray*

kaylahh. not much to tell here. as always, my shoulder is aching like crap. before i forget, wishing Merry Xmas to my Christian friends and to people who's celebrating it :D

till then,
cheerio people.

Love,
Me.
:p

So you think you can dance people?

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Tue, 22 Dec 2009 16:58:00 +0000

hello living people,

been watching this show for like every week now.
i loveee thiss show :D
the routines and the dances are just waayy awesome and plain sickkk :D
my fav dancers so far are Mark Kanemura (the fact that he's soooo cuteee), Chelsie, Katee, Courtney.

ohhh baby..you're soo damn cuteee :D

he's a hoottie. doesn't he look gorgeous here?

kaylah. this is so random. yeah i know.
gotta goo.
my shoulder is aching like hell :(

p/s: the reason i'm doing this post bcoz i'm damn bored dowh.

favorite word of the week: DAMN :D

Love,
Me.
:p

Psssttt..

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Tue, 22 Dec 2009 14:10:00 +0000

hey guys,
what do you think of my new header?
i edited the old one a lil bit. did a bit touch up and so on. does it look okay to you?
kaylah..

off to watch Tamil movie. hehe.

Love,
Me :D

Sweet 20 Chicks!

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Mon, 21 Dec 2009 15:44:00 +0000

blahhh..i sound so lame and out-dated lah. but, hey I'm doing this for the sake of friendship kayy. hehe. Sayang korang taww.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MARYAM CAYANG!! SWEET 20 YO!

she is my best friend in the whole world since high school. she is a sweet friend, a shoulder to cry on. i can't never imagine if you were not in my life. you are the savior of my life and the sunshine when the darkness engulfed me. May our bonding remain forever and till the death do us apart. Love you to the max!! Have a great life ahead and may Allah bless you dear.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ZATYTULANG!! YOU'RE OFFICIALLY 20 :)

she is another my best friend in the college. Our 2 years + + of friendship has been remarkably amazing and ahhhh soo sweeett. she is a kind of friend who is willing to catch your hands when you fall to the ground. she is a joker when the sadness engulfed me. she is a type of friend where you can laugh, joke, play and cry together with her. may our bonding remain forever and till the death do us apart okay. Love you tonnnss!! May Allah bless you with longevity, wisdom and happiness.

xoxo,
Me.

you're so addictive.

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Mon, 21 Dec 2009 04:11:00 +0000

omggg..it has been ages since i last blogged. like what the heck kan? it's just been 3 days though. ok. so i lied. about the fact that i'm gonna break up with this blogspot. i failed to do so. what can i dooo?? i loveee my bloggie so damn much lah..ok. that's so dramatic lah..to be honest, blogging is addictive. like seriously. i can't resist the temptation to blog. haha..okay lah let's recap what i've been up to these days.

yesterday is quite a bore for me. didn't do much lah. i hate my days. seriously. huhu..
this morning i woke up so damn early. around 8 ++ am. ate fries and nuggets for breakkie. watched some lame shows on the tv. blahhh..boring. and here i am now. blogging!!

the next agenda,
i'm gonna do some cleaning the whole house and thinking to have a nap later in the evening. haha..love sleepingg so much.

i remembered a conversation that i had with daddy last nite. so damn funny and yet very sarcastic..grrr..

dad: Ayong, nak guna tak computer tak? kalo tak nak ayah offkan.
me: alaa..ayah sleep kan jee lahh.

dad: jokingly, computer mane bole tidoo. ayong tue yang suke tidooo.
me: hahaha..lawak nyer..malas nak dengarr..

what else to say? i think that's all. shall go now.
dear my fellow bloggers, silent readers or blogwalkers,
don't bail on me kayy..
i'll be back. no worries.

till then,
au revoir people.

Love,
Me.

away for a few days.

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Fri, 18 Dec 2009 15:56:00 +0000

yeah, as you can see. i'm here again. blogging as usual. dang. there's nothing much to tell lah. i'm so sorry that my blog is kinda lame these days. huhu..so, i'm proudly to announce..that i'm gonna break up with blogspot for a few days. you know, i need a break. don't worry guys, I'll be back. and i will blog if there's any interesting events occurred in my life or any cool thoughts that i wanna share with you guys. so, take care guys :) Don't miss me kayy.

till then,
cheerios people!

Love,
Me.

Toast to Malaysia Team!

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Thu, 17 Dec 2009 14:21:00 +0000

MALAYSIA BOLEH!

Congrats to National Football Team under-23 for winning the gold medal!! Hoooraayy!
Malaysia defeated Vietnam in the final and finally ended the 20 years gold drought in the Sea Games' football competition.

thanks for making us (Rakyat Malaysia) proud and happy. good job guys!

Jang Nara.

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Sun, 13 Dec 2009 17:54:00 +0000

hello people,

i'm so addicted to Jang Nara these days. been watching The Mischievous Princess over and over again. never felt bored. Jang Nara is soo damn cute. and i like her very much. she's my fav Korean actress. I'm surprised that she can speak and sing in Chinese quite well. she is so talented i tell you. sadly, she has not been acting in any dramas or movies for the past few years. I've watched her music video titled 'Kungfu'. it's a dang cuuutee video i tell you. go and watch it. you'll be impressed.

that's all. ciao!

Love,
QisTina.

Beach Girls.

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Fri, 11 Dec 2009 15:30:00 +0000

ok update!

well, today, me and a few fellas went for a picnic at Pengkalan Balak, Melaka. there are the four of us. Jiji, Dayah, Sheam and me lah. they are my schoolmates. so, around 9 something, i met up with them at Bazar Mydin 24 hours. we bought our food there. later, we headed to Mydin MITC to find some marinated chicken and beef. after that, we continued our journey to the beach. we arrived at the beach at around 12 something i guess. we set up the barbecue thing and tried our best to start the fire. phew. it was very tough job you know because it was so windy at the beach. a few kids tried to help us but no thanks lahh. we could do it by ourselves. we were totally full. after eating, we had a camwhoring session, where we camwhored like mad women. i was sweating like hell. hahaha..it was damn hot at that time.thanks for that, i was badly sunburned ok. huhu..we went home at around 5 something. overall, yesterday was really fun. it was a blast guys! i'm glad to get the chance to spend the whole day with them before i fly to the oversea. i'm gonna miss u guys lahh. it's indeed one of my best days in my life. sayang korang tau. hehe..

that's all from me for today i guess,
till then,
cheerios people!

Love,
QisTina.

gajah sama gajah bergaduh, pelanduk mati di tengah-tengah.

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 17:00:00 +0000

pesan untuk mereka,

hey, babes. i don't think you guys will read this but i really have to say this. whatever and no matter what happens between our parents. I'm hoping that we can still stick together and do our things like usual. i don't want because of our parents we grow far apart. i don't want that to happen. we used to be very close. we shared almost everything. we have so much in common. i know about all your dirty secrets. sometimes, adults make mistakes. and i don't want us to be such a fool by committing such a mistake. they are the ones who caused the chaos. why should us be involved in the mess they have created. i hope you understand this whole thing that i'm trying to say to you. i love you babes. you guys are my best cousins in the whole world. nobody could ever replace you guys.

Love,
Ayong.

i hate mummies.

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Tue, 08 Dec 2009 08:21:00 +0000

dang.
today is going to be a dull day i guess. i'm hell bored. freaking boreed. theres' nothing else to do man. my life's been the same every single day. i've been sleeping at around 6/7 am and waking up at around 1/2 pm. i suck la. my days aren't productive at all. huhu.. i am jobless and am officially broke. but, today i did make an attemp to wake up early. i woke at 8 something. then, watched the mummy, the tomb of the dragon. like the movie. its' weird to see Jet Li played the role as a mummy. and also he's not mean enough to play the role as the great emperor. naahh, i guess he's okay lah. at 11 something, went inside the room to take a nap. woke up just now at around 3 something. now, here i am blogging as usual. actually, i don't have much to blog lah. i blog only for the sake of blogging. gosh, i better stop here.
people out there, don't bail on me. i'll be back. :) :)

till then,
cheerios people!

Love,
Me.

yeah, it's a tag.

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Sun, 06 Dec 2009 15:33:00 +0000

LoL. It's been quite some time i haven't answered any tags eh?
so, yeah i'm so in the mood to do it rite now. so, hit it!

Details:

Name: Qistina

Sisters: 0 Brothers: 2

Shoe size: 6/7

Height : 156 cm kot?

Where do you live: Batu Berendam. soon to be called as Hang Tuah Jaya (my dad la said)

Some facts about you:

Favourite drinks: Geez, i dunno. green tea kot. and yes soft drinks. i love them!

Favourite Breakfast: Nasi Lemak. Yum!

Have you ever been on a plane? Nope.

swam in the ocean : used to when i was little.

Fallen asleep at school : lotsa lotsa times.

Broken someone’s heart: i don't think so lah.

Fell off your chair : Yes. once i think. happened at Tesco SP. ask the witnesses zaty and ecah.

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: waited for sms, yes.

What is your room like : pretty messed up.

What’s right beside you:My brother with his bantal busuk.

the last thing you ate: prosperity burger for the dinner. Yum!

Ever had chicken pox: When i was little. can't recall.

Sore throat: few weeks ago.

Stitches: Nope.

Broken nose: Nope

Do you believe in love at first sight: Maybe.

Like picnics: Yes. Love it!

who was the last person you danced with: with my classmates. performing some bollywood dance.

Last made you smile: my bro's lame jokes.

You last yelled at: My brother.

When did you:

Get sick: few months ago.
Miss someone: Everyday.
Eat: Just now.
Best feeling in the world: being appreciate and loved by people.
What’s under your bed: dust. hairs.
Who do you really hate: No one.

Random:

Is there a person who is on your mind now : Yezzzzaa.
Do you smile often: Yes.

Do you like your hand-writing: If it's written slowly.
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: No one.

What color shirt are you wearing now: Yellow.

What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. : lying on my bed.

yesterday: at home. didn't go anywhere.
I can’t wait till: I leave this country. *excited*

When did you cry last : can't recall.

Are you a friendly person: yes, i guess so.

Do you sleep with the TV on?: Noo.

What are you doing right now?: Doing this damn thing

Have you ever crawled through a window?: i can't recall

Can you handle the truth? : No.

Are you too forgiving?: hmm..it depends.

Are you closer to your mother or father?: Dunno.

Do you eat healthy?: No.

Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: Yup.
Who are you going to tag? : i want zack, kak su and anyone pun boleh je.

phew. omg. finally, i'm done with this tag.

till then,
bye.

Love,
Me.

blueekk.

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Sat, 05 Dec 2009 13:59:00 +0000

alright. blog update!

okay okay.
let me recall what did i do for today?
firstly, woke up late today,
and then spent the whole entire day inside my room. did some reading. like whoa.
omg, i ate like a loot today. damn, sure i'll be gaining some weight la. huhu..
gosh, my nose is damn itchy la. this is all becoz i consumed a lot of sambal belacan for the dinner. hehe.
omg omg omg.
my mom is totally obsessed with tamil movies lately. grrr..
it's so annoying cuz i want to watch hindi movies lah.
my mom refused to switch to other channels la. she is totally glued to that ABO channel. grrr..
you know what.
if people pass by my house, they would assume that my house is belong to an Indian family i tell you. the only language they can hear from the tv is 'Tamil language'.
i fed up already la watching those Tamil movies. bluuueekkkk.
but my mom seems to enjoy them very muchhh. apa2 je la mom.
damn, totally broke lah.
but i'm thinking to catch a movie next week. hopefully.
okay la. that's all
this post is very lame and boring. i know i know.
i'm having a hard time to sleep nowadays. my eye bags are killing me dowh.
i shall go now.
ok peeps.
ciao!

Love,
Me.

ok updates!

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 08:12:00 +0000

ok, yesterday, i had a girls' day out with LiLy, LiLy's sister and FaRa.
we were supposed to meet at Carefour.
i had to get there by bus. phew. truly Malaysian lah. :) :) :)
so, i arrived at Dataran Pahlawan around 12 something then met up with FaRa.
LiLy was still on her way.
so, me and FaRa decided to buy tickets first. We decided to watch New Moon.
later, went around and supposed to meet LiLy at Big Apple.
We met up then had our lunch at McD.
after that, went around again and we entered few shops to check out some stuffs.
at 2.15 pm, we dashed back to the cinema to watch New Moon.
the cinema was so packed lah i tell you.
the movie was awesomelahh..
after the movie, went again for jalan jalan around dataran pahlawan and makhota parade.
well, the three of us didn't shop anything. hahaha.. we all broke lah.
:) :) :)
later at 6 pm. went back to Melaka Sentral by FaRa's car.
thanks FaRa for the ride. :) :)
overall, yesterday was fun la. New Moon was okay okay.
Jacob is freaking hot hot.
Edward is beautiful as usual. omg. omg. i love his smile.

ok. pictures!

the three of us. LiLy, Me, FaRa.

with LiLy's sister.

ehem. ehem.

that's all i guess,
bye for now.
daaa..

Love,
Me.

i'm so gay :)

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 14:58:00 +0000

yes yes! i'm goin out tomorrow.
with my coursemates, Lily and Fara.
omg. i sound so gay.
after 2 weeks i'm home, finally i can go out and meet my friends.
phew. dad has agreed to give me some pocket money.
weeehoooo..
love you daddy!
can't wait for tomorrow.
omg omg omg.

Love,
Me

omgeeee.

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Tue, 01 Dec 2009 15:51:00 +0000

omg omg omg.

i really hope the plan for tomorrow is going to work out. *pray hard*
so far no news or updates from them.
*sigh*

p/s: each time i plan to go out, something will happen and ruin the plan..huhu.

the gift of a friend.

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 15:41:00 +0000

yeah baby. i'm here again.
:)

currently, i'm hooked with demi's latest song titled 'the gift of a friend'
i like the song and also the lyric is so meaningful.
it made me remember my friends who have been supporting me all this time.
thanks guys. muah2.

my favourite part of the song is,

'when you have a friend by your side,
that helps you to find,
the beauty of all,
when you open your heart and believe in,
the gift of a friend..'

i like this song damn so much.
uhuhuh..
better go now.
my shoulder is paining like wth.

love,
Me.

No Title.

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 07:21:00 +0000

bored bored bored.

freaking bored dowh. uhuhuh.

yesterday i was a bit emo. yeah, i know i know.
today, i don't know yet what will happen to me.
wait and see lah.
ok. i have some new cravings lately.

the list:-

1. i wanna watch new moon badly.
2. Seoul Garden. *drooling*
3. i want new books badly.

that's all i guess.

ciao!
Me.

total loser.

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Sun, 29 Nov 2009 15:00:00 +0000

tsk tsk tsk.

i don't know why i have this feeling.
i feel that my mom and dad aren't excited at all about me going to oversea.
plus, i'm hurt actually. so very hurt.
that my mom and dad didn't congratulate me when i passed the final exam.
:(
i guess they forgot about me.
or they don't care at all.

tsk tsk tsk.

this evening i heard a conversation between my mom and ayip.
i feel very hurt.
i know i shouldn't be emotional about it.
but i can't help it.
i keep thinking about it till rite now.

ayip: mama, ayip nak beli telescope lah.

mama: ko jangan nak ngada2..sekarang nie dah takde shopping2..sume duwet nak kena bagi kat ayong ko.

ok. i feel hurt. deep down in me i feel like my mom and dad don't feel happy about the fact that i'm going to oversea and need to use a lot of money.
if they don't like it at all.
why sent me to Ipsah in the first place.
why let me took the course in the first place.
i feel like i'm putting burden on my parents' shoulder.
i feel useless.
feel like a total loser rite now. bcoz i'm unable to earn my own money.
i still need to cling on parents' money.
i feel hopeless.

i wish i have my own money. sadly i don't have any.
i'm waiting and hoping for the scholarship money.
i need that money badly.

i shall go i guess.

Love,
Me.

people without wisdom.

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Sat, 28 Nov 2009 10:07:00 +0000

ok.
topic for today is 'people without wisdom'

some people are just assholes, dumbass, pig-headed and narrow minded.
and i'm so freaking tired with these types of people.

this usually happen at my hometown. the thing is whenever i meet up with people,
they will ask me questions like,

hey qis, where are you rite know? what course are you taking?

and i will asnwer them like usual,

i'm in Kedah. i'm taking B.Ed TESL in Institut Perguruan Sultan Abdul Halim a.k.a IPSAH.

and they will respond to me,

they will give me this *stink look* and *a raised eyebrow*

ohhh, TESL maktab ker? why didn't you take TESL course in uni?

my respond to them,

*speechless* don't know what to say. the fate brought me there. i can deny fate. *fake smile*

what really got my nerves is...this particular person. well, i don't want to call her as my friend bcoz i hardly know her.

this person, she really looked down upon me when i said i'm taking TESL course in IPSAH.
hey, what's your problem huh?

she's being bitchy bcoz she is a teslian too in U**
she's acting like *macam bagus2 je*

bengong!
who cares if you were studying in uni or whatever!
i don't give a damn about it ok!
i'm not ashamed of my institute. i'm not ashamed of my course.

becoz you want to know something, the course that i'm taking rite now isn't a common course.
well, ehem ehem..our institute is linked with oversea uni.
to be exact, the Victoria University of Wellington.

do you hear it!
i repeat VUW. oversea's uni ok!
in fact, i'm considered lucky enough to have the opportunity to study oversea.
so, you better get jealous of me. *evil laugh* bahahahah..

so, lesson to be learned for today.

don't ever underestimate others' ability and don't ever look down upon other people. don't ever try to judge people when you hardly know them ok.

do you get that!! bear it in your mind.

sorry that i have used vulgar words here. i'm so mean in this post but i have no other choice. i just want those people to wake up and open their eyes widely. don't downgrade other people. nobody's perfect. i don't say that i'm a perfect. i do have weakness. so, please. respect others. i have a very fragile heart. do care about my feelings.

xoxo
Me.

Syukur.

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 15:18:00 +0000

syukur.
alhamdulillah.
the exam result is finally out.
and i'm remarkably satisfied with the grades.
all my hard work is now worth it.
thanks everyone.
thanks lecturers for your guidance.
thanks friends for all the info, study group.
thanks a lot.

i'm happy.
now i can dream about New Zealand.
and shopping list?? really need to crack my brain to list out all the things for the departure.
:)

Love,
Me.

waaaa..

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 10:52:00 +0000

I wanna watch New Moon so damn!

huhu..

what to do. my financial condition doesn't permit me to go out.
yeah, great. I'm stucked inside the house! FOR THE WHOLE DAMN WEEK!
waaaaa...
i wanna see my Edward.
:(

it's very disappointing you know not to be able to go out and to chill out,
grrr..
i'm still waiting for this 'person' to return my money. cepatla cepatla.
huhu..

oh yesterday, i had so much fun with my bro Amat.
he came to our house to see me and to have a chat with me.
for few hours. we talked and talked. and i laughed out loud at all the things he said.
oh gosh. how i miss him so much.

oppss...gtg!
it's maghrib already.

daa..

Love,
Me.

seeking for forgiveness.

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Mon, 23 Nov 2009 19:21:00 +0000

i'm currently reading My sister's keeper.
it's a very interesting novel.
the novel is full of emotions and tears.

p/s: my emotion is so unstable rite now. I feel like I've sinned to God. I did something bad. and God just punished me. Ya Allah, forgive me.

Me being imperfect,
TiNa.

malu-malu kucing (crappy title) hehe..

qistinadareds@hotmail.com (QisTina) — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 16:27:00 +0000

i can feel my cheeks are hot rite now.
i can see my face is reddening with embarrassment rite now.
malu malu malu.
huuuu..

ok.
i just found out from my little brother the letter that i wrote to mama and ayah while i was at Kem Bina Negara has reached home this morning.
and guess what?
mama and ayah already read the letter.

waaaa...
malu malu malu.
melodrama dowh letter tue.
ayat nak touching2.

how am i going to face them? huhu..
ahhhh..don't think too much lah Tina.
why feel shy?
they ain't strangers.
they are our parents.
mama dan ayah kite jugak kan.
buat selamba sudah.
play it cool babeh!

ok peeps.
packing mode!

love,
ME.