Dear Diary

heyya, i'm back.

2012-01-09T21:49:00.002+08:00

ohhh my poor blog. i haven't updated for months. lazy me. sighh. i'm so sorry guys. honestly, i think I've lost my blogging MOJO!! alright, just wanna update what I've been up to these past months.

Completed my 2 years study in Victoria University of Wellington. gosh, i'm so gonna miss Welly!!
Back in Malaysia and spent time with my family that i haven't met for 2 years. i missed them like crazy.
Been on trips to London and Paris. i seriously in love with London. Paris is not so much. it's just not safe to be in Paris. hmm
Back in Ipsah to complete my 4rd year Degree. please please 4rd year be nice to me. huhu
Got a new roomie. very nice and friendly senior. though, i did miss my ex-roomie :P
Tied to ridiculous rules of IPSAH. *nak keluar makan pun mau tulis nama kah?
I've lost some weight since i got back from New Zealand. but since i got back to IPSAH which 2 weeks ago, my large appetite is freaking me out. ohh no-no. i seriously need to maintain my ideal weight. no nasi okay Tina?
I'm looking forward to cuti RAYA CINA. i wanna go homee. seriously, i feel really homesick.

that's all for now. not sure if i could update this blog regularly in the future, like i said, i've lost my blogging mojo. ciao!

Stonehenge, United Kingdom.

Qistina

how did I celebrate my Raya this year?

2011-09-05T20:51:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya semua,
Maaf Zahir Batin.

today is the 5th of Syawal, ohh how time flies.

my dad used to say this "nak raya, nak raya, dah raya dah pun"

Haha. that's so true. kejap je masa berlalu. Ramadhan pun dah berakhir. just feel like as if yesterday we began our puasa. huhuhu. sedihnyaaa Ramadhan dah berlalu. Entah bertemu lagi ke tak Ramadhan tahun depan. Insyaallah, kita jumpa lagi Ya Ramadhan.

Sesungguhnya, Raya di New Zealand isn't bad at all. even without the presence of family members and relatives, we still could have fun and raya's spirit is still in the air. Alhamdullillah, Allah has blessed me with wonderful people around me, so my raya days were full with colours, laughter, happiness and nice FOOD. our house, had 'Raya Open House' on the second Syawal. the three of us, me, Ecah, Lily invited our cohort 3.1 members to our house. I came up with Kuah Kacang and Nasi Himpit, Ecah with her finger lickin finger good Nasi Kerabu and Lily with her mouth-watering Mee Bandung. Our open house was a success. received a lot of good feedbacks from the guests =) mine was the first try ever. thank God, my kuah kacang tasted good. i also baked some kuih raya.

this is my second year i have celebrated my raya without family. of course, i feel really bad about it. i feel really homesick. time malam raya tue, i cried when I heard the takbir, then besoknya time sembahyang raya pun, i cried. at that time, i felt sooooo empty. as if a part of me was missing. i should be beraya with family, but due to circumstances, i couldn't celebrate Raya with my family back in Malaysia. sobss. okey that's enough with 'tacing' story nie. let the pics do the talking aye?

first Syawal, beraya di High Commission of Malaysia.

i had teary eyes. sobsss. listening to takbir raya did touch my heart.

at night, beraya di rumah 'Datin-Datin'.

our Open House on the second of Syawal.

third Syawal, Beraya di rumah Azu dan Izzati. had sup ekor and nasi himpit. yawww

Stadfford Open House

4rd Syawal, beraya di Att, Ada, Izatul, Najwa and Naufal's Open House. tidak lupa jugak Open house Rumah Naia and Mufid :)

copied from my FB's status,

Satu Syawal di NZ, disambut dgn meriah, with nice food, gelak ketawa rakan2 secohort, camwhoring, open house here n there. Still, hati nie terasa sayu tatkala mendengar takbir raya. Mengenangkan Ramadhan yg sudah berakhir, wajah ayah ibu, adik2 nun jauh di sana. Sedih sikit laa. tapi life must go on rite?

Alhamdullillah, raya tahun nie, i managed to smile though i have a little sorrow in my heart.

the day it snowed in Wellington.

2011-08-15T19:28:00.007+08:00

Antarctic blast brought snow to the capital Wellington for the first time since 50 years ago (betul ke fakta nie :P). Sorry i need to do some reading about this very rare phenomenal. huhu.

FYI, Wellington has not snowed for decades. So, when it snowed this morning. it was magical.

i've no idea it will be snowing today. So, i just went out unprepared and clueless. of course i didn't bring the camera. like i said, i didn't know. it was raining heavily at that time. i was on my way to the city to catch a bus to university when suddenly i saw something white, soft falling from the sky. OMG it was SNOW. i was too excited and i quickly held out both my hands to catch a few snowflakes. somehow, i could feel the time just froze. i was so lost in thought, admiring the snowflakes falling around me. that moment was too memorable for me. i didn't care if i would miss my bus. i just need to stop walking. stood there all alone. in the street. admiring the snowfall. i could have sworn, i was smiling all the time. from ear to ear. mula la berangan ade background music playing winter sonata song at that time. AHAHA. what makes me even more happier, passers by that i met, their faces was lit with joy too! everyone was HAPPY. SMILING. gosh, i feel so blessed today. thank you Allah. Ramadhan yang penuh dengan rahmat.

Snow is falling
From the sky above
Falling slowly, smoothly

Soft snowflakes,

Giving the magic to the lives of Wellington,

Snow is falling
Everyone's face is lit up with joy

and jumping with happiness.

Allah, You have not created this for nothing,

Forever we thank You.

p/s: stole the pic from Ecah's FB. thanks roomie! Ecaah merajuk nie. sampai hati camwhoring tak ajak saye. tsk tsk. sob sob.

the worst pain ever.

2011-08-05T17:07:00.006+08:00

Ya Allah,

i'm in pain.

i have had a toothache since yesterday. and the pain is really annoying. gosh, i feel like crying. and yes i cried yesterday. cried in sleep. because the pain is too much to bear. huhu. i got a toothache in the middle of the night yesterday right after i ate a chocolate bar. dang! my left face went numb. somehow i can feel the tooth pain spread to my left ear. and soon I think i will get a headache due to the pain. it's frustrating. i can't sleep. but i want to sleep badly. i have to work tomorrow morning. please please, dear teeth. be nice to me. Ya Allah, dugaan berpuasa. toothache is like the worst pain you could experience in life. it tortures you. the pain is excruciating. sob sob.

anyone who cares to give me some petua for toothache cures? any petua that can help to relieve the pain a little? huhu. i'm in pain >.< help!

There's still tomorrow, forget the sorrow.

2011-08-03T17:43:00.004+08:00

sedih kan? bila diri ini dilupakan. sedih kan? bila diri ini tidak dihargai. sedih kan? bila apa yang diimpikan hanyalah mimpi. tidak tercapai. it's really upsetting. when you are thousands kilometers away from your homeland and nobody cares? especially by your own flesh and blood. sedih kan? when you thought someone as your friend, you cares about them but doesn't go to you when he or she has some problems? sedih kan?

life is good eh? i hate this statement. it's a total lie! life sucks.

when you do good to people, but your good isn't good enough, life's suck.

when you keep doing a mess in things, after all the efforts! life's suck.

when people sarcastically insulted you after all the good things you have done to them. life sucks.

fullstop. stop being emo Tina. it's Ramadhan. a month for self-restraint, reflection, devotion, seeking guidance and forgiveness. sesungguhnya, marah itu sifat yang tidak baik.

Ahlan Wasahlan Ya Ramadhan

2011-08-01T14:32:00.002+08:00

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful,

All the praise and thanks to Allah because i'm still breathing right at this moment, still be given a chance to welcome Ramadhan and to undergo Ramadhan once again. I'm going to make the most of this holy month. I really hope Ramadhan this year will be better than the last. Hoping for a better change. Amin. Insyallah. Berusaha Tina!

Selamat Berpuasa semua :)

just a teaser.

2011-07-20T18:10:00.005+08:00

And finally Winter, with its bitin', whinin' wind, and all the land will be mantled with snow -Roy Bean

the Innocent Charms.

2011-07-19T18:33:00.019+08:00

oh man, my blog is dying. sigh* sorry i've been crazy busy for the past month. June was CRAZYY i tell you. huhu. the teaching Experience, South Island Winter Trip and with the new trimester just started last week, i could hardly breath. phew. So, let's cut the craps, i'm gonna update on what i've been up to these days.

Ok first, i'm gonna blog about my 2 weeks of teaching experience in Churton Park School, Johsonville. Waking up so early in the morning for the school, preparing for the lesson, doing the teaching and observation, interacting with associate teacher and fooling around with the kids. I gotta admit, those were pretty cool and such great experiences for me.

You can learn many things from children. How much patience you have, for instance. ~Franklin P. Jones

the 2 weeks time i had spent with the kids was unforgettable for me. thank you Room 9 students for giving me the opportunity to be a part of your awesome classroom. Room 9 rocks! you guys are FUN FUN FUN. gonna miss all of youuuuu. sobs sobs. And too Maree, my associate teacher, thank youu for everything. your advice, guidance are really useful for my future practices.

auwww, you're soooo sweet Ian <3 thanks too for the memories.

the girls and Me. they are soo pretty <3

Farewell Room 9 students. I just hope you guys do remember me bcause I will never ever forget you guyss <3 <3 <3

Children make you want to start life over. ~Muhammad Ali

p/s: i missed my childhood days. at least being a child, i'm free to be who I am. being an adult, i will always take account of what people will say about me. People's opinions have always distracted me from being myself again. sigh. oh sorry. i shouldn't be emo. AHAHA

oh yeah, Winter trip will be updated soon :D not today i guess. So lazyyy :P

So cheesy. AHAHA

2011-05-24T15:49:00.005+08:00

while browsing the older posts of mine. i can't help it but to laugh insanely. lawak okay. the writings and the choice of words were so lame and childish. honestly, i don't have the talent to write creatively. that's me and that's okay. at least. i tried. i tried to journal my thoughts, stupid rants and my life events. for what purpose? because 20 years from now, i'll be reading again the older posts and i know i'll be laughing my ass off reading them. it would be a light entertainment for me in the future :D

kau pergi.

2011-05-22T10:28:00.007+08:00

3rd death news i received since I've been in New Zealand.

Atuk Leman has passed away yesterday. he has gone to meet his Creator.

Inna Lillahi Wa Inna Ilahi Rajioon. May Allah rest his soul in peace.

i wish i could be with my mom right at this moment. i feel sad because i couldn't be there when she needed me the most. her beloved father has passed away. i know mama is terribly devastated by this lost. Atuk Leman has left us and i believe he is in a better place. Allah lebih sayangkan atuk Mama.

Dear Mama,

you'll have to be strong. my thoughts and prayer are always with atuk. Moga roh atuk dicucuri rahmat. Moga Allah tempatkan atuk di kalangan orang beriman. Amin. he's a good person. i will never forget Atuk. i've accepted this news positively. i grieved but i didn't let tears to come out. i held myself from crying and sobbing. because i knew, it wouldn't make a difference whether i cried. Atuk has gone forever. nothing i do in this world will ever bring him back. So friends and whoever reads this post, please pray my atuk. Al-Fatihah for him.

Mama kuat tau. i love you.

Atuk Leman, Pak Ngah Norzan, Nenek. May Allah grant you with Jannah. Al-Fatihah for them. friends, i'd like to request you guys to recite Al-Fatihah for them. thanks.

children killing children?

2011-05-20T18:40:00.009+08:00

hello blog,

ok honestly, the title creeps me out. huhu.

last Wednesday, during Epsy 343 lecture, the topic was really2 interesting. about youth and crimes. the topic immediately captured my interest. why? because i'm a huge fan of cops procedural shows. haha. shows like CSIs, Criminals Minds are my thing. in the lecture, my lecturer Chris gave a case that happened in 1993, in Liverpool, England. known as the murder of James Bulger. two 10 years old boys who played truancy that day, abducted baby James 2 years old from his mother at a shopping mall and took him for 2 miles walk, battered him to death and left his mutilated body on the rail track. omg. that is wicked. such a heinous act to be committed by such young boys.

that night, when i was online-ing. i youtubed a bit about the murder of James Bulger. found that the killers were just kids from the neighborhood, with innocent look. i just don't understand. how could a child kills other child? i mean they were too young to commit such act. how could they think about hurting other people? where did they get such immoral idea from? from media? computer games perhaps? should we blame the parents? or the teachers? who didn't notice their disturbing behaviors at first. honestly this case is very disturbing. i couldn't forget the image of happy baby James. that poor baby trusted those boys without knowing that was the last day he lived on this earth. sad. this is so sad. i hate this kind of crime. i just don't understand. WHY?

p/s: please please people. get to know your children well. monitor your children behaviors. keep holding their hands. don't let them go. the important is to love your children. don't drag them into your life problems. it's going to be the worst nightmare ever for parents, to wake up the next day, to know that your child has killed other child. and it's all because of your bad upbringings. this is sad. you don't want that right? so please. learn your children well.

Rugby and Rant.

2011-05-09T18:18:00.006+08:00

hello blog,

out of all days in a month, today is the day. Gosh, the pain i have endured this morning, i could not describe through words laa. my stomach is churning, burning and twisting. ouch. T.T

ok let's forget about the stomach part. i slept for 5 hours today. skipped Peter Gu's lecture. had no choice. my stomach hurts so much. i had to lay on my bed. when i woke up, dashed, rushed to the university. had discussion with Kiwi course mates and Mona. felt happy because i have contributed something towards the discussion. they're gonna use my ideas during the seminar presentation. cool aite? *blushing* thanks mates :)

now, feel serabut. July is nearing. that means Winter trip is coming soon. Gonna fly to Dunedin. heard that South Island's scenery is beautiful during winter. at the same time, gonna give our support and cheers for our WMSO athletes during Bersatu Games. Dunedin is the host for this year's Bersatu Games.

okay, why i feel serabut? i'm worrying over the budgets. money money. nak jalan perlukan pulus. sigh. nak menyimpan lagi. nak jalan lagi. letih. BUT. if i don't travel, it would be a waste kan? our gov send us to here for what?? STUDYYYY. err no. TRAVELLING. ahaha. okay. joking :P i wanna be a Billionaire so freaking baaad. buy all of the things i never had . . .

tetiba nyanyi lagu Bruno Mars??

okay then. nuff crapping. i need to do some reading a lil bit then off to sleep. i'm working tomorrow. huh. annoyed with my boss. dia lupa bayar gaji :(

alright, last Friday, went to watch Rugby between Wellington Hurricanes and Auckland Blues. too bad Hurricanes lost. Blue rulez and topping the table. fine. whatever. i still had fun :D

Westpac Stadium. Hoho.

True fan :D

Happy Mama's Day!

2011-05-08T19:59:00.006+08:00

Dear Mama,

i'm 100% sure that you won't be reading this. because you don't have a blog and you don't even know the existent of my blog. ahaha. because i didn't tell you :P

ok let's get straight. i wanna wish you Happy Mother's Day Mama <3

Mama,

thanks for bringing me into this world,

thanks for teaching me about life,

thanks for raising me up and Insyaallah I'll become a better person. it's all because of your guidance and prayer.

thanks for putting up with me all this while, after all the craps i have pulled over the years, you still forgive me and stay with me,

you're so forgiving mom, though i was kinda misbehaved to you.

thanks for everything.

i don't know what to say anymore. to list out all your sacrifices and what you have done to me, it could be millions.

Mama,

i'm sorry if i'm not being a good daughter,

i'm sorry if i ever make you cry,

i'm sorry if i ever hurt your feelings,

i'm sorry if i ever not being thankful after what all you did to me,

i'm sorry for not giving you a call so often,

i'm sorry if i have you let you down,

i'm sorry for everything.

I love you bits and pieces Mama.

and i hope you love me too :)

auuwww mama and ayah are such a romantic couple. ayah are you sticking your tongue out? nakal lah ayah nie. ahaha. mama, hugs ketat-ketat, jangan biar ayah lari. hehe. Happy Mama's Day MAMA. love you heaps mama. Always will.

Sorry Sinchi.

2011-04-27T23:07:00.007+08:00

my beloved lil bro,

i'm sorry. i didn't mean to make fun of you. i didn't mean to call you like that. please forgive ayong. it's just joke. you know ayong kan? never be serious. always goofing around. always sakat ayip. hehe. i know you okay. i know you won't turn out like that. i believe in you. my bro is good boy kan? betul tak? baik cakap. hehe.

remember the times when i used to call you atasinchi, budak sinchi. sebab kita suka tengok anime Atasinchi dulu-dulu. i missed those moments. it was pretty funny. how we ended up calling each other sinchi. ahaha. then, ayah would get mad, and asked us to stop calling each other sinchi. haha. ayong still can recall what ayah said "korang nie macam budak-budak". ish, suddenly missing ayah. ayip punya pasal la nie :P

budak sinchi, i know you're reading this. tak payah comment lagi bagus. ahahahaha.

7 months to go.

2011-04-26T15:57:00.007+08:00

i hate it when time flies so quickly. it's been a year since i came to NZ. feel like so yesterday when my family bid me farewell at the airport. as the day passes by, i feel paranoid. feel like i'm losing. losing something precious. bulan jangan biar siang ):

just got back from Paekakariki Holiday Camp yesterday. one word to describe my feelings. i feel blessed. love this camp very much! missing there already. it was a great experience for me. i got to make new friends, ukhuwah, gain useful knowledge, camwhoring.

oh yeah, i hate it when people use sarcasm to make fun of other people. especially in the public. hello, do respect people. tak baik jatuhkan air muka orang. jangan pandai menyindir orang kalau diri sendiri pun 2x5. sigh.

jiwa tengah kacau nie, i have 2 big assignments due next week. my life's been invading by assignments, tests. crap. i'm losing grip. the previous assignment didn't do me good. dimana silap nya? i don't know. i can foresee continuous sleepless nights next week. huhu. die die. berusaha Tina. you can do it girl!

p/s: credits to Att for the nice shot.

I will be away again.

2011-04-22T19:44:00.006+08:00

hey hey,

Easter break still got one week left. So tomorrow, will be away again, to go camping in Kapiti. it's organized by kakak2 Usrah. i feel so excited to go:) i will be there for 3 days and 2 nights. hopefully from this camping experience, i will gain something useful. pengisian dan ukhuwah. who doesn't want that? :) plus, i got to enjoy the nature as well. there'll be two groups. i'm in group 2 that will present about tokoh dan srikandi Islam Rabiatul Adawiyah. can't wait to see what will our group be presenting during the last day of the camp. okey dookie, gotta resume packing.

cheerios peeps :D

p/s: ayip, i know you're reading this. stalker! AHAHA. mama ayah sihat kah? awat lama tak call ayong. tell them, ayong merajuk lah cam nie.

Marry me, Mr. Mars.

2011-04-21T18:20:00.010+08:00

Mr. Bruno Mars,

when i hear your voice,

the whole world stops and stares for a while,

coz you're amazing,

just the way you are.

Bruno Mars' concert at Vector Arena, Auckland was awesome. the crowd was crazyy i tell you. everyone was singing and cheering. me as well. it was a great concert i reckon. totally it's worth to gooo :) :) Bruno Mars made us scream like crazy with his coolness, dance skills and angelic voice. the way he played the guitar was really cool too. He's not handsome ahaha. But his dimple, his sweetness, his smile are soo ohhh la la. mesmerizing. all his hits songs were out. my fav were Grenade, Marry you, Nothing on you. it's sad that he missed Talking to the moon. i love that song! the crowd went crazy again when Bruno sung his super famous catchy song Just the way you are. OMG. his voice is sooo beautiful. i was melting from afar. Ahaha. my biggest disappointment is at times i couldn't really hear Bruno's singing because of the loud CROWD. Grrr. they sang like a suck choir. Boo! and i wanna hit the groups in front of me because they were blocking me from seeing my Mr. Mars. Grrr. jakun punya orang. duduk elok-elok boleh tak? okay pics!

the place where Mr. Mars was performing.

Vector Arena from inside.

us :D

well, i'm not going to upload my video version due to a very bad quality. helloo, i was like standing 20 metres err i think so from Mr. Mars. wuwuwu. So, i'll just share a video from youtube which has a really good quality. i mean this guy who recorded this was standing from the very front row. whoa, feel so jealous with this guy. this video is clear enough that i get to see his dimple. ahaha

eh dah Easter?

2011-04-16T22:00:00.006+08:00

Hello world,

Happy Easter Break! let's make use this 2 weeks break to the fullest kay. away to Auckland for a couple of days. sigh. this is the 4th time I've been to Auckie T.T

for the sake of Bruno Mars, pi je laaa. ahaha. pi naik scenic train. balik naik flight. moga selamat pergi dan balik. Amin.

Asean Night Market was awesome today. i just can't keep my eyes off them. Bahtera Budaya rocks! i feel special and unique to be Malaysian :) :) it's such a regret i didn't participate in this year's Bahtera. wuwuwuwu. time constraint and assignments bla bla bla :(

never mind, i got the chance last year :) anyway, good jobs guys for bringing out a great show! wehooo. like sangat2. hehe

alright then, gonna resume packing. Night people. cheerios!

there's always a sunshine behind every pain.

2011-04-11T22:44:00.005+08:00

Disapointments always come and greet me,
and how i face them?
I sigh, I cry, I blame and I scream in my head,
sayings like "my life sucks" and "I hate my life"
play continuously in my head.
after some time,
I do realize,
Disapointments are nothing.

don't go and fret over it.
because God has a better plan for me.
I just need to be patient.
God is great. bear in mind Tina.

"Know only with the remembrance of Allah, hearts will find satisfaction"
(Surah Ar-Ra'd 13:28)

Pray for Japan.

2011-03-15T19:36:00.005+08:00

i got nothing to say.

but my heart goes out to those who have been affected by this horrendous disaster. Be strong people.

3rd year degree is driving me nuts o.o hoping i could make it to the end. berusaha!

yours truly,

Tina <3

welcome 3rd year degree.

2011-03-05T17:06:00.017+08:00

hello world,

my oh my. i still can't believe trimester 1 has started. crap, i'm busy with classes. sobs. managed to change subject. bye bye ENG 117. hello EPSY 341. Many have asked me. why changed? well, i have my own reasons for that.

I've attended the lectures for ENG 117 (how to read stories) for this week. but i'm having difficulty to understand all lectures so far. actually, i don't understand a thing. it's just so hard. sobs. I found out also that i'm the only Malay (Asian) for this subject. last year, there was 2 streams offered. one for native speakers and another for Malaysian B. Ed Tesol. but this year only one stream being offered. unfortunately i'm in native speakers stream. i'm so worried that i won't make it. so that's why i withdrew.

I've decided to change to EPSY 341 Classroom Studies. i think I might do well with this subject. Insyaallah. because during first year degree we learned Classroom Management subject with Mr. Basil Surin. So, i already have the basic knowledge about classroom studies i guess. solid reasons i guess. haha. so final subjects for trimester 1 are:

ALIN 301 Approaches to Grammar

EPSY 341 Classroom Studies

EPSY 343 Youth & Life Challenges

wish me luck guys. oh yeah, in just a week time, Wellington was hit with earthquake twice. that's hella scary. gosh. i pray to Allah that no harm will befall Welly and its people. Amin ya Rabbal alamin.

another thing. i lost a job because of my timetable. i'm heart broken seriously. sometimes, luck isn't always at my side. maybe there is a reason. takda rezeki. rezeki orang lain agaknya. it's fine. rezeki manusia lain-lain kan. bersabarlah wahai hati.

hurm, i have a trivia question for you guys to ponder.

what would you feel, if the person you're living with badmouthing/making fun about you especially when i don't know. sleeping maybe?

if i were in that situation, i cried. i cried in sleep. LOL . okaaaay that's all i think. it's a long post. i know. sorry :P

ciao.

tick tock on the clock.

2011-02-21T17:40:00.014+08:00

hello earthlings :D

one week left before the trimester starts. oh crap. i just feel that i'm not ready for the school. the truth is, i'm quite rusty :P my bad my bad. siapa suruh tak membaca bila free time? nie tak, asyik movies-marathon je. huhu.

man, it's effing hot nowadays. me and sun can never be best friends. i'm sun phobic seriously. and i really wish for summer to end soon. DAMN HOT. i just don't understand why people keep saying summer is happiness. for me summer is like 'you get freak out whenever you are in front of a mirror because you're getting darker and badly sunburn'. LOL

haha. totally ignore it. i'm just crapping. well, some of my friends are now back in Welly. chewaah, orang baru balik dari Malaysia katakan laa. grrr, i envy them so much. ohh damn. now i feel homsick. again. mom, dad. i wanna go home +_+

okay patience Tina. it's just a matter of time now. another 9 months to go okay. just calm down and breathe. phew.

at the city today, i've encountered with a lot of Malaysians a.k.a the juniors. haha. i just felt it really funny. it didn't feel like oversea anymore. well beware, Wellingtonians. it's Malaysian invasion. run for your lives :P

i'm such in a good mood today. am i? pelik kan? haha. it's funny because the previous post i was like broken. perhaps, cookies and cream chill from Gloria Jeans i had this evening has somehow brighten my day today. and the cool companions also. thanks guys.

alright, i'm out!

my heart. please stop paining.

2011-02-19T18:59:00.011+08:00

dear diary.

my heart is in so much pain.

i don't know why? i feel terribly homesick right at this moment. if i could be given just a day to be with my family. i'd be really glad and thankful. i need that. i need a support. because it seems that my life is falling apart. i'm losing grip. the current me is i'm standing on a line between letting go and how much more i can take.

when i performed prayer just now. somehow, i had tears in my eyes. i was praying to God with tears in my eyes. gosh, i miss them so much. i feel so very alone. i have so many people around me. but why do i feel unhappy? why do i feel empty? i worry so much. even a tiny little thing. i freak out. this is a test for me. Allah is testing me. i should not lose faith. please Tina. don't lose hope. Ya Allah, please set my heart free from sadness and emptiness. And please help me forget the things that worry me so much. i can't breath for it weighs heavy in my heart. like i could stop breathing anytime.

i'm so sick of putting fake smile on my face everytime. i'm tired of pretending to be happy go lucky whereas am not. why am i not like the others? why is it always me? why am i different. funny. i asked a lot. but i never get any answers. life is a riddle. sometimes, you just can't figure it out.

i missed the good old days. i miss to have them around me. i wish there's someone who could give me a little hug at this moment. a lil hug is enough to nurse my aching heart. a friend maybe?

Summer Sunshine.

2011-02-18T18:44:00.011+08:00

kiora and hye people!

oh my gosh. my blog is dying. sorry for the lack updates. i'm busy. plus, there isn't much to share here. so today, i'm gonna share the details of what's happening in my life for the past few weeks kay?

alhamdulillah. i have 3 jobs ongoing. yup that's true. Allah is the best provider. all you have to do is work hard and have a bit of patience. rezeki manusia kan lain-lain. Allah knows best.

we moved out again. damn. hate it. it's a complicated process y'know. we moved in to our new house at 57/3E Boulcott Street, Lambton, Wellington. our new house is just nice for 3 tenants. comfy and spacious. hoyeah, this year we live in the city centre. cool huh? unfortunately, our house is quite far from the university. well, does not matter i guess. bus kan ade? stairs pun ade. hehe.

there are some pros and cons about living in the city. first, there's a huge tendency to shop when your house is just a few blocks away from Cotton On, Gloria Jeans, Jay Jay, New World. i'm doomed. because i know, i could't resist them away. especially, cookies and cream chill from Gloria Jeans. i'm addicted to it XD

Second, i'm going to visit university rarely. because it's far okay. i have this disease. lazyness. huhu. uni's library which used to be my favourite place and my best companion now it's going to be less visited from now on. nah, i don't like this. whatever happens, i'm gonna make library the most visited place than others. have heard of this saying before? "berkawan dengan ilmu, bercinta dengan buku". Insyaallah. go Tina!

another thing about living far from the uni, i might not be able to attend all the event or activities related to B.Ed Tesol. this is a disadvantage to me. ohh man. i don't want to be kera sumbang. no matter happens, i got to find the will to be present in all events organized by university. bukit pun bukit la. akan ku daki. Go Tina!

i hope this year has a lot to offer. living in the city might be both advantage and disadvantage. but i'm gonna fix it right. i can do this. i must find the will. Go Tina!

ohh by the way, welcome Juniors! i hope you guys are having a good time here. windy Welly kan? so great to see you guys. muka-muka excited and full of passion. well, i'm sure you guys will be just fine. all the best, study smart and enjoy the life as New Zealander kay?

notes to self: manusia akan sentiasa berasa tidak puas hati dan mencari silap orang lain. tapi mereka lupa, mereka pun silap. how to deal? just have a bit of patience and say sorry if you're wrong. then the life goes on.

Been there. Done that.

2011-02-07T13:30:00.010+08:00

the trip to North Island is considered memorable for me. because i had a lot of fun there. i had spent big money doing several activities that i would never forget for the rest of my life. money does not matter to me. what matter is, the experiences. they are so precious to me. well, check them out :)

water-rafting at Kaituna River, Rotorua. hampir lemas dan sangat kenyang terminum air sungai. haha. ohh yeah, jerit kuat gila time kat waterfall nie. we're going down!

sempat lagi posing. haha.

horse riding at Kawerau. drizzling at that time. introducing Annie. she's gorgeous right?

kedekut kedekut. kami merentasi sungai. menarik kan?

sky-diving at Whangarei. 12,000 feet dari paras laut. damn. what the hell i was thinking? this is suicide for god sake!

nay. i already did bungee okay. this is only sky-diving. it's nothing. i'm not scared. jumped from the plane and i was flying. the feeling was so carefree and it was hell awesome! i did it man. fear isn't a part of me anymore. I'm so cool. *wink*

i did it. when is your turn people? come on. are you chicken? this is a lifetime chance. trust me. you won't regret it :P

trip to the North. Jan 2011.

2011-02-05T17:52:00.011+08:00

so, i guess this is it. i'm gonna update on my trip to North Island a few weeks ago. there were 9 of us. to tell the truth, a week wasn't enough for us. North island tersangat laa besar okay. gila tak sempat nak pergi semua tempat within a week. yang paling best, singgah di Auckland, pekena Dunkin Donuts. haha. it's been a year kot, tak merasa Dunkin Donuts. puas hati aku dapat makan. huhu. okay jangan gelak. kat Welly takda Dunkin Donuts. LOL. though time was short, we did manage to visit the popular tourist attractions in North Island. along the way, there's not a word to describe the beauty of North Island. Cape Reinga especially. i still recall when we were about to leave Cape Reinga. i said to them that i don't want to leave this place that i want to stay here. This is place is so dreamy. And they replied, tak nak balik sudah. hang tinggal sini. haha. i just wanna say that i'm thankful to be sent studying in here. so glad to be given the chance to view all this. God's creations. Subhanallah.

okay dokey enough babbling.. let the pictures do the talking kay?

Keri-Keri Stone House. it is said that this is the oldest bulding in New Zealand.

Ancient Kauri Kingdom

90 Mile Beach

Cape Reinga. this place is heaven.

Sand Dunes. yang paling best, camera rosak sebab pasir masuk lens. sobsss.

we came back safely. ocean of thanks to drivers (the boys). it was a nice trip. we did some awesome activities during the trip too. horse-riding, water-rafting and sky-diving will be posted later. hehe.

ciao.

Patience is a virtue.

2011-02-03T14:05:00.004+08:00

tidak ada yang lagi besar di dalam dunia ini selain dari bersabar. i just need to have a bit of patience inside me. sooner or later Allah will answer my prayer. Allah itu kan Maha Pemurah. things that i pray for, maybe i don't really need them. Maybe Allah has got some better plans for me. Allah knows best. i just need to continue to have faith in Him.

things aren't going really well for me. okay. sila muhasabah diri Tina. what have i done? have i forgotten something? maybe i'm slacking here and there. maybe i did something sinful. it's time to change Tina. change for the better.

the ugly truth.

2011-01-30T18:12:00.008+08:00

while browsing through my Ipod playlist, i realize that i have a lot of Avril songs. what da heck kan? i mean after Lady Gaga, do people still listen to Avril songs? i don't know. sigh.

looking back at the past. i couldn't believe i was really into Avril. i memorized all her songs. i bought all her CDs. yada yada.

i remember those days. i was young, stubborn, loud, angry, rebellious and i grew up listening to her songs. on the opposite, i was pictured by people as a 'good' kid. where as in the inside, i was burning with rage, i was yelling, i was so sick feeling worthless all the time. to tell the truth, i was going through a hard time during my teenage years. everything was a mess. i was so fucked up. i was angry all the time. high school was suck. so much of friendship. mostly, i was mad at my parents. everything i did was so wrong to them. most of Avril songs described a lot of what i had been going through in life as a teenager. so that's why Avril songs were my lullaby those days. i know this is kinda embarrassing, i still listen to her old songs whenever i feel bored. goodness, i'm 21 years old now :P

am i a bit old to listen to her songs? she's like a teen Idol. my teenage years have gone long ago. i'm a young adult now. blaaahh. seriously, her songs are haunted. i just keep humming to her songs. eventho i'm 21 now. haha. yeah, call me lame. laugh at me. i don't care. this is me. at the end of the day, it's still going to be me. deal with it :P

to think that i was so fucked up those days, i hated my high school days. deep down inside my heart, i kinda missed the good old days. i miss THEM. if i was given a chance to turn back time, i wanna be a teenager once again and live my life to the fullest. but i can't. past is past. i have to keep moving on. let go of yesterdays.

this is my world.

2011-01-27T13:19:00.015+08:00

worked for 3 hours today. tired like hell. after work, walked back home. felt thirsty.

on the way, stopped at Gloria Jeans. bought cookies and cream chill. put my earphones in. volume up. put my Ipod on replay to the same song. 'Just a dream'

sipped my drink. continued walking. ignore the world.

the world around me seemed so still. people on the street didn't give me a damn.

didn't even look at me. and i realized it was the coolest feeling ever.

me and my world. my Ipod is my world.

yeah i know. this is crap :P

p/s: i need a blogging mojo. sigh.

just a dream.

2011-01-25T14:12:00.006+08:00

i was thinking about YOU, thinking about ME, thinking about US,

what we gonna be?

open my eyes,

it was only just a DREAM.

boy oh boy. i've been listening to this song for almost 100 times since yesterday. kinda hooked to this song. i don't really like the original version by Nelly. i like Sam Tsui and Christina Grimmie duet even more. i just in love with their voice. i know. i sound so lame. this song has been out for ages. sigh. told ya. i don't really up to date with the latest music now and then :P

i listened to this song once before but i wasn't really interested with it. then, my housemate Lily introduced to me this song again a few nights ago. SNAP! suddenly i just i love this song. tehehe.

i'm home.

2011-01-24T18:03:00.003+08:00

psssst. i'm back guys. safely arrived. alhamdulillah. thanks guys for the wonderful trip. sigh. so much to share. but, i'm tired tonight. will update about the my trip real soon okay? hehe.

yeay! jalan-jalan lagi.

2011-01-15T13:25:00.011+08:00

gosh.

omaigod.

i'm so excited plus nervous. can't wait for the road trip tomorrow night. will be departing from Wellington at midnight and proceed straight to Rotorua. will be touring around North Island for a week with housemates and few Ipsah friends. oh well, a lot of housekeeping need to be done i guess. packing especially. ohh yeah, here's our road trip route.

Wellington-Rotorua-Auckland-Paihia-Kaitaia-Cape Reinga-Hamilton-New Plymouth-Wellington

all i could hope is that Allah will bless our journey. May everything goes well and the most important thing is that we all will have fun together. Bye Wellington. don't miss me kay? tehehe.

i smell adventure and damn it! i want in.

you don't have to travel world wide you know. we have everything here in New Zealand. you want Europe? we have Europe-like places in New Zealand. no kidding kay. cheers people!

Summer is happiness.

2011-01-12T09:07:00.012+08:00

hello beautiful people,

it's been a while since i last blogged. anyhoo, i'd like to update on what happened last Sunday. so, we went for a picnic at Kaitoke Regional Park, Upperhutt. ocean of thanks to the organizers, kakak-kakak senior yang baik hati. it's my 2nd time i've been to Upperhutt. the last time, i went there for school-based teaching experience. about half an hour of driving, we finally reached there.

well, camwhore is a must. lucky that Att brought her DSLR. we set up and everything and several of us decided to play and swim in the river. me? NO-NO. the water was freezing cold. brrrrr.

why does every pic that i took in NZ must have ducks as the background?

the group photo. it was fun and satisfying day i reckon. got to spend some time with kakak-kakak senior tersayang, delicious lunch, had cool chit-chat with them. thanks again all.

what's your resolution people?

2011-01-02T21:33:00.010+08:00

as for mine. i don't have a fixed resolutions. but i have few. here the list goes:

i just hope i will see 2012. i hope to be blessed with good health. Insyallah.
i want to study harder. no more fooling around. time to get real serious.
i want to improve more on my language proficiency.
i want to instill good habits inside ME and to get rid of the unproductive habits.
i hope to blessed with wonderful and good people around ME and promise myself i will not take them for granted.
i want to appreciate every single thing that happens to me throughout this year.
i want to find ways that can make me happy and be at peace. i hate being emo all the time. it's cheesy you know.
i want to search for HIM. to get closer to HIM. i hated myself for walking further from HIM.
i want to keep in touch with my family. calling mom and dad more often and FB-ing with my brothers everyday.
i want to save some money for the future and traveling purpose. i don't want to waste money on unimportant stuff anymore.

hurm. that's all i guess? i could list out like a million. yet, these are the most important things that i want to achieve this year. you can do this Tina. Aja!

cheers people!

the best of ME in 2010.

2010-12-31T22:58:00.015+08:00

Happy New Year World! hugssss to everyone. May this year be better than the last. May 2011 will be kinder to me. i really hope 2011 has a lot to offer. so every new year, we get to start all over again. i wanna start fresh this year. aja!

tsk tsk tsk

2010 has left us already. sobs. i bid you goodbye 2010. how time flies. isn't? i still couldn't believe it. it seems so yesterday all the things that ever happened to me. so i'm gonna take a trip down memory lane to reminisce the best of me in 2010.

Best things happened to me:

1. flying to New Zealand. A proud student of Victoria University of Wellington. the farthest i have been away from my family and tanah tumpah darahku, Malaysia.

2. explored the Wellington City. been to Kapiti, Mt. Vic, Island Bay, Palmy and so much more.

3. took part in the Asian Festival. it was my first time ever performing Chinese dance steps. it was an awesome experience for me. performing in front of the Kiwi. kinda cool you know.

4. celebrated my 21 birthday by watching Eclipse movie with the darlings. also, my friends even surprised me with a birthday party. thanks guys.

5. experienced all the four season in Wellington. my fav season is Spring and i hate Winter the most. freezing to death i tell ya.

6. have been on trips to Mt. Ruapehu, Rotorua, Auckland, Sydney, Christchurch and Queenstown.

7. tried bungy jumping, swoop, sky swing and played ski for the very first time.

8. bought an Ipod Touch and a Netbook.

9. joined Usrah. learned precious things. met with a lot of wonderful people. feel blessed.

10. my first time ever fasting in oversea. it was a great experience for me. had to cook my own dishes, sahur and break fast with friends instead of family. well, i did miss my family somehow.

11. my first time ever to celebrate Raya in oversea and without family. again. turns out it wasn't really horrible at all. open houses here and there. cool friends to hang out with, Rendang, Ketupat, Raya cookies. i have to admit, i kinda forgot my family back in Malaysia for a while.

12. worked as a cleaner during summer. thrilled by the fact that i was able to earn my own money.

13. 31/12/2010 11.00 p.m. first time ever, we celebrated Syamil's 22nd birthday at Oriental Harbour.

Well Done Tigers! Auummmm.

2010-12-30T13:51:00.009+08:00

Congratulation Malaya Tigers for winning the Suzuki Cup 2010!!

Malaysia Boleh! Hip hip hooray!

Auummmmm. Roar!

Boys, you guys have made our country so proud and silenced all the critics being thrown at the squad for the past few years. Love you boys. what can i say, you are the KING of Asean :)

yeah, take that Indo! we have put up with you, your media, your nation for quite a while. this is a payback after all bad things that you all have been doing to our country. the flags burning. the false accusations, jealousy, boos and jeers. whatever kay? because we WON! yeay! hurrah!

look guys. try to clear something here. it's just a football for goodness sake. there's no need at all to make such chaos and noises. you guys beat us 5-1 the other day and we only defeated you guys on 4-2 aggregate je okay? come on. it's fair and square. don't be childish okay? peace for all the mankind :)

p/s: blaah, Fahmi is the new trending topic since yesterday. girls are falling for him. whatdaheck? people, don't go for looks, go for what is in the inside of that person. go for what he brings to the table. wink* peace out.

when Dean meets Olive. heaven knows. haha.

2010-12-29T17:08:00.014+08:00

since i have one job at the moment. you can tell that i'm all free and always be at home. so, in order to make my life less suck i've been doing movie/tv series-marathon. wanna know what i have been watching recently?

oh wait up. let's pray for our boys' victory tonight. Go Tigers! auuuuummm. Go kick the Garuda ass.

okay here the list goes,

Do Dooni Chaar. a comedy Hindi movie which portrays themes of family and life. i had a big LOL watching this movie. the story is about a school teacher and his family who struggle to buy a car. along the journey to achieve their dream, they encounter a lot of problems. but they all stand together as one family and back each other up. this movie is worth watching i tell ya. rating 4/5

Supernatural season 1-5. man, i still can't get enough with these series. the plot was crap i tell ya. helloo, angels disobeyed? Dean and Sam have died so many times yet they are still alive again? that's bull. haha. anyhoo, the Winchester brothers is IRRESISTIBLE. i mean who doesn't fall for cute and HOT dudes who hunt monsters and even kill angels? hella, i'm IN. totally. rating 5/5the Mentalist season 1. hurm. the plot was okay. has got some humour too. but i still think CSIs and Criminal minds are much more interesting and worth watching than this. i mean they have like more shooting scenes and so-called conflicts. anyhoo, Patrick Jane is quite dashing in this show. i like it when he smiled. rating 3/5

finally. Easy A. the movie that got me ROFL. Emma Stone rocks in this movie. i couldn't stop laughing you know when Olive was doing the fake sex with her gay friend. BLOL. i seriously had fun watching this movie. haha. don't get me wrong. this is no porno movie okay? this is a chick flick that tells about lies, rumours, bffs and on. rating 4/5

i wish this feeling will go away.

2010-12-28T14:10:00.004+08:00

urgh.

i'm so gonna hate FB from now on. seriously, FB is getting a lot on my nerves. the truth is, i feel like crying. i was ditched. by THEM. and it feels only God knows. i'm so very hurt. damn.

have you ever feel like you don't belong? like to anyone. anywhere. anything. well, i've been there so many times. what's the word? o.u.t.c.a.s.t. yeah that's ME. gosh. i'm so sick feeling worthless all the time. the more i try to care. the more i will end up hurt and lonely. thanks Facebook. you SUCK!

so not in the list. sigh*

2010-12-27T11:59:00.006+08:00

guess what guys?

i bought a new laptop yesterday. hurrah? i don't think so. well, to be exact a netbook. a HP brand. my previous lappy dah KO. yeay. super GREAT. sobsss. so yesterday, went to Harvey Norman since it was boxing day. without thinking even further about the future and on. i just bought a new lappy. tadaa!

DIE.CRAP. trip to North Island is in January. duit keluar macam air je kan?. sigh. i need 2nd and 3rd job i think. it's time to buck up. no more money will be spent on CLOTHES, BUBBLE TEA, GLORIA JEANS, NANDOS, and so on. Tina darling. you can do this girl. i know the outside world can be pretty tempting. Tina, you must not get easily distracted by those sale signs. man, you really need to keep your head held high. huh. i wish.

I wish for an Apple.

2010-12-23T22:55:00.002+08:00

Boy oh boy. Seriously, I'm really worried about my sleeping patterns nowadays. I have been suffering from insomnia these days. I usually all awake the whole entire night and will only fall to sleep after the sunrise which around 6 or 7 am. Damn. I miss my normal sleep time. Yet, there is one thing that have been upsetting me these days. I think my 3 years old laptop is pretty worn out already. So screw me. How on earth am I going to get a new laptop for myself? My current savings can't afford to buy me a laptop. Oh God help me. Huhu. Please please my dear lappy. Be nice to me kay? Sigh. Gosh, today was the tiring day ever. Worked for almost 4 hours but seemed like forever. Hate doing the ironing and the beds. Sigh. I have no choice I guess. Not working which means no money. Sigh again. Have to save up in case my lappy will ruin someday. Well fingers crossed that won't happen I hope. I mean I sayang giler kat my lappy tue tau. It was a gift from my late nenek. that's why I really value it. Oh well, I have been eyeing Macbook Air lately. man, I'm totally in love with that thang seriously. K gotta go. Ciao!

Does it work??

2010-12-19T22:44:00.000+08:00

Updating my blog through iPod rite now. Just learned on how to do it from Zack. I wonder will it work?

Sent from my iPod

Thoughts.

2010-12-18T20:42:00.003+08:00

i have Tumblr account already. yeah i’m totally NOOB. like i care. haha. gosh. this thing is so complicated. thank GOD i have blogspot.
i have a dirty secret. i stalk people pages quite often nowadays. then i will end up feeling disgusted and annoyed. cheesy much?
heard from my bro about my mom's new addiction. she is so into korean series lately. what a surprise? mom. me likey too. korean oppaaaa are soooo heart melting.
i want Britney Spearssssss fragrance, i could’t get enough with myself. i want moreeee. i don’t care how much money will be wasted. i just want BRITNEY! fullstop. dang. the 6 days SALE is driving me crazy. LOL
tomorrow. will be meeting with my employer. feeling all nervous suddenly. gosh, am i in trouble? please God. let me get away this time. huhu.

So Long South Island.

2010-12-16T21:30:00.013+08:00

okie dookie. this is the last day of our trip. so, boohooo. we headed back to Christchurch as our flight back to Wellington was the next day.

we kicked off at around 10 am. okay, the first stop was a scenic lookout which i forgot the name of this place. but one thing that i know, this place is freaking colddddd. brrrr.

the next stop was Lake Wanaka.

Girls just wanna have FUN.

next, about 5 minutes from Lake Wanaka, we visited the very famous NZ Puzzling World. we tried the Great Maze.

life is a maze. agree? sesat ker Cik Tina?? alololo

then we entered the Illusion Rooms.

the Hall of Following Faces.

Tilted House where everybody jadi *senget* LOL

the Ames Room.The technique of this illusion was used in The Lord of the Rings film to create tall people and little people. awesome kan?

the Roman-style toilets.

the Leaning Tower of Wanaka.

Tumbling Towers of Puzzling World. we loved this place! had so much fun here.

we continued our journey. we came across this amazing place. sungai ape ntah? but this place is soo cool. a river surrounded by lavender. only can be found in NZ. betul ker statement nie? *smile*

an unknown place for us. but the view was nice.

jalan-jalan lagi. stopped at Salmon Farm. we'd like to try the experience of feeding the salmon fish. it's free!

ikan o ikan makanlaaa ape yang aku baling nie.

stopped by at Lake Pukaki. oh God, it looks like a painting right? this lake is perfect for photo-taking.

so, we arrived Christchurch after sunset. overnight at Wan Zanariah's house. the next day, we did a little shopping at the city centre and caught our flight at 4 pm. so long South Island. indeed the best trip so far. thank you Allah for everything.

Queenstown the next day.

2010-12-15T13:51:00.016+08:00

on day 6, we went for some adrenaline-pumping activities. we tried Kawarau jetboat. price ticket was only 87 dollar. way cheap. booked the tickets first at our backpackers and boarded the boat at Queenstown pier.

LOL. the look on my face. i was so excited for the jetboat ride.

lambai dulu sebelum start :P

briefing before the ride.

excited to feel the thrill.

with extreme speed, the driver performed us a very scary move such as this boat spin 360 degrees and stopped. cool huh?

plus, we got to see the scenic views of Lake Wakatipu.

the ride lasted for 30 minutes. i was like hell dizzy but still control muka. LOL

after jet-boating experience, now it's the boys turn to try bungee jumping. we need to take Skyline gondola to the top to get to their bungee place. no offense. but the ride was so bored and slow.

thankfully, when we arrived at the top, we were greeted with magnificent views of Lake Wakatipu and the mountain ranges. atleast, kira berbaloi lah naik gondola tue :P
AJ Hackett Bungy Queenstown. sumpah seram tengok. ini adalah percubaan berani mati oleh Tajul. you go dudeee.

Skyline gondola. alaa macam kat Langkawi je :P

came across this Malaysia flag. *muka proud* hellooooo, Malaysia flag in Queenstown okay?? a reason to be proud of.

we heart Queenstown. do you?

Queenstown Day 5.

2010-12-14T19:41:00.011+08:00

on day 5, we drove to the city to visit some garage sale recommended by Tajul. turns out that it was Anglican market. a garage sale that meant to raise donation for the church. so, we just looked around and camwhoring.

after Anglican market, we drove away from the city centre to Arrowtown, which is about 20 km from the city if i'm not mistaken. on the way to Arrowtown, we were greeted by this beautiful place. Kawarau river i think? we couldn't help it but to stop by and took pictures :)

arrived in Arrowtown. it was drizzling at the time. heck like we cared so much about the weather. haha. this town reminds me of cowboy movie.

Arrowtown is a historic gold mining town. loved this shop. displayed lots of cute thingy for girls.

camwhoring as usual. i don't know why? this place reminds me of Macau so much. yeah right, like i've ever been to Macau before. LOL only seen it in telly.

oh i just love this town. the buildings and the shops really amused me.

after Arrowtown, drove back to Queenstown city centre. browsed all the shops there.

i just love this city. small city and yet macam-macam adaaaa.

later, we went to Queenstown harbour. camwhoring and chilling there.

the view of Lake Wakatipu.

this is like the most mad thing we did in Queenstown. bergayut tepi Lake Wakatipu. LOL

waiting for the sunset. gosh, the sun rays were just so amazing.

posed with William Gilbert Rees statue. he's the founder of Queenstown city.

a voyage to Aslan country.

2010-12-14T15:44:00.007+08:00

i just got back from Reading cinema. watched Narnia 3. it was waaaay awesome!
i just love Narnia 3, the second and the first too. auuuuuwww Caspian. you're so hot and Edmund too. Lucy, you have matured and become more beautiful. gosh, they have grown up since the last time i watched them in Narnia 2. Eustace, hurm. annoying but cute when he transformed into a dragon. too bad, Peter (my huge crush) didn't appear in the movie. i missed him. overall, i give Narnia 10/10. it's worth watching and i think i have fallen in love with Reepicheep. he's sooo adorable.

Where sky and water meet,
Where the waves grow sweet,
Doubt not, Reepicheep,
To find all you seek,
There is the utter East.

auuwww, i want a talking mouse tooo. *wink*

from Christchurch to Queenstown with love. Day 4

2010-12-13T17:45:00.007+08:00

on day 4, we started our journey to Queenstown. it takes about 6 hours drive without stop (resource from Google Map). our adventure really begins here. notice that snow-capped mountains? gosh, it was beautiful.
after about 3 hours of drive, we stopped at Lake Tekapo to visit the very well-known church located by the lake.

the Church of the Good Shepherd.

we chilled and relaxed by the lake and at the same time enjoying the cool breeze.

panorama of Lake Tekapo from afar. after prayer and lunch. we continued to Queenstown without stop. we feared that driving at night might be dangerous. thank God, we reached Queenstown before the sunset.

hooray Queenstown! our backpackers.

finally. pic of the day! Lake Tekapo will remain in my memory forever. i heart this place!

Christchurch Day 3.

2010-12-12T14:48:00.011+08:00

we rented a car the day before. on day 3, we drove to Akaroa which is about 80 km by road from Christchurch. Akaroa is a small town within a harbour. its population is about 600 people if i'm not mistaken.

Akaroa harbour.

we tried this paddle boat despite the hot sun. the price was quite cheap and paddling was FUN i tell you. notice that mat salleh? he's cute :P

what a background. i'm totally in love with this place.

si Tanggang. no?

a friendly moment with birds. :P

after that, we drove back to Christchurch. along the way, we stopped at Sugarloaf Scenic Reserve, Mount Cavendish.

Sugarloaf Scenic Reserve. gosh, this place is so dreamy.

we were enjoying the breathtaking view. seriously, my eyes never got tired looking at the scenary. Our Lord, You have not created this for nothing. Glory be to You! So safeguard us from the punishment of the Fire. Qur'an, Chapter 3,Verse 191

we reached Christchurch after sunset. we decided not to go back to our backpakcers yet. So, we chilled at the New Brighton harbour which just a few blocks away from our backpackers.

the night's air wasn't really cold. kinda love it.

finally, pic of the day. tada! Location: Mount Cavendish. we love sheep so much. they're cute. aren't they?

from Welly to Christchurch with love. Day 2

2010-12-10T22:15:00.015+08:00

hello peeps.

as i promised before in the previous posts. i want to update you guys on our trip to South Island a few weeks ago. before that, ocean of thanks to tuan rumah Wan Zanariah (a friend of Lily's) for the warm welcome and nice food during the first day we arrived. we stayed at Point Break Backpackers in New Brighton, Christchurch. so the next day, we roamed around Christchurch city, sightseeing, touring and camwhoring. well, it's a must :P

Avon River. it offers punting but we didn't try it due to expensive ticket price.

Cathedral Church. the main attraction in Christchurch.

Cathedral Square. lucky us, there was this lady performing a song at that time. her voice was fabulous.

Christchurch giant chess board. too bad, i don't know how to play chess. i suck at this game.

Christchurch Botanical Garden. posed with beautiful flowers.

Canterbury Museum. very educational. but i think the boys were bored. haha.

Canterbury Provincial Council Buildings. very old and classic.

finally, tada! picture of the day. Location: Cathedral Visitor Centre.

p/s: can't get enough of me? good. because i also can't get enough of myself. the next upcoming posts, you guys will be seeing a lot of ME. i mean pictures of me. hehe. *jangan muntah sudah* haha XD

The best way to make future interesting is to create it.

2010-12-09T18:59:00.007+08:00

Location: Lake Tekapo, South Island.

My Summer's Checklist:

drumroll*

South Island trip (Christchurch & Queenstown) - check.
Summer's job - check. but, gotta find second job i guess. life gets bored every single day.
North Island trip - soon. can't wait. can't wait *smile*
Movie? - soon. next week probably. Tuesday offers the cheapest price. Hail King Edmund. *wink*
Finish reading all series of the Chronicles of Narnia - err. not sure. i hope so.
Nak kurus? - pending. haha. not going to happen. LOL
Keep my eyes on any SALE signs- definitely :P
Spend a whole day in BORDERS and read books - soon. i have been wanting to do this since ages. got to find one perfect day for it.
Picnic at Botanical garden - i don't know. need to plan with housemates first.
try to cook new dishes or baking? - tengokla if rajin :P

Boredom is one of the greatest tortures.

2010-12-07T18:48:00.008+08:00

life without planning is so lifeless. i don't have any plans for the summer. do you?

i miss Queenstown because i found peace there.

am i jinxed?

2010-12-04T13:40:00.005+08:00

i'm DOOMED.

i can't see that my life is falling apart. my bright future is breaking to pieces. i'm so screwed. a series of unfortunate events happened to me. i'm totally jinxed.

i feel that i'm not capable of doing anything. even easy peasy thing like cleaning job, i have screwed it. one word. LOSER. yeah, that's ME. i was cleaning my employer's house and bad incident happened. i was vacuuming near the book rack when suddenly a vase on top of the rack fell and broke. i was so speechless. i couldn't believe what my eyes had seen. i have informed the incident to my employer. i told her how sorry i am and i'm willing to replace it with money. few days have passed since that and i haven't received any reply from my employer. i guess i'm fired. i think i have lost my job. GREAT. the best summer of my life.

Charlotte. i am terribly sorry. it was all my fault. i should be fired.

again

i'm so upset. life hasnt' been treating me well. dear summer. please be nice to me. after what has happened, i feel terribly homesick. i wanna go home. i miss my family so damn much. sigh.

=(

when the joy is fading.

2010-12-01T08:00:00.007+08:00

for the upcoming days and weeks, i bet it's going to be extremely bored. i am dying. not because of any illness. but because of BOREDOM. i have no idea on how to make my life here more interesting. any suggestion? i don't feel like working everyday. it's just that i know myself better. my body is weak and can't handle continuous pressure and workloads. huhu. also, what's the purpose of working everyday and after that you get home feeling all tired and sleepy. there's no life isn't? i don't want that. i want a simple life. money? doesn't matter to me.

save me, Wellington. i don't wanna die of boredom >.<

Jerk.

2010-11-29T21:39:00.013+08:00

while i was browsing news feed today, i found this on facebook. and i was like freaking annoyed reading it. man. all this while, i thought bahasa jiwa bangsa? dude.what grade did you get for your SPM Malay paper? i bet it was nearly a pass right?

Bb...jgn gsau b ta de na mgatal2 nye la k ucoxx2...jgn gsau...bb 2 g ar andy...b bwu pai sini wgi smacam jew huhuhuhuhu... jgn maah syg... b tetp syg bb... ily ucoxx2 ♥

omaigodddddd. jadah ape nyer yang ko tulis nie??? berkerut dahi aku nak paham ape yang ko cuba nak sampaikan? dude. go and get yourself some proper education. poor you. or why don't you sign up for spelling/language lesson? you definitely need that. i'm sorry guys. i know i shouldn't make fuss about this. tapi aku memang pantang betul orang kalau lidah pendek nie. haha. it's just that i can't stand it okay? i get really irritated with this kind of major/loser spelling errors. ko ingat ko comel ker, kalau tulis ayat pelat macam tu? Are You Stupid Or Something? sedihlah. dah tua bangka pun cakap pelat lagi. indeed, i feel sorry to your gf. LOL

please. grow up. sigh.

remember me.

2010-11-27T21:54:00.005+08:00

hey you. yes. you.

i miss you. i kinda dislike this feeling. it SUCKS.
i know you're doing just fine. but i miss ya.
perhaps, you don't even think about me. have you ever thought bout me? never mind.
here, i'm missing ya like loser.
it's alright. siapalah diri ini di mata kamu.
but it seems that i am the only one making the effort to keep in touch. *letih*
dude. you should play your part also. whatever.
don't worry. i won't hate you. because i love you and i think positive. enough said.

i tell my heart it's not biggie. dear heart. everything will be fine. all is well.

Daddy's little girl.

2010-11-27T10:38:00.004+08:00

Location: Lake Wakatipu, Queenstown, New Zealand.
credits to Papanda Terbang for the shot.

i guess i do behave like a little child sometimes. gosh, mat salleh were staring at us. haha.

my advice. never take life seriously. just be yourself. trust me. you'll get tired of pretending all the time. and don't give a damn of what people will think about you. i am a child. the fact that i'm the only daughter in the family. my parents still treat me like a lil child which i don't really mind at all. perhaps they forgot that i have grown :) remember, only when we fear not of what will people say, our life begins. i love my life. thank you Allah for the life. after all, i'm still daddy's girl. kan ayah? miss ya so much.

p/s: i'm in a good mood today, am i? *wink*

for Aslan.

2010-11-26T20:23:00.016+08:00

hello earthlings!

i just got back from South Island a few days ago. and i'm way excited to update about about the trip. but today no-no i guess. lazy me. hey wait! i promise i will blog about it soon kay? oh come on. don't get upset with me. i will. i promise.

So. what's up with me lately. nothing much going on i guess. my face is badly sunburned as a result of blaring sun in South Island, cleaning job (i'm a cleaner remember?), movie marathon, shopping and currently reading the third installment of the Chronicles of Narnia. do you not know? let me tell ya. the title is The Voyage of the Dawn Treader. can't wait for the movie to hit the cinema this December. ok. zip your lip. i know. i'm a Narnia junkie. sorry guys, Harry Potter isn't my thingy :P

what else? ohh. calling up all Wellingtonians. Harvey Norman is having a garage sale at the harbour tomorrow. i'm definitely going to be there. yeay! shopping. tell me who doesn't like SALE? i'm gonna hunt some good headphones there. ohh yeah. i'm gonna share with you guys a funny story.

a convo that i had with my housemate a few days ago:

Me: Lily, Lily. Ko nampak tak buku Narnia Tina?? yang tebal tue.

Lily: Buku Narnia?? tak nampak pun. ohhh. nie hah.

Me: hah? mane?

Lily: nie hah. dalam wardrobe. wardrobe kan pintu masuk ke Narnia world ko.

Me: bengong ar Lily! aku ingat ko jumpe buku tina. buat lawak pulak dier. Zzzz

Lily: haha. mengarut jee cerita Narnia ko tue. adoyai.

takpe Lily. it's okay. tease me. like i care. haha
snap. it's 2.00 am now. i better gooo. gonna continue reading a few pages of Narnia before i go to bed. cheers people!

♥

praise to Allah.

2010-11-24T15:58:00.005+08:00

safely arrived in Welly. we had been through a lot of things. and we made it in the end. thank you Allah. it is a trip to be remembered for the rest of my life. i'm in love. with NZ.

we took risk.
we challenged ourselves.
we enjoyed.
we laughed.
we jumped with joy.
we surely gonna miss the trip so much.

till we meet again South Island :)

Homie ♥

Nature is one of the God's masterpiece.

2010-11-15T10:11:00.012+08:00

hi there,

sorry for not updating guys. oh poor you, blog. i've been really busy and plus internet connection was really slow. phew. i just wanna update few things about what i've been up to these days.

1. lately, i've been doing some job hunting. Alhamdullilah. Allah murahkan rezeki. yup. i'm a cleaner. hey, it's not really bad you know. i am totally proud with myself because finally i'm able to earn my own money. cool rite? mom. you should be proud of me :P i hardly done any cleaning jobs at home but here in NZ i have cleaned 'orang putih' house. i ain't that bad mom :P

2. we have moved out from Salamanca. it's really sad to leave such a cozy house. to ex-housemates Fir, Wan Ling, Kak Amna. we surely gonna miss you guys :) we moved in Kam's house at the Terrace. it's a lovely house but quite chilly at night. brrrr. we're gonna stay here for summer. Rent? just nice i think. it's affordable for us.

3. and finally. tomorrow WE are going for a vacation to South Island. yeay! can't wait. there are only 5 of us in the trip. me, Ecah, Lily and the boys (Tajul and Asfan).we're going see the locations of Lord of the Rings. gosh, it's going to be awesome! we're gonna find peace in nature. Christchurch and Queenstown. here i comeeee ♥ hope everything goes well. Ya Allah, mudahkanlah urusan kami. Serta jauhkanlah kami dari malapetaka dan bencana. Amin .

that's all i guess. i will be away for a week. don't miss me kay :P bye Wellington. this is exciting. we're gonna find some adventure together :)

finally, a post without photos is merely lame rite? so last week,

a day at Eastbourne beach with Mona, Fara, Nana, Lily, Fir and Kak Aishah. went there to pick mussels (kupang besar)

the hunt begins. Picking mussels was really fun. just be beware of the baby crabs :P noohh. tudiaaa. berkilo-kilo mussels kitaorg dapat kutip. makan laaa korang sampai muntah. LOL

next stop. after mussels picking, we chilled at the top of Mount Victoria overlooking the Wellington City and harbour. credits to Nana for the great shots :)

xoxo
ME.

Tell me how much you have traveled?

2010-10-24T19:47:00.007+08:00

hey there,

guess what? 2 trimester has officially ended. weehoooo. well, practically for me. some hasn't. so, good luck for those who are still waiting to sit for exam :P study smart guys.

i'm having 4 months break before the 1 trimester starts next year. i have decided not to go back to Malaysia. sobs. oh, come on guys, what's the need of going back? there's so much to explore here in NZ. still, wishing bon voyage to my friends who are going back to Msia. Have fun guys. though, Malaysia is freaking hot. XD

so, currently, i have been hunting for jobs. Insyaallah. Allah murahkan rezeki. of course, i need money for traveling purpose. like i said, so many beautiful places in NZ need to be visited. also, i've been doing some shopping for 'orang kampung' since SALE is in the air :P

that's all i guess. not much to say. okay picture! blog will be dull without a single photo right?

Fact 1 : one of the best pics in my collection.
Fact 2: love the breeze, the city and posed with my bestie.
Fact 3: that i have left my heart in Sydney :)

"The world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page."- St. Augustine

I hope for nothing. I fear nothing. I am free.

2010-10-15T17:12:00.004+08:00

oh man. i really hate to disappoint people. especially, people who put a high expectation on me. oh man. you don't have to do that. i'm definitely an average person. neither too bright nor too stupid.

"i'm sure your final essay will be better than draft. you're an excellent student" (lecturer, 2010).

oh my goodness. this is horror. the worst nightmare i have ever had. honestly, i don't really deserve that kind of compliment. save it for others who deserve it more than me. i don't want it. it's just that i know myself better. i can't and i don't think so. pressure isn't good. high expectation also isn't good. because i know myself better than you.

okay, Marae Visit tomorrow. gonna be two days away from welly. well, i don't know. i hope it will be so much fun there. we gonna have walks on the coast, talks about Maori culture and the marae, games and activities and lots more. it sounds cool. let's just wait and see :)

ok then. ciao for now.

lumrah dunia.

2010-10-05T13:46:00.006+08:00

have you ever crossed in your mind or experienced it before?

one thing to win someone's heart and to obtain compliments from someone is to buy his or her some 'nice and expensive' things.

what do you think? money is all that seems to matter in this life? after a while, i received a compliment from someone who's very close to me. but it all happened, after i bought something nice and expensive for her. and it hurt me so deep.

i wonder what if material is going to put aside. do i have to wait forever to hear such compliment from her? are money and material all important in this world?? what about good deeds? no? money wins every time? this is so upsetting. why? am i not good enough for you that i have to win your heart through money and material?

i have yearned for your love and care only God knows since when. why is it so hard for you to show any affection towards me? am i that bad? am i the least person that you care for in your list of 'my favourite people'? gosh, why am i being so emo suddenly?

but i guess life isn't always a bed of roses =.=
naaah, it's okay. i guess it's already written in my fate, not to be loved and appreciated by others.

face to face is definitely a no-no. I usually stalk people :P

2010-09-30T18:12:00.004+08:00

currently, busying myself with WRIT assignment that due tomorrow.
thank you dearie friends for your concern towards me throughout this week. i feel much better now. no more weeping and whining :P

thinking of going for shopping tomorrow. anyone? jom shopping besok? heard that Supree is having a mega SALE. jom grab sebanyak mungkin :P

p/s: crappy title. abaikan :P haha.

it's not the end.

2010-09-28T18:50:00.014+08:00

hi.

okay, just came back from Att's birthday celebration. it was fun and fattening!! well, makan lewat malam sangat :P ohh yeah, Happy Birthday Att! Have a blast kay? Wishing you a future blessed with peace, love and happiness. May Allah bless our friendship ♥ ♥

already sleepy but my fingers still keep typing. wth? haishh. today was a lil long. things happened both bad and good. for bad thing. aku redha. must have a real good reason behind it. for good thing, i thank Allah for that. thank you Lord for blessing me with such wonderful friends and their laughs made my day. went to the Botanical Garden. took photos with beautiful Tulips. laughed and teased each other. ate ice-creams. it was enjoyable.

somehow, their laughs and jokes release a bit the stress inside me and cheer me up. i was in a bad mood today and felt like crying. failed in one the assignments. the worst nightmare ever. my lecturer said it won't make such a huge difference to the final grade as it's only for 10% marks. still, i felt miserable about that. i was unhappy with the fact that i let her down. she has been putting a high expectation on me whereas i have been fooling around and being such ignorant. sobs.

true. everything happens must have a reason. failed once doesn't mean you're a loser forever. failing enables you to learn from mistakes and produce a kick ass result for the next time. take it easy Tina. chill babe. Allah is with you. tell your heart it's fine. then, it will be fine. Allah ada bersama.

till then,

Good night Wellington.

Tulips Festival ♥

2010-09-27T16:31:00.011+08:00

warning: Entry banyak gambar :P

hey and salam people,

i'm kinda free and have nothing much to do right now, so i shall update this blog. okay! yesterday, Ecah and me had usrah at Botanical Garden with kakak-kakak comel (Kak Dirah, Kak Sara, Kak Erni, Kak Meme). after usrah dan pengisian rohani, we had a camwhoring session together :) thanks Kak Erni for the lovely pics. it was a beautiful day, perfect for photo-taking ♥

Jom tengok gambar =)

usrah dan pengisian.

Sesungguhnya mata manusia akan sentiasa letih melihat ciptaan Allah. Kerana ciptaan Allah itu sungguh sempurna dan jika kita mengulangi pandangan kita, juga tidak akan menemukan sebarang kecacatan pada ciptaan Allah S.W.T. Sungguh, Allah Maha Sempurna.

red and white Tulips.

bersama kakak-kakak comel :P

purple Tulips. like it.

two is better than one :P

Subhanallah, cantik nyaaa. so colourful ♥

a day in Holland. no? :P

K.A.M.I

kasih dan sayang sesama sahabat ♥

overall, hari yang penuh dengan pengisian rohani, dikelilingi oleh tulips yang cantik, nice food, layanan mesra dari kakak-kakak comel. and thank you Allah for everything.

nom nom nom.

2010-09-25T13:45:00.010+08:00

Syukur ke hadrat Ilahi. Syawal yang begitu bermakna. makanan tersangatlah mewah. thanks Allah dan juga thanks kepada tuan rumah semua. May Allah give reward to all your good deeds.

dan sesungguhnya, Allah adalah Pemberi Rezeki yang terbaik." (22:58)

yesterday,
open house at 52 Adam's Terrace. mee tomyaam sodaaap.

today,
Cohort 5 lip lap lip lap open house. Laksa, perghhh mantop.

the result, after 2 weeks of Raya,

ohh my Gucci, tembaaaaam nyer ok? bagaikan dipam-pam :P

Sakura Festival ♥

2010-09-23T22:50:00.009+08:00

who says Sakura can only be found in Japan? nonsense laa. alright. last Saturday, we went for a road trip to Japan, no? haha.. actually to Palmerston North a.k.a Palmy, NZ. it was about 2 hours journey from Wellington. this year Sakura Festival was held there at International Pacific College (IPC). lots of events going on there such as cultural performances, horror house, crafts exhibition and many more. ape lagi? Jom tengok gambar =)

Sakura trees at the IPC entrance.

muka excited :P ohhh yeah, it was freezing cold at that time. brrrr..

lagi excited when wearing Kimono for the very first time. watashi wa Tina des.

showing my sexy back :P

kami adalah geisha yang comel :P

ohh mesti. group photo :P

dalam hati ada sakura. eh silap, taman kan? :P

seriously, rase macam nak menari ala-ala lagu para-para sakura at that time. Aaron Kwok marilaa :P

sakura or other name is Japanese cherry blossoms ♥

i think i left my heart here ♥ Subhanallah, cantiknyaaa bunga Sakura. definitely, another trip to remember. had a lot of fun there with friends. thanks guys. and thanks Allah.

when Tina meets Meow...

2010-09-22T21:12:00.005+08:00

people whom have known me for quite some time, must know this fact. the fact that I LOVE CATS SO MUCH!! hehe.. always love cats and always wanting one :( ohh yeah, speaking of cats, cats in NZ are hugeeee and so adorableee.. ngeh ngeh. rase macam nak gigit je dorang kalau terserempak kat tengah2 jalan. geram! so cuteeeeee and fluffy :P

hey kitty kitty, come to mommy =)

hey, mane mau lari haaa?

main cak cak pulak :P

ekor dah macam feather duster :P

alolololo... so freaking cuteee.. Ya Allah, can i have them please? not now, but in the future. Amin.

credits to Ky for the pics.

Our Cohort Open House ♥

2010-09-22T20:44:00.001+08:00

salam and hey,

last Monday, our cohort open house was a huge success. it has received lots of positive remarks from the guests saying the food was delicious, deco was nice, the service was good and warm. ocean of thanks to those who came. we cohort 3.1 feel flattered upon hearing those comments ♥

walau apa jua yang terjadi, camwhoring is a must :P

Eid Mubaraq people =)

kari mak with sambal belacan.

mee kobit yang sodaaaap.

nasi himpit with kuah kacang. yummy :)

sedap sangat-sangat, next year buat lagi tau (guest, 2010).

insyaallah, kalau ada rezeki buat lagi tahun depan ye. Cohort 3.1 thanks again for all the hard work and full cooperation demi menjayakan open house yang gilang-gemilang ini =) thumbs up to you guys!

2nd and 3rd day of Raya.

2010-09-22T13:50:00.007+08:00

Ya Allah, so much to update and yet i have been crazy busy. well, define busy. busy means open houses here and there, Cohort 3.1 open house, tuts, lectures and a short trip to Japan :P

ok then. here are some pics from the 1st week of Raya. still not too late i guess to be updated here :P

at Waiteata's open house. thanks tuan rumah. yummy food :)

at Adam's Terrace open house. thanks tuan rumah. mee kobit sodaaap :)

at Rumah Malaysia's open house. thanks Datuk and Datin :)

i ♥ cute cupcakes. Selamat Hari Raya semua =)

credits to Ky for the lovely pics.

1st Day of Raya

2010-09-15T21:46:00.011+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya!!
Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Cerita Raya di perantauan. okay, siape kate Raya di negara orang tak best?? of course laa best. not bad tau. hehe.. but, my heart left in Malaysia. badan je kat New Zealand. huhu.. i miss Raya's spirit back in Malaysia. and missing my family so damn much. restu ayaaah bondaaa. sobs. okay daah stop.

right, back to the story. pagi-pagi raya jee dah naik bus pergi High Comm. kerana di situ ade rumah terbuka for Malaysians and students. yeay! sampai jee sana, bersalaman dan makan (tue yang paling penting yee). the food i tell you laaa, scrumptious! nom nom. ramainyaa manusia di situ. meriah sungguh. okie dokie. Jom tengok gambar =)

teman-teman yang turut memeriahkan Raya di High Comm.

nak jugak posing kat tembok. adoyai. teruja nampak word *Malaysia* :P

sesudah beraya di High Comm, berjalan raya pulak ke rumah Wan Z a.k.a Bonda (cohort leader kami).

yang no. 4 dari kiri, tue laa Bonda kami. sayang you tawww =)

sesudah beraya di rumah Bonda, kami semua berangkat ke university dan lepas tue ke Botanical Garden for photoshoot session bersama teman-teman. hehe.. dah memang tabiat budak TESL suka camWHORING :P

depan Hunter Building. So oversea kan? hehe..

nak jugaaakkk. kthanksbye :P

Botanical Garden. Brrr.. sejuuukk. bawah tue, Wellington city. nice kan?

ok then. to be continued. stay tuned :P more pics to come!

credits to Ky for the lovely pics.

yeah, i blame YOU.

2010-09-15T07:35:00.004+08:00

oh god, my poor bloggie is dyingggggg.. sobs.
lately, i felt so lazy to update. errr, not really my fault. yes, put the blame on the uni hall's internet. so freaaaking slow i tell yoou. crap.

i missed like few events to be updated here.

Auckland trip,
Sydney trip,
Eidul Fitri celebration.

huhuhu..so much to write. let's say, hurm.. i will update about those 3 events whenever i'm free k? gotta gooo. need to find something to eat. i'm hungry like crap =)

ciao!

Hello Sydney, Bye Auckland ♥

2010-09-01T13:20:00.010+08:00

during the mid sem break, me and several fellas went to Oz for a vacation. we stayed in Auckland for 2 days then off we went to Oz for 4 days. what can i say. Auckland is much hectic than Welly. that city is totally packed with Asian. well, it was in Ramadhan month. we were really tired during the day. despite that, we still had fun. sightseeing and shopping. we stayed at Malaysian Hall. super cheap and cozy i tell ya. indeed, it was a trip to remember. had great time with my babes. Australia was awesome. till we meet again Oz.

Sydney Opera House

Bondi Beach

Featherdale Wildlife Park

Paddy's Market. Shoppingggggg.

Auckland Domain

Penguins. cute!

Kelly Tarltons Underwater World

With ♥
TiNa

Saya sayang Malaysia ♥

2010-08-31T03:11:00.015+08:00

Happy Independence Malaysia!!

Semoga Malaysia aman, maju dan terhindar dari bencana. Marilah kita bersama-sama memelihara kedamaian dan kemakmuran negara dengan saling hormat-menghormati dan toleransi antara kaum. Perpaduan kaum adalah perisai kepada negara kita daripada ancaman dan anasir luar yang cemburu melihat kesejahteraan negara kita. Generasi muda Malaysia, ayuh! bangun! jangan leka dan tidur. majukan diri anda demi bangsa dan Malaysia.

thank you Malaysia for sending me to NZ. you have sent me far away from my homeland for me to gain knowledge and experiences. you fulfilled my dream. i owe you a lot Malaysia. i will come back soon Malaysia. to serve you with great honour. thanks so much!!

till my last breath, i'm proud to be Malaysian :)

i do love NZ.

but i love Malaysia more!! Happy 53rd birthday Malaysia ♥

can't wait.

2010-08-18T22:19:00.007+08:00

will be Leavinggg on a jet plane this Sunday. Sydney, Australia, here i come babeh!! but, first destination, pergi jalan2 makan angin kat Auckland dulu for 2 days. then baru pergi Oz for 4 days. ngehee..way excited to go there. spoke to Mama the other day.

Me: Mama, ayong nak gi Oz weekend nie.
Mama: Eh, kau biar betuul.
Me: Betul la. Nak gi Oz. Awatnyer?
Mama: Kau baik2 Farah, tue negara orang tau. kot jadi ape2 ker?
Me: Mama relax le. xde bende pun. Pergi ngan kawan2.
Mama: Baik2 tau. Jaaalaaaan je ko eh? study okay tak?
Me: okaaay jeee. Nanti ayong beli ole2 untuk mama.

sorry for not updating ya. been busy bee with revision, tests and Terawih :) will be updating soon. Inshaallah.

ok ciao!

the hope for Ramadhan.

2010-08-11T14:37:00.005+08:00

This song dedicated to brothers and sisters in the whole world. Ramadhan Al-Mubaraq :)

Semoga Ramadhan kali lebih baik dari Ramadhan tahun lepas. May this Ramadhan brings me closer to Allah and Islam. Once, i walked further away from You. Aku lupa. I was ignorant. May this Ramadhan will change the entire me and hopefully my imaan for Allah will increase.

Aku cuba berubah demi Ramadhan yang mulia ini, cuba untuk memperbanyakkan amalan dan ibadah di bulan ini. Itu janji aku. Insyaallah. Kuatkan aku Ya Allah. Semoga aku kuat melawan segala nafsu demi menunaikan kewajipan ku sebagai hamba Allah.

Selamat berpuasa dan menunaikan ibadah Ramadhan mama, ayah, ayip, abang ngah. I miss you guys so much. Sadly, i can't be with you guys this Ramadhan. Adik-adik yang ku sayang jangan ponteng puasa tau :) Ya Allah, moga keluargaku tergolong dalam kalangan orang-orang yang beriman. Amin.

aku bersyukur.

2010-08-10T20:04:00.010+08:00

benda dah berlaku. aku redha. aku pasrah dengan ketentuan Nya. everything that happens must have a real good reason behind it. and so my laptop was attacked by a dumbasshole virus. the whole system went crazy and infected. aku terima. there was a reason for that. i think i have sinned. and that's the result of the sin that i have committed. O Allah, forgive me. verily, i forgot that You're watching me.

"and whatever strikes you of disaster, it is for what your hands have earned; but He pardons much." -Surah ash-Shura, verse 30

indeed, Allah is Kind. atas apa yang berlaku. my laptop dapat diselamatkan dan still boleh function normally. thanks to this hamba Allah. he's a genius. i called him doktor laptop :)

"verily, Allah is the best of providers." -Surah al-Hajj, verse 58

atas kehendak Mu, laptop dah okay. thanks for everything O Allah. also, i have realized my wrongdoings. You gave me a chance to repent. dan aku sangat bersyukur. thank you Allah for opening my heart and eyes :)

Ramadhan dan kenangan.

2010-08-06T20:17:00.019+08:00

salam,

Ramadhan is just a few days away. so, let us welcome the holy month with a big heart and let's do our best to perform Ibadah to Allah the Almighty and to make use of the whole month to strengthen our Iman (faith) to Allah, the Oneness and may Allah bless every single deed that we do throughout Ramadhan. Insya Allah.

ohh dear. out of sudden, teringat dekat someone who is very dear to me. okay, before that, salam takziah buat Ecah dan keluarga. Al-Fatihah. Moga arwah datuk Ecah ditempatkan di kalangan orang yang beriman. Ecah sabar ye. i will be at your side if you need me. count me in. i wanna share your pain together. don't hold back your tears Ecah. sometimes, crying is good. cheer up kay Ecay. I ♥ you rumet :)

it has been 2 months since nenek passed away. i miss you nenek. it is irony. last Ramadhan, i could vividly remember breaking the fast with you nenek. masih segar di ingatan Tina bila kita bersahur bersama. Ya Allah, i'm sooo gonna cry. at that moment, i never thought that it would be the last time we sahur and break fast together. never crossed my mind that nenek would be gone one day. sobs.

nenek, you didn't know how much i miss you. you didn't know how much tears shed for you nenek. you didn't know how many nights i cried myself to sleep. you didn't know how many nights my pillow was damp because of the sobbing. you didn't know because you are gone. gone forever from this world. at times, i couldn't believe that nenek is gone forever.

last Raya, i could vividly remember, tina salam and kissed your hands nenek and asked for your forgiveness. i could vividly remember, you shed tears on the first day of raya and i felt that really weird. now, i understand why. you already knew nenek. you already knew that it's almost the time. the time to leave the world. but i wasn't really aware. sobs. but this Raya, i will live with fact that you are gone. nenek. Ya Allah, kuatkan hati aku agar tidak menitiskan air mata lagi atas pemergian nenek. tidak mahu nenek terseksa.

sobs. dalam dunia nie, neneklah yang paling sayangkan Tina. tapi, nenek dah tiada. i miss you nenek ):
tidak ku sangka, dalam keseronokan beraya tahun lepas, it was the last raya i saw you nenek. the last raya for me and nenek together. the last raya, i kissed her cheeks. sobs. Ya Allah, sayu nya rasa hati ini. sepatutnya, rasa tidak sabar menantikan kedatangan bulan Ramadhan. tapi, terbalik pula. rasa sayu. rasa macam nak masuk dalam duvet dan nangis sampai bengkak mata. rinduuuuu ):

Ya Allah, tenteramkan hatiku, tenangkan jiwaku. sobs.

Rindu.

2010-08-06T00:34:00.014+08:00

Peace, that was the other name for home (Kathleen Norris)

sesungguhnya, rasa diri nie tak terurus sangat. missed study, missed dinner. my mind was elsewhere. felt sleepy for the damn whole day. almost gave up finding jobs. rasa hati tak tenteram. dunno why? the truth is saya rindu rumah ): sobs. i miss my family so much. i miss the warmness feeling of having them around me. i miss mom's cook and dad's voice. i miss my bro's lame jokes. i miss my younger bro. i miss the moment when i kissed his forehead. i miss my fav cuz too. life without them is merely so not cool. i miss everything about Malaysia. the food, the malls, the pasar malam, the people.

undoubtedly, i feel homesick. sobs. did i make the right decision of not going back?? but, i wanna stay here longer. it's only for damn 2 years man. yeah, it's true, like people said, 2 years will pass by in the blink of an eye. i want to work and gain some experiences. after this, i will never have such opportunity again. but, i'm missing homie. ohh man. i'm facing a dilemma rite now. i wanna go hooomeee. huhu.. mahu tapi tak nak. macam mane tue? hurm. duit lagi. kalau balik, confirm terbang duit dalam 1000 NZD. *sigh* crap, it's freaking 5.00 am. damn, insomniac. huhu..

seriously, cemburu tengok kawan2 riang-ria balik hujung tahun nie. sobs.

Iklan paling cute ♥

2010-08-04T19:57:00.015+08:00

okay. this is like the cutest advertisement that i have ever watched so far!!! i gave it 10 outta ten laaahhh.

MEET LEE MIN HO. ada kenal?? well, he played a leading role in Boys over Flowers. BOF is a major success and a crazy phenomena across Asiaaa. no wonder laaa.. mamat nie is a HUNK okay? HOT! ok then. happy watching! i can't stop giggling watching this ads. seriously, Lee Min Ho is sooo adorableeeeee.. purrrrrrfect complexion and delicious.. hahaha.. just joking.

this guy surely has undergone a plastic surgery. what do u guys think? licin nyer kulit muka kamu, kalah muka girls :P

Love is Pink.

2010-08-04T11:54:00.005+08:00

hi there,

as you guys can see, my blog has got a new look/a new layout. well, i'm pretty bored with my previous, old, lame layout so that's why i need a make over. Obviously, pink is my faavvv :) but that doesn't mean i'm a gay?? am not!! okay. yeah i heard some "what colour are you?" says that pink describes a gay personality. euuuwww.. stupid quiz. Zzzzzz..

on the other hand, went to SJS just now. out of 3 jobs that i tried to apply. only 1 managed to go through. somewhere in Miramar, it's a cleaner job. i'm still thinking about it. becoz it's quite far from Kelburn. hurm. nak call auntie tue ker or xnak? oohh dilemma. ok then. that's all i wanna update u guys at the moment. till then,

with ♥
Me.

Naaahh, a poem by me.

2010-08-03T20:38:00.004+08:00

yeah baby. i'm here again.

i created this poem like ages ago. it came out straight from my heart. hehe.. don't have the title for it. Enjoy!

i see something in you,
and i don't know what to do,
the 'thing' in you,
draw me closer to you,
i can't help it.
i try to go far from you,
but the 'thing' in you,
keep pulling me towards you,
what magic did you cast on me,
that made me so dazed and my tongue feel so numb,
i see something in you,
that i'm not sure what it is,
but one thing i'm sure about the 'thing' in you,
i see something good in you.
something that made my heart melts.
something that soothe my soul.
i see something in you,
and i don't what to do!

with so much ♥,
Me.

Aap ka nam kya hai?

2010-08-01T21:29:00.020+08:00

alkisah,

tadi rasa sangatlah bosan. join lah kejap Yahoo Chat. masuk room chat Pakistan. ceh ceh ko nie Tina. nak chat dengan yang Pakistan je. yang hidung ala2 hindustan macam Shahrukh Khan lah katakan lah. haha..

dah join chat room. suddenly, ada someone buzz. nickname tak boleh blah. love_seeker. nickname nak desperate je dorang nie. miahahah. chat punya chat. sharing punya sharing. you guys baca lah. have fun :)

what a douche bag mamat nie. seriously, bikin orang panas je. dia ingat aku nie student job search ker? sedap je, nak suruh aku tengok2 kan kerja kat NZ nie. macam good good je mamat nie kan?

love_seeker: any pic send plz

qistina: well, i'm not comfortable showing pic of me to strangers

love_seeker: ok

qistina: u know these days, lots of freaks, perverts. please understand me.

love_seeker: can u send work visa for Malaysia or Nz

qistina: what? why?

love_seeker: becoz i wanna make money.

qistina: i think you have to apply it first.

love_seeker: oh ok. how?

qistina: u just go to your official immigration office in your country.

love_seeker: then, what i do?

qistina: you fill some forms, medical check up, then u need to pay for the fee.

love_seeker: ok. give me any your fax no. i wanna send my documents.

qistina: what documents?

love_seeker: i mean my resume, my experience certificate

qistina: but why?

love_seeker: for you jaaaaaaannnn, to see any job for me.

qistina: pardon??

qistina: ohhh my gaawwwwdddd!! u are using me!!

love_seeker: what. noooooo

qistina: yes you are.

love_seeker: nooooooo.

qistina: we just met. and now u asked me to do this and that for you. what da hell???

love_seeker: nooooo. plz

qistina: i'm mad!!

love_seeker: sorrrrryyy. i'm a fool

qistina: yeah right.

love_seeker: sorrrrryyyyy

qistina: from the start, i wanted to chat with you. getting to know you. but you kept asking me about visa, work, Nz. what daaa??

love_seeker: soooooorrrryyyyy.

qistina: bye!

love_seeker: from now i never ask you about visa or work okkkkkkk

qistina: freak!

love_seeker: plzzzzzzz. sorrrryyyy.

qistina: go away!

Aku pun ape lagi. terus click X. malas nak layan. pervert pakistani. asshole. trying to take advantage of me? kiss my ass jerk!

dah lah call me jaaaann (means my love). eeeeuuuuwww, freak. FYI, Hindi is my 3rd language. Miahahaha.. bengong giler ko nie Tina. padahal, i learned those words from Hindi movies. hahaha..

phew. tak paham kenapa aku marah sangat. padahal chat bodoh2 je pun. adoyai.

walking down the memory lane.

2010-07-30T23:37:00.021+08:00

hello universe,

since tonight i feel so lifeless and have nothing much to do, so i did this. purpose? to kill time before i go to bed and have a sweet dreamzz :) ok then, move on to

1) Your facebook profile photo
Nandos Fever. Strangely, i still love Nandos even sos dier tak sedap plus masam.
2) A photo of you 2 years ago (:
ok. sila gelak. wahahaha..muka budak giler, innocent je. LOL. if i'm not mistaken this pic was snapped during the rehearsal of The Merchant of Venice.
3) A photo of yourself a year ago
ok. dah matured sikit. nie time tunggu train nak pergi trip to Perlis.
4) A photo that makes you happy.
definitely, CATS. hey, kitty kitty, where's your mommy??
5) A photo of the last place you went on holiday
Ski trip to Mount Ruapehu. Brrrr..
6) A photo that makes you laugh.
o my gawwwddd, perasan HOT macam Mak Datin. Zaty dah macam bodyguard Tina. Miahahah.
7) A photo of your favourite film(s)
Mohabbattein. my all time fav movie. ooh, Raj Aryan. don't be saad. tho, your lover is dead. i'm here with u aite? *sila muntah*
8) A photo of you and someone you love
my ugly, smelly, spoiled brat brother. i ♥ you bro.
9) A photo of you on a school trip
Saint Brendan's Catholic School students. they are so ADORABLE ♥
10) A photo of something you enjoy doing
Eating out. Nom nom nom. Gosh, how i miss Malaysian's food outlets. sobs sobs. i'm so freaking dying to eat out at Seoul Garden. sobs.

11) finally, i'm tagging
zack insan tinggi
att woe is me
lily u scratch me i'll scratch u back
christopherism
opie maharani
fath imaginasiku terbang
and anyone who has got nothing to do and free :)

the sun glints on my face :)

2010-07-30T09:26:00.001+08:00

hi.

today is due date for ALIN 202 Task 1. i woke up this morning. washed up. and ready to go to the uni. it's a sunny bright day. i kinda love today's weather. at student learning centre, i edited my work a bit and printed out the assignment. submitted it. and walked back home. at home, i made myself 2 pieces of small pizza and a cup of hot chocolate. that's enough to make my daay :) and finally here i am. stuffed (>.<) and feeling sleepy. crap, i haven't performed Solat Zohor yet. after this, i'm gonna go up to the university hall. have to run an errand. i want to settle my house's rent and need to change the old kettle with the new one. gosh, the stupidasshole kettle always caused us problems. we had no choice but to use the pan for boiling purpose. really need to kick the kettle out of the house seriously.

bla bla bla. seriously i have no life. updating people outta there about story of freaking lame kettle? LOL. sheeshh Tina. get a life NOOB XD

ok then. yeah, i know. so much crap going on. hehe.. ok ciao!

Love,
Me.

can we see the future?

2010-07-26T20:45:00.008+08:00

hi there,

i came across this application and i found it so cool!! we got to see what will we look like in 20 years. in 20 years time, i will be 41 years old. married, probably have kids and leading a blissful life together with hubby :) Wallahu alam. Ishaallah, kalau Allah beri rezeki.

Meet the older me in 20 years time :)

take 1

take 2

take 3

hurm, which one will i look like the most?? aahh.. forget it. we don't know what will happen to us in 20 years time. am i still alive? or already gone before i reach 40? i don't know. leave it to Allah. Allah knows best. May Allah give me the chance to live longer and bless me with healthy body so that i will make use my life to the fullest before death. Ameen.

with ♥,
Me.

The two talking cats

2010-07-26T17:47:00.003+08:00

Ya Allah, sungguh comel makhluk ciptaan Nya ini. Geram melihat kegebuan dan sifat mereka yang manja. i wish i could understand what they were talking about. Ya Allah, teringin benar nak bela kucing. Tapi, hajat selalu tak kesampaian. Cats are so adorable ♥

irrevocably in love with the bloodsucker ♥

2010-07-24T22:11:00.010+08:00

hello people.

i'm quite bored and so i shall update this blog. life has been really nice to me. i have been in the highest mood these days. berkobar-kobar pulak sejak akhir2 nie. maybe because it's a hell new trimester. that's why i think?

lately, i have been trying to find jobs and so far no luck i guess. i don't really mind. i still have enough allowances to support my life. finding job is like not so important thing that not due soon. Study, assignments are my top priorities. i shall not waste any time and need stay focus on them. this Friday is the due date for Alin 202 task 1. and i'm working on it rite now tho i have no idea on how to do it. it's quite confusing. anyone wanna join the discussion about this task tomorrow?? right after the race. venue will be in the library. anything just update me on the FB okay?

what else should i be blog about?? ohh yeah. currently, i'm reading the last book of Twilight saga. the Breaking Dawn. i can't wait to finish reading it. Eclipse is awesome. and i'm hoping the last book would have a great ending as well. ♥ Jacob and Edward. great characters and make the story alive. well, i have another 400 pages to go. phew. can't wait :)

i met Laila on last Friday. told her i need an advice and a guideline for time management. having 2 days off during weekdays is quite dangerous and pretty tempting you know. i might be distracted from study and assignments and probably would waste my free time on stuff/shit like facebook, watching movies, going out, sleeping and yada yada. thankfully, Laila helped me to organize my time table. she asked me to give it a try and see whether i could stick to the timetable or not. i hope i could. it takes a strong will to keep away from facebook seriously. it's like a drug and i'm addicted to it. i will try my best to slow down a bit the facebook activity. huhu.. oh gosh, there's so much babble going on. i bet people are already fed up reading this post. hehehe..

till then,
cheers!

i don't wanna be a LOSER :)

With ♥
Me.

Kena Tag daaa..

2010-07-24T16:07:00.005+08:00

Salam and hi people. May the peace, mercy and blessings from Allah be with you people. Aite! a close friend of mine has tagged me. hoyeah, so with great honour and pleasure i'm gonna answer her tag :)

#1. what's the name of the blog and why u named it so?
it is called Keeping Faith. Why is it so? Because I have faith in Him. It is the belief that lives in my heart, i have faith in His Divine Koran, His Prophets, His Angles, His Fate and His Last Day. and I'm gonna continue to keep faith in HIM till my last breath.

#2. when did you started blogging?
Hurm. about 2 years ago.

#3. your first follower
i don't really remember. if i'm not mistaken, the very first followers that i had are my course mates.

#4. something for the person who tagged you
people called her Att. my course mate and such a good friend of mine. she's a nice person and she talks a lot. hehe.. suka dengar Att bila berkata-kata. she speaks wisdom words :) i likee.. she's a kind of person who sticks to her own life principles. 'action is better than words' works best with her :)

#5 next 6 cute blogs:
Hurm. the next cute blogs will be:

-Opie Mghs
-Alint Weyh Mghs
-Fath Mghs
-Mimi Mghs
-Lily so sweet
-that's all..you guys kene tag tau? better jawab. Hehehe.

Lunatic.

2010-07-20T17:24:00.011+08:00

hola people,

i'm kinda bored. So here I am, crapping as usual. Hehe.. i wanna share something on my personal life. FYI, I'm so into crime tv series like Criminal Minds, CSIs and yada yada. these tv series has caused such a huge impact on me in all aspects, emotionally and psychologically. Phew. i started to become paranoid at almost everything. i started to view people differently. especially strangers that i met everyday. i also started to believe the world around me isn't a safe place to live.

Like for example, if i saw a guy who's acting suspiciously or looking like a freak. then, i would start to ponder. questions would rise in my mind. is he a serial killer? is he a rapist? even the tiniest sound like the creaks made by a door or window could give me a fright. i would start thinking there's someone behind the door or window. Haha..So lame kan? Gila penakut aku. Huhu.. my housemates started to get very annoyed with me. bcoz i'm being such a kid and silly of course. they asked me to stop watching the Criminal minds. Huhu.. But i love the show very much :)

i'm having paranoid delusions. Huhu.. yeah, blame the crime shows. Add to this, i got to know from someone a.k.a roomie, the delusions that i have been having is called a syndrome.

Mean World Syndrome- the more people watch tv. the more they are likely to believe that the world is a dangerous place, that crime rates are high and rising and that they themselves are at risk for being a victim of a crime (EPSY 241, 2010).

pretty much scary isn't it? I pray to Allah to keep me away from those evil things. Isha Allah, i will be careful and not to become the victim of any crime. Protect me o Lord.

tapi kan? i thought about myself really hard. and i realized i love to fantasize things. Even ade someone nie told me 'Tina, ko nie jenis yang duduk dalam dunia sendiri'. i think what this person said has become a truth. i keep fantasizing that the serial killers, rapist are exist in here, here in Kelburn, in Wellington. there's no such thing rite? i'm exaggerating things rite? hurm. Somebody please bring me back to the reality.

Hurm. tak sangka kan? muka innocent cam Tina nie, ade pulak Mean World syndrome :)

hehehe. ok then. ciao for now.

Love,
TiNa.

Isha Allah.

2010-07-18T18:56:00.003+08:00

Salam people.

this post is so random. bear with me kay? i wanna share with you guys this beautiful nasheed. i have been listening to this nasheed every night before i went to sleep. i believe that even how hard life is, how suck our life turns out, sooner or later everything will be fine if we remember Allah. Allah never ever leave or abandon his believers. He's always right beside us. So close to us. Kita yang selalu lupa akan Allah. Bila kita gembira, kita lupa. Bila kita sedih, baru teringat Allah. Tapi Allah, tidak pernah tinggalkan kita walau sesaat. So, Tina. Nak ingatkan diri sendiri :) happy lagu mana pun, Jangan lupa Allah okay? Ingat tue Tina!

Isha Allah
By: Maher Zain

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That your so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can’t see which way to go
Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Everytime you commit one more mistake
You feel you can’t repent
And that its way too late
Your’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Turn to Allah
He’s never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
OOO Ya Allah
Guide my steps don’t let me go astray
You’re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way x2
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah we’ll find the way

Source from http://www.islamiclyrics.net/maher-zain/insha-allah/

i'm happy with my current life.

2010-07-16T21:24:00.007+08:00

hello pretty earthlings.

my life has been okay so far. my days have been really fun and productive i guess :) the 2nd trimester has just started and i really wanna kick it ass :) i wanna change. seriously guys. i mean it. this is no joke okay? i hope those who have been laughing at me whenever i said i wanna change, you can stop laughing now. i mean it kay? Ya Allah, i really wanna make this happen. i wanna change. Bless me Ya Allah. Be with me Ya Allah. i can do it!

i'm so positive that i can change. guys i need your full support. no sarcasm please? hehe..

i wanna start fresh. i wanna change. keep the sarcasm away please?

with LOVE,
Me.

Winter Tale 2010.

2010-07-11T11:08:00.007+08:00

hi there.

i know this post kinda out-dated. but i don't care. by the way, it's my bloody blog kan? heheh.. so, i can update whenever i want :) So, the last Thursday, went for a ski trip to Mount Ruapehu with the Vic Muslims. it was a 3 days and 2 nights trip. overall, i spent about 200 dollars. 100 for the food, accommodation and trasportation. and another 100 for the ski. ski definitely cost a lot but i don't really mind. for me, it's like a chance once in a lifetime. ski for the 2nd time? i don't think so. the next time, if i go to Mt. Ruapehu again, i think i would just play the snow. buat snow man i guess? or just guling2 atas snow :)

Mount Ruapehu. Indahnya ciptaan Allah S.W.T kan?

posed with Mr. Froggy before ski lesson. hehe.. x paham actually nape ade signboard froggy kat situ :) but cute kan? i mean the froggy :)

i'm sliding...weehoooo.. this pic was snapped during the ski lesson.

chilled out with Wanie, Lily and Ecah. actually, we kinda had a break from playing ski because we kept falling. suck giler main ski :)

i love this pic seriously :) this is a trip to be remember. i will cherish it forever. i'm glad to be given the opportunity to study in oversea. thanks Allah. I LOVE New Zealand :)

Love,
ME.

5th July. Imma a year older!

2010-07-05T19:16:00.004+08:00

hi people.

okay. today was my birthday. Happy Birthday to me. yeay! i had a blast birthday today :)
clap clap. imma a year older. a year wiser. and a year cuter. wahahah. just kidding :)

i woke up this morning by a call from Zaty (my darl). she asked me to wake up and meet her at 12.30 pm. she's gonna treat me with Momo tea :) then, i washed up. and jeng2 my housemates and Kema surprised me with a cake and spaghetti. nom nom. yummy. thanks housemates. Shud. your hand made cake was nice :) Ky. your spaghetti was yummy too :) thanks guys!

after that, went out. and met Wanie at Manners street. we both headed to meet Zaty at Momo tea. arrived there, and saw Nadiah. chatted. and ordered the drinks. i ordered Peach Nata. Zaty's treat :) :)

Zaty gave me a birthday card. auwww..thanks sayang. how sweet of you Zaty. i love it :) Nadiah also gave me a card. i opened the card and saw...........Eclipse movie ticket!!!! omgeeee...i screamed. haha..speechless..thanks Nadiah. i love your present :) we rushed to Reading cinema bcoz the Eclipse was about to start at 1pm. in the cinema, we enjoyed the movie very much. we giggled, giggled and giggled. that's what we did the whole two hours. we were mesmerized by the hotness of Jacob. auuwwww..he's HOT. Still, Edward i love your smile :)

after the movie finished. chilled and played some games at Time Zone. you know, kind of place where youth hang out and kill the time (lepak sambil main games). got a text from Ecah. she asked me to go to Stadford and get the onions that we left there yesterday. so, off we went to Stadford. on the way, we did stop at Glasson, where Wanie bought her super cool leather jacket. auuww..

at Stadford, jeng jeng. another surpriseee..omgeee...i had no idea there's going to be another celebration of me. i was clueless. the onions trick worked i guess. hehe..i saw my friends Bubu, Juwe, Nik, Kema, Najwa, Farid, and Ecah (my darl) came up to me with a cake. Ecah's hand made cake. thanks roomie!! i love you to bits and pieces :) we had a feast. Juwe's fried mee hoon, coke, ice-cream, Ecah's cakes. yummy. thanks guysss :) :) i love you guys soooo much. you guys made my day sooo memorable and happy. gosh, i'm sooo gay today.

again, i wanna thank housemates, dearie friends for the surprises and celebration. i'm sooo touched. i'm soo happyy. there's no words to describe how happy i was today. for those who wished me birthday wishes. thanks again. thanks for remembering me and those wishes, moga dikabulkan Allah. Amin. thanks again :) one of the best birthdays i ever had :) gosh, i'm soo glad to be blessed with wonderful people around me. thank you Allah.

thankss kerana sudi ingat akan insan ini, dan sudi meluangkan masa bersama Tina hari nie :) sayang korang taww :) thankss so much. i appreciate all that you guys did for me. sob sob. imma about to burst with tears. huhu.. thankss guysss :)

hugs and kisses,
Tina.

little things that make me smile.

2010-07-03T18:53:00.008+08:00

hi there,
this is quickie. i won't write much.

okay. these are the videos that i have promised you guys in the previous post. enjoy the videos. cheers!

the kids were performing Poi (Maori performance art) during Maori lesson.

the kids were so excited when i said i wanted to video record them. they are so cute right? gosh, i'm soo gonna miss them very much. they made my dayss :)

Love,
ME.

Farewell Saint Brendan's Catholic School

2010-07-03T18:46:00.003+08:00

hello readers and bloggers,

i'm back again. so, this last part of my teaching experience is gonna be melancholic. sob sob. on the last day of TE, Me and Najwa treated the kids with some Cadbury candies. they loved it very much :) we also prepared thank you cards for Karolina, the kids and the school's principle. we gave Karolina a souvenir brought from Malaysia to show our thanks for everything :) it's a keychain with 'Beautiful Malaysia' written on it. the school even prepared a farewell feast for us. we were so touched. thank you soo muchh St. Brendan school. the food was nice :)

my TE partner, Najwa. that boy was so happy to receive candies from us :)

candid time! gosh, i looked like a kid, just like them. huhu..i'm so short :)

okay pose! say cheeeesee :)

the kids were out of control when seeing my camera :)

i'm gonna miss you guys soooo muchh. Room 5 students rock! St. Brendan rulezz. you guys are so adorable, cute, cool and fantabulous! i love you guys! gosh, i'm soo gonna cry. miss ya tons! till we meet again :)

ok then. to wrap, TE is such a great experience for me. it made me open my eyes to the world outside there. i feel more confident when meeting new people. i don't feel shy anymore. i have gained confidence to speak English more often. and i started to like kids :) a big thank you to Victoria Uni and St. Brendan school for giving me this opportunity to experience teaching and learning process. Hopefully, the knowledge that i gained from TE will help me to become a better teacher in the future. Amin.

a convo to be remembered for the rest of my life :)

kid: what's 'you are a good teacher' in Malay?

Me: kamu cikgu yang baik.

kid: Pardon?

Me: kamuuu ciiikkkguuu yanngg baiiikk...

Kid: ohh, kamu cikgu yang baik.

Me: ohh, that's sooo sweeett. thanks.

With Love,
ME.

Saint Brendan's Catholic School Part 3

2010-07-03T14:51:00.008+08:00

hello beautiful people.

i'm back again as i promised before. okay. let's just continue on the teaching experience thingy okay? down here is the lesson that i prepared for the kids. i taught them bout Malaysia, the people and the festivals they celebrate :)

By Miss Tina. ohh, it's cute, isn't? heheh..i want my future to-be students back in Malaysia to address me as Miss Tina. ohh...so glamourous :)

i taught them some quick facts about Malaysia.

also, i showed to them where Malaysia is on the world map.

well, on the 4rd day. we got to see the kids learning Maori language and culture. i will upload the video later kay? internet kinda slow tonite.

they learned a Maori song:

Tihore mai te rangi
Tihore mai
Mao mao mao
Te ua
Whiti mai te ra

the kids performed Poi, a performance art in which balls are held in the hand and swung in circular patterns. interesting right?

that's all i guess for part 3. to be continued :) :)

xoxo,
Me.

Saint Brendan's Catholic School Part 2

2010-07-02T21:01:00.002+08:00

hi there.

i wanna continue on my teaching experince day 3. hehe.. on day 3, we followed the Room 5 students (Year 6,7 and 8) to Upper Hutt Intermediate School. the reason is St. Brendan is a small school and doesn't have enough facilities to cater the students. so, the students will travel to this school to learn about living skills. the students are divided into 3 groups. each group will do different living skills like craft, sewing, cooking, wood technology. the kids were totally awesome. they did so well. well, honestly, i totally suck at sewing and wood technology during my school days. for instance, i pricked my finger with a needle and i accidentally hit my hand with a hammer. haha..what a clumsy person i am :)

during art class.

they were making something out of clay. very impressive :)

during sewing class.

during wood technology class.

well, let's move to another part of this post. for the 3rd day. i was asked by Karolina to teach about Malaysia. i had prepared a slide show to teach them about the people of Malaysia and festivals they celebrate. interesting right? i was nervous like hell for the whole day. my whole body was shaking and trembling i tell you. because i'm about to teach a lesson to white kids. well, you know English is their native language where as my English is not really good. huhu.. well Tina, be confident of yourself. you can do it! Kia Kaha!

my lesson was about half an hour. and i did it! i presented my lesson with explanation and provided examples to assist the student's comprehension and to widen their general knowledge. the kids seemed interested to my lesson. i feel glad. thank God. they asked me a lotsa questions, and i gave them the answers. they were so eager asking me questions about Malaysia and Islam. i feel flattered. because the kids were so interested to know about Malaysia and Islam. i hope one day they will open their heart to embrace Islam. hope that they will understand that Islam is beautiful and Islam is the way of life.

okay. that's all i guess for part 2. to be continued. stay tune :)

Me.

Saint Brendan's Catholic School Part 1

2010-06-28T21:14:00.015+08:00

hello pretty earthlings!

ok i'm bored. i have nothing much to do so i shall update on my teaching experience okay? i just found the right time to blog about this.

well, TE lasted for 5 days. thank god. it's only for 5 days. phew. Me, Najwa, Naia and Shud were assigned to St Brendan's Catholic School in Heretaunga, Upper Hutt. it's 45 minutes journey from the Wellington station by train. at first, i was quite nervous and worried knowing that we are about to go to Catholic school. i have a lot of questions in my mind. what if we are not welcome in there? what if they don't like us being there? what if the students ask us about our Hijab? what if they are prejudice and skeptical towards us? what if they being racist towards us? thank God. none of them happened. i feel glad. i feel totally blessed. because they (teachers + students) were super duper nice towards us. they greeted us with with warm smiles. our associated teachers were very easy to get along with and very friendly.

okay. for the 1st and 2nd day of TE. we didn't do much things. me partnered with Najwa (wawa). our associate teacher was Karolina. for the 1st and 2nd days. what we did was only the observation. we observed the teaching and learning process. we observed the students (the misbehavior they did), we observed how Karolina began and ended the lesson, we observed how Karolina managed the classroom and many more. Karolina was being very helpful to us. she did explain to us for every single thing she did during the lesson. she amazed me very much. thank you so much Karolina for the explanation, information that you have shared with us. we totally appreciate it :)

and for the kids. they were so adorable, cute, awesome, cool and warm :) i love them very much. i think i started liking the kids. hehe.

a convo that i had with one of the kids:

Me: so, i guess you are supporting All White for the World Cup?

Kid: yeah, of course. they are doing absolutely well so far. what about you?

Me: well, Germany is my fav.

Kid: why Germany? you should be supporting Malaysia?

Me: errr, i think you are not aware that Malaysia didn't qualify for the World Cup.

Kid: ohh, so why are you supporting Germany? is Germany near Malaysia?

Me: errk..well, i love their teamwork spirit. Btw, Malaysia is not near Germany. *laugh*

i did take pictures of the classroom and the school after getting Karolina's permission. let the pics do the explanation kay?

students' artwork being displayed on the wall. cool right?

some of the student's creative paintings.

the classroom. Room 5.

the school's corridor.

the school's compound for play and recreation.

that's all i guess for part 1 of the TE. to be continued. wait for me okay?

cheers!

Me.

football is a sin??

2010-06-28T20:07:00.001+08:00

hi there,

something bothers my mind. and i need to share it.

i don't really mind of what people have said about World Cup this year. yes. i'm totally ignorant. i don't give a fuss okay? football is my passion. my interest since ages. football made my day. i have been watching football since i was a kid. and now, some people make some noise about that, tell me to stop watching WC. what is your problem? what's wrong if i watch WC? i don't understand. i don't think if watching WC will contribute anything to Israel Zionis. it doesn't make any sense. okay. okay. enough said. i'm totally heart broken hearing England loss. what a bullcrap. but, never mind. Germany you have my full support okay? go and kick the ball! Viva Germany!

i'm pretty sure. some people gonna make some noise reading this post. huhu.. no one made a fuss 4 years agoo. why suddenly asks me to stop now. after what happened to Palestine. what does it have to do with WC? i do pray for Palestine. i do pray for my saudara there. how can you be so sure that i have forgotten them because i watch WC? how can you be so sure i don't pray for them because I watch WC? are you a God? i don't understand. why making a fuss now. why not 4 years ago?? Allah knows what's inside my heart. people outta there don't know okay? so stop. stop making a theory. that people who watch WC are ignorant about what happened to Palestine. not all like that okay? yup. i do watch WC. but, i'm not being a fanatic fan. i just watch. i don't forget my prayers. i don't forget to eat, sleep. *sigh* guys, stop being radical. i'm tired of this.

i'm not sure if i'm doing the wrong thing. because people make fuss about it. can anyone tell me if what i'm doing now is wrong? can anyone tell me why is it wrong? i'm totally clueless. do guide me if i'm taking the wrong path. readers, you tell me, am i doing a wrong thing??

ME.