hello weekenders!

     Yeay!! it's finally weekend..wanna rest as much as i can.. wanna sit in front of my lappy and watch movies and mind my own business. i love weekends. it's the days where i can relax and having my own good time.. haven't study anything at all for the past few days. not in the mood huhu.. i wanna study but so many things disrupted me from doing so. but tonite for sure i won't study at all..gonna watch movies as much as i can.. *scanning at my laundry basket now* omg!! the clothes are piling up like twin tower huhu anak dara ape nie.. hmm..i will do my laundry later tonite.. aiyoohh..why am i so lazy?? hey lazy butt get your ass off from the chair!! angel speaking, "tina..tina..you have to buck up!! procrastination is not good" ok ok angel..i will study and do my laundry but later ar heheh..

why oh why?

why oh why??
dear Allah..why are You testing me like this??
i'm so fragile..i cannot accept this fact...
Dear Allah..please give strength to face this cruel reality..
since when..i'm not sure..but what i'm sure is this feeling is growing and blossoming each day..
and how to stop this damn feeling..because i'm very sure that i will lose in this battle..
how to destroy this feeling??
i hate this feeling..hate it so much..it's killing me and torturing me like hell..
seems that fate is totally making fun of me and laughing at me right now..
the fate maybe says like this "haha..serves you right..why didn't you tell.
now you are the one who's suffering from broken heart"
life is cruel..and the fate is teasing me..
i lost the battle already..
oh dear..i wish that i don't have a heart..

i don't want this heart..
so that i won't have any feelings..so that i won't be hurt badly like this..
oh god..why am i being so emotional?? letting go is the best option..
but the question is am i able to do that?? am i that tough to do that??

why oh why.

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Three names I go by:
1. Tina
2. Farah
3. Kuceng Sepi *smile*

Three Jobs I have had in my life:
1. a student
2. babysitting my sloppy bro..
3. housekeeper..kemas umah each time balik cuti..

Three Places I have lived:
1. malacca my hometown
2. penang, Bukit Mertajam-ex rumah nenek..now nenek dah pindah duk ipoh..
3. kedah-sg petani

Three Favorite drinks:
1. hot chocolate
2. coke, pepsi
3. milo ais

Three TV Shows that I watch (currently):
1. supernatural season 4
2. criminals mind season 4
3. gossip girl season 1

Three places I have been:
1. langkawi
2. alor setar
3. pangkor

People that e-mail me regularly:
1. -none..skype kan senang..hee..
2. -
3. -

Three of my favorite foods:
1. fillet fish, McD
2.snack plate, KFC
3. nasi kerabu..hee..

Three friends I think will respond:
1. cikgu miera
2. kyron
3. nak tag wanie..hee..

Three Things I am looking forward to:
1. get good exam results
2. do some savings..
3. sleep blissfully..hee..

Bersatu ke kite?

yesterday at surau,
my course mate, ieha..sharing some tazkirah with us..
i totally agree with her saying that our cohort susah nak bersatu..
that's totally true..
through my observation..
kite nie ramai, 59 person but kite tak bersatu..i can see that fews puak2 and gangs in our cohort..
why does this happen?? i'm not sure..maybe because different regional or kite semua nie tak sekepala??
why must berpuak-puak?? we are going to oversea..insyaallah..
there..we totally need each other..we totally need to unite..because that's a different whole world for us..do you guys think the mat salleh will befriend with us??
no!! there are just like us..stick to our own community..
kalau dari sekarang kite tak bersatu..we will get into trouble once we were there..
amalkan attitude kawan dengan semua org..jangan pilih kawan!!
kite semua bagaikan saudara..kenapa perlu ada discrimination..
yang otak2 gile2 satu gang, yang otak ingat buku 1 gang, why does this happen..
susah sangat ker kite semua nak jadi satu gang..gang nz cohort 1..
this is what i have seen for the past 2 years we were being together..
sometimes this happened because all of us were separated by different classes..so it was hard for us to communicate with each other..everybody is busy with assignments and classes..
but we need to find chances..to mix around..find chances to get to know others..
chances are everywhere..we just need to think and find them..
i believe kite semua akan bersatu one day..just not sure when the time will come..
oopss..it's 8 am already..Lingo class here i come..
have to go now...
bye..see you guys around..

with love,
me again..

my bad =(

to all readers,
sorry that my previous posts are a bit controversial and containing nasty words..
my bad..
sorry to all that feel offended by my posts..
sometimes people are just out of control..i couldn't control my emotions at the moment..
sape boleh tahan kalo kawan baik kite sendiri kene fitnah atas bende yg dier x buat,
xda ribut xda taufan tetibe je fitnah org lain..xpaham betul..
kesian sgt ngan kawan saye tue..nangis x henti2..
hmm..i promise that my next post won't contain any bad words..sorry again..
to some people who don't know anything about the 'issue'
my advice to all is do not interfere lah..don't make it bigger..what is done is done..
let it goo..pleasee..
i admit that my language is a bit harsh and rude..maybe because i was bred in Melaka..org Melaka kan kasar bahasa nyer..hehe..
sorry again everybody for the bad words that i used inside my blog
kepada sesiapa yg terasa ngan post saye..i'm sorry..i lost my sanity at the moment..

truly,
Tina..