Pray for Japan.

i got nothing to say.

but my heart goes out to those who have been affected by this horrendous disaster. Be strong people.

3rd year degree is driving me nuts o.o hoping i could make it to the end. berusaha!

yours truly,

Tina <3

welcome 3rd year degree.

hello world,

my oh my. i still can't believe trimester 1 has started. crap, i'm busy with classes. sobs. managed to change subject. bye bye ENG 117. hello EPSY 341. Many have asked me. why changed? well, i have my own reasons for that.

I've attended the lectures for ENG 117 (how to read stories) for this week. but i'm having difficulty to understand all lectures so far. actually, i don't understand a thing. it's just so hard. sobs. I found out also that i'm the only Malay (Asian) for this subject. last year, there was 2 streams offered. one for native speakers and another for Malaysian B. Ed Tesol. but this year only one stream being offered. unfortunately i'm in native speakers stream. i'm so worried that i won't make it. so that's why i withdrew.

I've decided to change to EPSY 341 Classroom Studies. i think I might do well with this subject. Insyaallah. because during first year degree we learned Classroom Management subject with Mr. Basil Surin. So, i already have the basic knowledge about classroom studies i guess. solid reasons i guess. haha. so final subjects for trimester 1 are:

ALIN 301 Approaches to Grammar

EPSY 341 Classroom Studies

EPSY 343 Youth & Life Challenges

wish me luck guys. oh yeah, in just a week time, Wellington was hit with earthquake twice. that's hella scary. gosh. i pray to Allah that no harm will befall Welly and its people. Amin ya Rabbal alamin.

another thing. i lost a job because of my timetable. i'm heart broken seriously. sometimes, luck isn't always at my side. maybe there is a reason. takda rezeki. rezeki orang lain agaknya. it's fine. rezeki manusia lain-lain kan. bersabarlah wahai hati.

hurm, i have a trivia question for you guys to ponder.

what would you feel, if the person you're living with badmouthing/making fun about you especially when i don't know. sleeping maybe?

if i were in that situation, i cried. i cried in sleep. LOL . okaaaay that's all i think. it's a long post. i know. sorry :P

ciao.

tick tock on the clock.

hello earthlings :D

one week left before the trimester starts. oh crap. i just feel that i'm not ready for the school. the truth is, i'm quite rusty :P my bad my bad. siapa suruh tak membaca bila free time? nie tak, asyik movies-marathon je. huhu.

man, it's effing hot nowadays. me and sun can never be best friends. i'm sun phobic seriously. and i really wish for summer to end soon. DAMN HOT. i just don't understand why people keep saying summer is happiness. for me summer is like 'you get freak out whenever you are in front of a mirror because you're getting darker and badly sunburn'. LOL

haha. totally ignore it. i'm just crapping. well, some of my friends are now back in Welly. chewaah, orang baru balik dari Malaysia katakan laa. grrr, i envy them so much. ohh damn. now i feel homesick. again. mom, dad. i wanna go home +_+

okay patience Tina. it's just a matter of time now. another 9 months to go okay. just calm down and breathe. phew.

at the city today, i've encountered with a lot of Malaysians a.k.a the juniors. haha. i just felt it really funny. it didn't feel like oversea anymore. well beware, Wellingtonians. it's Malaysian invasion. run for your lives :P

i'm such in a good mood today. am i? pelik kan? haha. it's funny because the previous post i was like broken. perhaps, cookies and cream chill from Gloria Jeans i had this evening has somehow brighten my day today. and the cool companions also. thanks guys.

alright, i'm out!

my heart. please stop aching

dear diary.

my heart is in so much pain.

i don't know why? i feel terribly homesick right at this moment. if i could be given just a day to be with my family. i'd be really glad and thankful. i need that. i need a support. because it seems that my life is falling apart. i'm losing grip. the current me is i'm standing on a line between letting go and how much more i can take.

when i performed prayer just now. somehow, i had tears in my eyes. i was praying to God with tears in my eyes. gosh, i miss them so much. i feel so very alone. i have so many people around me. but why do i feel unhappy? why do i feel empty? i worry so much. even a tiny little thing. i freak out. this is a test for me. Allah is testing me. i should not lose faith. please Tina. don't lose hope. Ya Allah, please set my heart free from sadness and emptiness. And please help me forget the things that worry me so much. i can't breath for it weighs heavy in my heart. like i could stop breathing anytime.

i'm so sick of putting fake smile on my face everytime. i'm tired of pretending to be happy go lucky whereas am not. why am i not like the others? why is it always me? why am i different. funny. i asked a lot. but i never get any answers. life is a riddle. sometimes, you just can't figure it out.

i missed the good old days. i miss to have them around me. i wish there's someone who could give me a little hug at this moment. a lil hug is enough to nurse my aching heart. a friend maybe?

Summer Sunshine.

kiora and hye people!

oh my gosh. my blog is dying. sorry for the lack updates. i'm busy. plus, there isn't much to share here. so today, i'm gonna share the details of what's happening in my life for the past few weeks kay?

alhamdulillah. i have 3 jobs ongoing. yup that's true. Allah is the best provider. all you have to do is work hard and have a bit of patience. rezeki manusia kan lain-lain. Allah knows best.

we moved out again. damn. hate it. it's a complicated process y'know. we moved in to our new house at 57/3E Boulcott Street, Lambton, Wellington. our new house is just nice for 3 tenants. comfy and spacious. hoyeah, this year we live in the city centre. cool huh? unfortunately, our house is quite far from the university. well, does not matter i guess. bus kan ade? stairs pun ade. hehe.

there are some pros and cons about living in the city. first, there's a huge tendency to shop when your house is just a few blocks away from Cotton On, Gloria Jeans, Jay Jay, New World. i'm doomed. because i know, i could't resist them away. especially, cookies and cream chill from Gloria Jeans. i'm addicted to it XD

Second, i'm going to visit university rarely. because it's far okay. i have this disease. lazyness. huhu. uni's library which used to be my favourite place and my best companion now it's going to be less visited from now on. nah, i don't like this. whatever happens, i'm gonna make library the most visited place than others. have heard of this saying before? "berkawan dengan ilmu, bercinta dengan buku". Insyaallah. go Tina!

another thing about living far from the uni, i might not be able to attend all the event or activities related to B.Ed Tesol. this is a disadvantage to me. ohh man. i don't want to be kera sumbang. no matter happens, i got to find the will to be present in all events organized by university. bukit pun bukit la. akan ku daki. Go Tina!

i hope this year has a lot to offer. living in the city might be both advantage and disadvantage. but i'm gonna fix it right. i can do this. i must find the will. Go Tina!

ohh by the way, welcome Juniors! i hope you guys are having a good time here. windy Welly kan? so great to see you guys. muka-muka excited and full of passion. well, i'm sure you guys will be just fine. all the best, study smart and enjoy the life as New Zealander kay?

notes to self: manusia akan sentiasa berasa tidak puas hati dan mencari silap orang lain. tapi mereka lupa, mereka pun silap. how to deal? just have a bit of patience and say sorry if you're wrong. then the life goes on.