just wanna say hi. it's been a while.

hi blog.

i don't feel like blogging anymore. i don't feel like sharing my stories and thoughts anymore. what's up with me? i think the aging process is the cause. i'm getting older. soon to be 23. anyway, i've been doing fine these past months. a lot of things happened. good and bad. i got trough them somehow. yeay me. about my final year eh? there's not much to say about it. honestly, i just want this year to end soon! i can't wait to enter the working phase. yeay that's what i've been studying for right? to get a job. alright. seriously i have nooo mood to continue writing up this post. i've lost my freaking blogging mojo. cheerio!

Tina

Kau pergi.

It's been a week and i still can't believe that she's gone, as if it was just yesterday when we met, chilled, laughed out loud at all the things we shared and said during our outing. It's just so hard for me to accept her death. it was so sudden. she is was like no other. she is was my closed cousin and my best friend in the whole world. when she's gone. i feel like a part of me is missing. i feel like so kosong. so very alone. sometimes i wonder, why do all the people that i loved so much keep leaving me. Atuk, Nenek, then Along. as a Muslim, who are we to question Qada and Qadar. Kita kena pasrah dan redha akan ketentuan Nya. everything happens for a reason. sometimes, kita sangka sesuatu perkara itu buruk bagi kita padahal ia adalah perkara yang baik untuk kita. Allah is testing me. i know that. that's what i'll be going to do. i just need to let it go. Move on. live my life. but sometimes, it hurts me so much. the goodbye does not hurt me. but the flashback follows. i can't help it if old memories keep playing in my mind. i can only pray for the best of her. Moga Allah tempatkan arwah di kalangan orang yang beriman. Along, you'll be dearly missed. no one could ever replace your spot in my heart. Al-Fatihah. Semoga tenang di sana. i love youu Along xoxo

heyya, i'm back.

ohhh my poor blog. i haven't updated for months. lazy me. sighh.  i'm so sorry guys. honestly, i think I've lost my blogging MOJO!! alright, just wanna update what I've been up to these past months.

1. Completed my 2 years study in Victoria University of Wellington. gosh, i'm so gonna miss Welly!!
2. Back in Malaysia and spent time with my family that i haven't met for 2 years. i missed them like crazy.
3. Been on trips to London and Paris. i seriously in love with London. Paris is not so much. it's just not safe to be in Paris. hmm
4. Back in Ipsah to complete my 4rd year Degree. please please 4rd year be nice to me. huhu
5. Got a new roomie. very nice and friendly senior. though, i did miss my ex-roomie :P
6. Tied to ridiculous rules of IPSAH. *nak keluar makan pun mau tulis nama kah?
7. I've lost some weight since i got back from New Zealand. but since i got back to IPSAH  which 2 weeks ago, my large appetite is freaking me out. ohh no-no. i seriously need to maintain my ideal weight. no nasi okay Tina?
8. I'm looking forward to cuti RAYA CINA. i wanna go homee. seriously, i feel really homesick. 

that's all for now. not sure if i could update this blog regularly in the future, like i said, i've lost my blogging mojo. ciao!

Stonehenge, United Kingdom.

Qistina

how did I celebrate my Raya this year?

Selamat Hari Raya semua,
Maaf Zahir Batin.

today is the 5th of Syawal, ohh how time flies.

my dad used to say this "nak raya, nak raya, dah raya dah pun"

Haha. that's so true. kejap je masa berlalu. Ramadhan pun dah berakhir. just feel like as if yesterday we began our puasa. huhuhu. sedihnyaaa Ramadhan dah berlalu. Entah bertemu lagi ke tak Ramadhan tahun depan. Insyaallah, kita jumpa lagi Ya Ramadhan.

Sesungguhnya, Raya di New Zealand isn't bad at all. even without the presence of family members and relatives, we still could have fun and raya's spirit is still in the air. Alhamdullillah, Allah has blessed me with wonderful people around me, so my raya days were full with colours, laughter, happiness and nice FOOD. our house, had 'Raya Open House' on the second Syawal. the three of us, me, Ecah, Lily invited our cohort 3.1 members to our house. I came up with Kuah Kacang and Nasi Himpit, Ecah with her finger lickin finger good Nasi Kerabu and Lily with her mouth-watering Mee Bandung. Our open house was a success. received a lot of good feedbacks from the guests =) mine was the first try ever. thank God, my kuah kacang tasted good. i also baked some kuih raya.

this is my second year i have celebrated my raya without family. of course, i feel really bad about it. i feel really homesick. time malam raya tue, i cried when I heard the takbir, then besoknya time sembahyang raya pun, i cried. at that time, i felt sooooo empty. as if a part of me was missing. i should be beraya with family, but due to circumstances, i couldn't celebrate Raya with my family back in Malaysia. sobss. okey that's enough with 'tacing' story nie. let the pics do the talking aye?

 first Syawal, beraya di High Commission of Malaysia. 

 i had teary eyes. sobsss. listening to takbir raya did touch my heart.

at night, beraya di rumah 'Datin-Datin'.

 our Open House on the second of Syawal.

 third Syawal, Beraya di rumah Azu dan Izzati. had sup ekor and nasi himpit. yawww

 Stadfford Open House

4rd Syawal, beraya di Att, Ada, Izatul, Najwa and Naufal's Open House. tidak lupa jugak Open house Rumah Naia and Mufid :)

copied from my FB's status,

Satu Syawal di NZ, disambut dgn meriah, with nice food, gelak ketawa rakan2 secohort, camwhoring, open house here n there. Still, hati nie terasa sayu tatkala mendengar takbir raya. Mengenangkan Ramadhan yg sudah berakhir, wajah ayah ibu, adik2 nun jauh di sana. Sedih sikit laa. tapi life must go on rite?

Alhamdullillah, raya tahun nie, i managed to smile though i have a little sorrow in my heart.

the day it snowed in Wellington.

Antarctic blast brought snow to the capital Wellington for the first time since 50 years ago (betul ke fakta nie :P). Sorry i need to do some reading about this very rare phenomenal. huhu.

FYI, Wellington has not snowed for decades. So, when it snowed this morning. it was magical.

i've no idea it will be snowing today. So, i just went out unprepared and clueless. of course i didn't bring the camera. like i said, i didn't know. it was raining heavily at that time. i was on my way to the city to catch a bus to university when suddenly i saw something white, soft falling from the sky. OMG it was SNOW. i was too excited and i quickly held out both my hands to catch a few snowflakes. somehow, i could feel the time just froze. i was so lost in thought, admiring the snowflakes falling around me. that moment was too memorable for me. i didn't care if i would miss my bus. i just need to stop walking. stood there all alone. in the street. admiring the snowfall. i could have sworn, i was smiling all the time. from ear to ear. mula la berangan ade background music playing winter sonata song at that time. AHAHA. what makes me even more happier, passers by that i met, their faces were lit with joy too! everyone was HAPPY. SMILING. gosh, i feel so blessed today. thank you Allah. Ramadhan yang penuh dengan rahmat.

My beloved Victoria University of Wellington

Snow is falling
From the sky above
Falling slowly
Falling smoothly

Soft snowflakes,

Casting magic to the lives of Wellington,

Snow is falling

Allah, You have not created this for nothing,

Forever we thank You.

p/s: stole the pic from Ecah's FB. thanks roomie! Ecaah merajuk nie. sampai hati camwhoring tak ajak saye. tsk tsk. sob sob.