Friday, January 30, 2009

Nerding at UKM

       Hola peeps. like i stated in the previous post. today i spent the whole day in library looking for journals. mufid and her mom fetched me at around 7.30 am this morning. actually i was so thankful to mufid and her mom for giving me a ride. thanks mufid!! mufid's mom..actually she's got work to be done at UKM also.. around 9.00 am we arrived at the library's entrance. then mufid called att in case she wanted to join us in da club and informed her we were already there. att's father currently works there. the collection of journals are at aras 4, and after having breakfast at cafeteria, we all went straight to aras 4. i found 7 journals that related to the topic that i've been working on. my topic is about children's' cognitive development.. then after we found what we were looking for, we took a seat and after a while we closed the journals..hehee.. as usual we did the common thingy that girls like to do. we talked a lot, gossiping and bla bla..haha..sounds like the typical of me.. then around 1.00 pm another group of Ipsahan arrived.. there were ecah, ain, katty, naufal.. at 2.00 pm we left our seats and went for lunch and Zohor prayer.. when we came back, without wasting no more time we went for photocopying.. i photostated about 7 pieces of research articles.. not sure about mufid and att, from what i could see both photostated less than me..

nerdy tina!! look at the stacks of the journals i found..
we messed up the table..huhu.. mufid and me..flipping through the pages..
att and mufid..actually before i took this pic..we were busy gossiping..hehehe..
me, ain and ecah..i looked tired rite..it's been a long day..huhu..

       We left for Melaka at 4.40 pm.. and reached my home at around 6.40 pm. felt so wreck and as soon i as got home, done the packing and tomorrow at 9.00 am.. i'm leaving for Sg.petani i'm leaving..huhu i will be back doing the same lame and dull daily routines and the most horrible things that wait for me back in are ASSIGNMENTS!! wawa..die die lah. i guess that's all from me today, not sure when i will be updating.. just wait for me ok.

P/s: currently listening to this song.. .The call by Regina Spector

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye
Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before
All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back
when they call you
No need to say good bye
Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and now one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger ans stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

Love,
Me.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Inkheart and karaoke-ing

        Ok i'll just wrap up what i practically did for today. to my disappointment. maryam couldn't join me today. she was busy with some wedding preparations, huhuhu.. i was so frustrated that maryam didn't have time for me. ok i shouldn't be complaining. beside, miracle always happens. this morning my another bestie, Awin called and asked me if i wanted to go out with her. without any hesitation, i gave her a yes answer!! so i told her to meet me at Carrefour around 12.30 pm, and we decided to watch Inkheart movie. oh the story is about, a father who has a special abililty to bring out the characters from books to life when he reads them aloud.. problems arise when he accidentally brings out the villain character, Capricon who then kidnaps her daughter, Meggie..bla bla.. the movie started at 2.15 pm..so we decided to search for food. because we were starving at the moment. we ate at this food court called Newton just near the Makhota Parade. i had a not so yummy nasi goreng pattaya and a soya bean drink.

me after finished the meal..

awin my bestie..hey awin i think you're chubby too..i'm not the only one who is putting on more weight..dush2 the Inkheart promotional poster..

the movie finished at around 4 pm.. and then we decided to have a karaoke session. awin said to me, she had never been to karaoke box before. i was like "are you serious awin??" i think you are kinda out-dated awin.. hehee.. sorry gurl..no offense ok dear!! we sang till i had a sore throat..huhu.. gosh!! really enjoyed spending time with awin..hee..
us..inside the karaoke box..
i managed to pose with this wood-made ox..
still not too late wishing my chinese friends..Happy Ox Year!!

i shall end my post now. before that i need to say how sorry i am to Farah. i asked her out today but i didn't manage to catch her and hang out with her. i'm sorry Farah.. don't get mad at me..please.. my bad..better go now, good night people. sleep tyte!!

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

A random post.

        Evening people!! or should i say night?? ah forget it.. Since i have nothing much better things to do rite now, so i shall update my blog now! uhuhu..dowh.. i'm running out of ideas to blog. see this is the disease that has been affecting me nowadays, lacking superb ideas to write inside this blog emmm... emmmmm.. see still have no ideas, emmmmmmm.. ohh yeah!! tomorrow i'm going out!! i'm gonna meet my bestie, maryam. i've known her since high school. we are still best friends now. but we seldom seeing each other nowadays. maybe because our path is different now, she's into engineering and i'm into teaching profession..ceh2 skema dowh ayat aku, how can i describe bout this gurl, she is the most awesome friend that i've ever had we were besties since form 1. each year we were separated by different classes, but our friendship grew strong, she always be the shoulder for me to cry on. i always pray that our friendship will last forever because i knew her so well and she knew me well too. can't wait to see her tomorrow. as usual we will do the gossiping, story telling, telling jokes when we meet tomorrow, those the usual thingy we did when we met each other. ok sayang maryam, see you tomorrow honey. oh yeah before i forgot to tell, this Thursday, me and several fellas are heading to KL, we're visiting the UKM library to do some readings and findings regarding our assignments. can't wait for that day to arrive, KL here i come!! ok ok enough all this crap, i shall stop now, i'm losing ideas to blog dowh. i get this kind of feeling that people are not interested to read this post. hahaha.. it doesn't matter for me, because i have to admit that this post is quite lame. ok ok, i'm signing off!!

 Me.

Monday, January 26, 2009

it's monday..

hola peeps and my faithful readers,

       i'm back in my hometown. the real story is i refused to go back this cny. but i changed my decision. bcause my bestie zaty and her family insisted that i must go back, dowh.. zaty was really worried bout me staying alone in maktab uhuhu..thanks zaty for da concern..
it seemed that the surrounding of the hostel was lil bit scary,dark and creepy during nights,
hahaha.. so here i am at my home, in front of computer and writing this post, in fact i'm not sure what to blog about i arrived home yesterday, and today i didn't go anywhere. i wanna relax a bit today..hehee.. but tomorrow for sure i will go out, i need to chill a bit.. last few weeks was really hectic. lots of discussions,classes,lectures..bla bla.. my beloved lecturers said this course was really serious huhuhu.. i'm scared dowh, i'm having goosebumps rite now. 


what if i don't do well for 1st year degree,
what if i don't make it to fly to NZ,
what if i fail the final exam,


all these questions keep turning, churning and burning inside of me. i found that certain subjects quite hard. especially philosophy and human development. 'm crossing my fingers that i can cope with those subjects, insyaallah.. i guess that's enough for today, i will be back for more stories. before that, Happy Chinese New Year to my Chinese friends.

p/s: some pictures taken the last few weeks in Ipsah,


new poses for 2009 year..


dowh, philosophy is very hard, don't understand what En. Amareson is trying to say???

my new classmates and my besties..from left zaty, me and ecah..

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Think before you hurt someone's feeling.

         Hi peeps, Dunno what i'm doing in the middle of this night,*yawn* i'm trying to stay up tonite maybe till 3.00 am. doing a slide show now to be presented during da class tomorrow. i'm working on the topic of different types of animal communication. i've chosen to talk about How do cats communicate? sounds interesting to you guys?? *smile* i've chosen to present bout cats coz i'm a cat person, i really2 like cats. they are the cutest creature ever created by God,*smile*

          Actually there's something i wanna share here. since school days, i've been experiencing this kind of emotional abuse. i've always been teased and mocked by some moron and stupid boys, even the girls also regarding my voice, i just didn't understand. is it a big problem to them if my voice is soft and funny like they said. i mean why do they bother bout my voice. it's none of their business.they shouldn't make fun of people or belittle people for their flaws. it's not a right thing to do to people. did they ever wonder how the people involved felt bout their actions. hell no!! they didn't care or bother bout other's feeling. they are very selfish and insensible. it's very sad you know.. it's very hard for me to cope and bear those teases. what makes me even sad now. it's still continue to happen. even now i still have to cope with those teases. rite now i'm studying in college, the teasing and mocking is till existing and happening here in Ipsah. i just don't understand, i won't reveal the names. because supposedly not a good thing to talk bad behind people. but i cannot bear any longer. those teases keep churning and burning inside my soul, please guys, have a mercy on me. stop tormenting my soul heart and my mind. stop making fun of my voice. i admit that i do have flaws, so why you need to mock and make fun of other people's flaws when nobody's perfect. making fun of people doesn't make you guys any better, making fun of people doesn't make you guys great or good enough than others. so stop MAKING FUN OF OTHER PEOPLE'S FLAWS!!

         Humans have mind to think rationally and deeply. you guys are so educated and well born. i'm sure you guys can differentiate between good and bad. so THINK BEFORE YOU SAY SOMETHING NASTY ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE!! that's all i wanna say. i just wanna express my dissapoinment. i think this is the moment where i have to stop all those nasty things from happened to me again. i'm tired and helpless to listen to those teases. i'm so tired.. i'm crossing my fingers that one day i won't experience again those horrible things, my life has been utterly upside down and miserable. so please don't make it even worse.. i'm begging... stop messing my life. i'm trying to live here. uhuhuh.. i better go. it's 2.00 am now. i have to finish my work. i will not be updating so often starting from tomorrow, so sorry that i will be absent from the blogsphere for certain periods of time. my lappy is so stupid and troubled me a lot. Bye.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

She's so not getting that..

     Hey peeps, today is just another ordinary day for me. i practically did nothing today. all i did was online-ing in my room and browsing people's blog. it's very sad you know. it's a weekend and yet i did nothing to fill the spare time. ok ok enough all this crap. in fact i wanna share with my readers with this hot story. just now, while i was browsing and reading webpages and headlines my eyes were captured by this headline,
 
Vanessa Hudgens Eyeing Role In New Moon
 
        I was like what the hell and just read the full story of the headline. HSM actress, Vanessa Hudgens is said to audition for the part of a werewolf in New Moon, the sequel to Twilight. Vanessa auditioned for the part of werewolf Leah Clearwater. it's no news that she will get that role. let us pray she doesn't get that role because she definitely will spoil the movie..muahaha.. i'm so cheesy dowh.. it's not like 100% she will get the role. i'm just annoyed with her. i'm a vanessa-hater ok.. i dislike her so much. Because she always acted like a real bitch.. hahaha..sorry that i used filthy word.. i ponder that she is not fiery enough to take the role as werewolf.. she's always been seen as sweety and lovey dovey in HSM..
i guess she's not suitable for that role hahaha.. it's going to be a real joke if she starred in that movie..haha.. ok, i'm signing off.. not sure when will i be updating, hugs n kisses.

p/s: i'm looking forward to seeing New Moon movie..haa..i have a huge crush on Edward cullens.

Friday, January 16, 2009

A confession by me.

I would like to make a confession.

Dear mom and dad,

I’m sorry I can’t be a good daughter, I’m sorry I’m not the best the daughter in the world, I’m sorry I’m not perfect, I’m sorry I can’t be the way you want me to be, No matter how hard I tried to please you all, I’m still failed to please mom and dad, I’m hurt by those bitter statement and hurtful remarks that mom and dad thrown at me, I’m tired to listen to your nags, Please mom and dad, Why can’t you all love me and pity me, I’m suffering and crying in silence, All my life you all always give pain and tears, No one sees the pain, Because I swallowed the pain, Mom and dad, Did I ever make you all proud of me??? I guess the answer is no, You all never felt proud of me, Please mom and dad, I’ve never felt happy to be home, I’m scared and worried if I will make any mistakes or make mom and dad angry, I’m so scared to be at home, It’s like there is a bomb in the house that will explode in any second, I’m not welcoming in my own house, I feel that I’m all alone in this world, I’m broken and lonely, Nobody loves me, I’m thirsty for your love mom and dad, I know mom and dad think that I’m useless, That’s true, I’m useless.. There is nothing good or special about me, I’m not a good looking person, I’m not beautiful. My voice is funny, I’m not good in cooking, I don’t know how to do house chores, I’m not smart, Sometimes I made stupid mistakes, I don’t know how to play musical instruments, I’m not good in sports, I don’t have any talents, I don’t have any great achievements in my life, I don’t even have driving license, I’m wasting mom and dad’s money, I’m totally useless! I thought about to end my life, But I pushed the thought to the back of my mind. Damn, why life seems so cruel these days, I’m sorry mom and dad, I’m so sorry I disappoint mom and dad.

p/s: i'm sorry guys..this post is very sensitive and full of emotions..

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Happy Birthday!!

say cheese gurl!!


i wanna dedicate this blog space to a friend of mine,
today is her 20th birthday,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUFID!!

good luck in whatever you are doing,
may joy and happiness be at your side forever,
hopefully our friendship lasted forever,

LOVE YOU GIRL!!

love,
Tina

of being emotional.

       First of all, I would like to thank my bestie Anne, for her kindness. She let me borrowed her broadband. Huhuhu..Thanks so much Anne!! I have to pour my feelings out. I can’t bear it any longer and I need to share it inside my blog. I have been feeling pretty down lately. I just don’t know why. I’m sure most people don’t notice that coz I’m very good in hiding the sad look on my face. My heart is aching. I try to be positive and open hearted. I even tried to be happy and cheery. But still, it couldn’t ease the pain inside my soul. I may be surrounded by a lot of people. But the reality is I’m all alone. No one hears the screaming and sighing inside me. I’m having emotional problems. I’m broken and helpless. Why bad things keep happening to me??

Why me? 
Why not other people? 
Why me? 
 I hate myself alot. 
Why am I so pathetic? 
Happiness never found me. 
What is wrong with me? 
Am I not good enough? 
Maybe I'm not good enough. 
But I will change to a better person. 
Just me one more chance Ya Allah. 
Please take away the sadness. 

Does this post interest you? Well, don't bother to read it. Plain craps.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Grrr so geram.

        Hey guys!! i'm back again to update this blog. sorry for not updating. just a little bit busy with discussions and assignments. it's been a week since i last updated. actually i'm so mad rite now, my stupid laptop always gives me a lot of problems..grrrr.. the latest problem i got from my lappy is my lappy's connectivity is not working.. and unable to connect with internet..huhu..damn it!! grrrr....i'm so bengang!! got tons of assignments this week and at the same time my lappy is problematic.. what a bad luck!! huhuhu.. by the way i'm doing my first year's degree now. my class got newcomers and i got to mingle with them.. grrr...so geram with my lappy till i'm wordless.. i got nothing to share with my faithful readers.. but i promise you guys, the best stories are yet to come.. ohh i better get going. ta

i'mfreakingmadwithmydamnlappy,
TiNa.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

tagged by miss sunshine..

1.How old are you?
19 years and 5 months..betul ker aku kira nie??

2. Are you single?
single, lively and kicking!! But not available..hehe..

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?
married?? Urghh..nightmare for me lorh..ermm maybe 30 kot??

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
i dunno know lorh..

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
erk..a prince?? Hee..

6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding?
ape2 je lah..

7. Your ideal motif?
ermm..ntah..

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
football stadium?? Anfield ker?? Hoho..i’m totally nuts!!

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
only the family members..

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
simple..don’t be attention seeker!!

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own??
Islamic ways are better..

12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
10..or more

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
simple place lorh..

14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
morning..

15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
outdoors..don’t like stuffy atmosphere..

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom/bride?
maybe..ask him first whether he likes it or not..

17. Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding?
my heart will go on..hehe..romantic lorh..

18. Are you a morning person or a night person?
night person..i’m insomniac..huhu..

19. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
light.

20. What age do you want to get married?
30..am I too old??

21. Describe your ideal husband/wife.
loves me and accepts me for who I am..he doesn’t try to change me and loves to crack jokes..plus, responsible and has a strong finance..

22. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
fine dining..

23. Champagne or red wine?
hell no..orange juice ok what??

24. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
days after the wedding lorh..Need lots of time to adapt to each other..Why suddenly I feel goosebumps when thinking bout honeymoon?? Hehe..

25. Money or household item?
money!!

26. Who will pay for the bills?
Hubby lorh!! No doubt bout that..

27. Are you ready for married life?
hell no..

28. Will you always be true to your wife/husband?
Insya-allah..

29. How many kids do you like?
2 kids..a boy and a gurl

30. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
New house!!

31. Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
nanti2 lah..kahwin pun belum..

32. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
western food..

33. Will you record your honeymoon in a cd or dvd?
it depends on the mood..hehe..

p/s: miss anne thanks for the tag..
i'm crappy a lot..well don't blame me..
you knew that i didn't like to talk bout marriage stuff..hehe..
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