Monday, November 30, 2009

the gift of a friend.

yeah baby. i'm here again.
:)

currently, i'm hooked with demi's latest song titled 'the gift of a friend'. i like the song and also the lyric is so meaningful. it made me remember my friends who have been supporting me all this time. thanks guys. muah2.

my favourite part of the song is,

'when you have a friend by your side,
that helps you to find,
the beauty of all,
when you open your heart and believe in,
the gift of a friend..'

i like this song damn so much. uhuhuh.. better go now. my shoulder is paining like wth.

love,
Me.

Blabber

bored bored bored.

freaking bored dowh. uhuhuh.

yesterday i was a bit emo. yeah, i know i know. today, i don't know yet what will happen to me.
wait and see lah. ok. i have some new cravings lately.

the list:-

1. i wanna watch new moon badly.
2. Seoul Garden. *drooling*
3. i want new books badly.

that's all i guess.

ciao!
Me.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

total loser.

tsk tsk tsk. i don't know why i have this feeling. i feel that my mom and dad aren't excited at all about me going to oversea. plus, i'm hurt actually. so very hurt. that my mom and dad didn't congratulate me when i passed the final exam. :( i guess they forgot about me. or they don't care at all. tsk tsk tsk. this evening i heard a conversation between my mom and ayip. i feel very hurt. i know i shouldn't be emotional about it. but i can't help it. i keep thinking about it till rite now. ok. i feel hurt. deep down in me i feel like my mom and dad don't feel happy about the fact that i'm going to oversea and need to use a lot of money. if they don't like it at all. why sent me to Ipsah in the first place. why let me took the course in the first place. i feel like i'm putting burden on my parents' shoulder. i feel useless. feel like a total loser rite now. bcoz i'm unable to earn my own money. i still need to cling on parents' money. i feel hopeless. i wish i have my own money. sadly i don't have any. i'm waiting and hoping for the scholarship money. i need that money badly. i shall go i guess.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

people without wisdom.

ok. topic for today is 'people without wisdom' some people are just assholes, dumbass, pig-headed and narrow minded. and i'm so freaking tired with these types of people. this usually happen at my hometown. the thing is whenever i meet up with people, they will ask me questions like,

hey qis, where are you rite know? what course are you taking? and i will asnwer them like usual, i'm in Kedah. i'm taking B.Ed TESOL course in Institut Perguruan Sultan Abdul Halim a.k.a IPSAH. 

and they will respond to me, they will give me this *stink look* and *a raised eyebrow* ohhh, TESL maktab ker? why didn't you take TESL course in uni? 

my respond to them, *speechless* don't know what to say. the fate brought me there. i can deny fate. *fake smile* 

what really got my nerves is...this particular person. well, i don't want to call her as my friend bcoz i hardly know her. this person, she really looked down upon me when i said i'm taking TESL course in IPSAH. hey, what's your problem huh? she's being bitchy bcoz she is a teslian too in University whatever. she's acting like *macam bagus2 je* bengong! who cares if you were studying in uni or whatever! i don't give a damn about it ok! i'm not ashamed of my institute. i'm not ashamed of my course. becoz you want to know something, the course that i'm taking rite now isn't a common course. well, ehem ehem..our institute is linked with oversea uni. to be exact, the Victoria University of Wellington. do you hear it! i repeat VUW. oversea's uni ok! in fact, i'm considered lucky enough to have the opportunity to study oversea. so, you better get jealous of me. *evil laugh* bahahahah.. 
so, lesson to be learned for today. don't ever underestimate others' ability and don't ever look down upon other people. don't ever try to judge people when you hardly know them ok. do you get that!! bear it in your mind. sorry that i have used vulgar words here. i'm so mean in this post but i have no other choice. i just want those people to wake up and open their eyes widely. don't downgrade other people. nobody's perfect. i don't say that i'm a perfect. i do have weakness. so, please. respect others. i have a very fragile heart. do care about my feelings. xoxo Me.

Friday, November 27, 2009

Syukur.

syukur.
alhamdulillah.
the exam result is finally out.
and i'm remarkably satisfied with the grades.
all my hard work is now worth it.
thanks everyone.
thanks lecturers for your guidance.
thanks friends for all the info, study group.
thanks a lot.

i'm happy.
now i can dream about New Zealand.
and shopping list?? really need to crack my brain to list out all the things for the departure.
:)

Love,
Me.

I want to see him.

      I wanna watch New Moon so damn! huhu.. what to do. my financial condition doesn't permit me to go out. yeah, great. I'm stucked inside the house! FOR THE WHOLE DAMN WEEK! waaaaa... i wanna see my Edward. :( it's very disappointing you know not to be able to go out and to chill out, grrr.. i'm still waiting for this 'person' to return my money. cepatla cepatla. huhu.. oh yesterday, i had so much fun with my bro Amat. he came to our house to see me and to have a chat with me. for few hours. we talked and talked. and i laughed out loud at all the things he said. oh gosh. how i miss him so much. oppss...gtg! it's maghrib already. daa..

Love,
Me.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

seeking for forgiveness.

i'm currently reading My sister's keeper. it's a very interesting novel. the novel is full of emotions and tears.

p/s: my emotion is so unstable rite now. I feel like I've sinned to God. I did something bad. and God just punished me. Ya Allah, forgive me.

Me being imperfect,
TiNa.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

malu-malu kucing (crappy title) hehe..

i can feel my cheeks are hot rite now.
i can see my face is reddening with embarrassment rite now.
malu malu malu. huuuu..

ok. i just found out from my little brother the letter that i wrote to mama and ayah while i was at Kem Bina Negara has reached home this morning. and guess what?
mama and ayah already read the letter.

waaaa... malu malu malu. melodrama dowh letter tue. ayat nak touching2.

how am i going to face them? huhu.. ahhhh..don't think too much lah Tina.
why feel shy? they ain't strangers. they are our parents. mama dan ayah kite jugak kan.
buat selamba sudah. play it cool babeh!

ok peeps. packing mode!

love,
ME.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

i accept this good news with gratitude.

alhamdullillah,
thanks Allah.
thanks ayah mama.
thanks lecturers who have worked so hard to train us.
thanks kawan2 for everything. study group, info and so on.

the 58 of us passed the exam.
and in 3 months time all of us will be flying to New Zealand. Syukur.
i'm so excited, mixed feelings and gonna miss Ipsah so much.
can't wait to go home.
want to share this good news with beloved friends and family.

i have a song to be shared with all bloggers.

"cos i'm leaving on a jet plane, don't know when i'll be back again..."
:)

NZ here i come!
you are my destiny. no doubt about it.

good job cohort 1! no matter how hard we have gone through. but we made it! orange rocks!

Dengan semangat berkobar-kobar,
TiNa :)

Sunday, November 15, 2009

saya anak Malaysia!

saya bangga menjadi anak Malaysia!

hye peeps,

just got back from BTN yesterday's nite.

ok. entry kali ini di dalam Bahasa Melayu iaitu perkara 152 bahasa Melayu sebagai bahasa kebangsaan tetapi bahasa-bahasa lain boleh digunakan.

Banyak perkara-perkara dan nilai-nilai yang kami semua belajar semasa berada di kem Biro Tata Negara.
Nilai-nilai seperti pentingnya semangat patriotik, tolong-menolong, kerjasama dan tolenrasi antara kaum.

Kami didedahkan dengan perlembagaan persekutuan, di mana setiap individu dilarang mempersoalkan apa yang telah termaktub di dalam perlembagaan.

individu-individu seperti Theresa Kok, Dr. Irene Fernandez adalah mereka yang berani mempersoalkan perlembagaan iatu perkara 3 agama Islam sebagai agama rasmi tetapi agama lain boleh diamalkan dengan aman dan damai. mereka telah mencabar perlembagaan dengan meminta azan diperlahankan dan banyak lagi.

sebagai negara yang berbilang kaum dan agama. kita hendaklah menghormati agama masing-masing dan menghormati apa yang termaktub di dalam perlembagaan supaya negara kita aman dan rakyat dapat hidup dengan damai. Toleransi adalah penting bagi membentuk perpaduan antara kaum.

Janganlah kita tiru apa yang berlaku di Indonesia. Dimana penganut Kristian dan Islam berbunuhan antara satu sama lain. Ya Allah, minta dijauhkan negara ini dari pertumpahan darah dan peperangan. Dan bersama-samalah kita memastikan tragedi 13 Mei tidak berulang lagi. Amin..

kita juga mesti berjaga-jaga dan prihatin akan anasir-anasir jahat yang cuba memecah-belahkan rakyat kita dan cuba melaga-lagakan antara kaum-kaum.

kita semua tahu tiada satu kaum pun terpinggir di dalam malaysia. kerajaan telah memastikan setiap kaum menerima hak mereka mengikut bilangan mereka dan komposisi kaum masing-masing.

kami juga dapat memahami bahawa kemerdekaan yang dicapai oleh negara kita tidak mudah sama sekali. Ramai pejuang kita terkorban demi mempertahankan negara tercinta. kita dapat lihat bagaimana orang dahulu menggadaikan cincin, gelang dengan rela hati bagi membiayai rombongan yang mereka sendiri tidak tahu akan berjaya atau tidak. Iaitu rombongan Tunku Abdul Rahman ke London untuk memperoleh kemerdekaan daripada British.

kami juga dapat mengetahui betapa negara kita membangun dalam pelbagai aspek. Petronas adalah lambang kejayaan Malaysia dan terkenal di serata dunia.

Di kem inilah, kami belajar bahawa kerajaan kita adalah terbaik. Bersyukur lah wahai mahasiswa luar negara semua. tanpa kerajaan kita yang baik hati ini, tidak mungkin kita akan dapat belajar hingga ke peringkat ini dan kita juga dapat melanjutkan pelajaran sehingga ke luar negara. Insyaallah. Amin..

Our government is the best! Bukan nyer nak suruh promote undi kerajaan. but, let's think. Tengok negara lain. ader kerajaan mereka sebaik kerajaan kita. nope right? so, lu pikir la sendiri. Jangan asyik nak complain je. Buka mata anda luas2..

Lastly, Sayangilah negara, bangsa dan agama. One Malaysia! Dari, Kem Biro Tata Negara KLIA, Nilai, Negeri Sembilan.

Salam satu Malaysia,
TiNa.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

great food, great walks, great spend.

ok yesterday was fun.
we had sort of girls' day out yesterday. eh no. not really girl's day out.
suddenly Kudin wanted to tag along with us.
so, we decided to drive to Penang, to be exact to Gurney Drive.
though at first, the car got a little problem. all of a sudden, the car didn't want to start .
but we ignored the car and went to try out food at Seoul Garden.
the food was great and yum! we ate non-stop till we gave up. bcoz we were full already.. hahaa..
later, we went window shopping and sight-seeing.
i spent a lot at Gurney.bought myself a nice Roxy bag and a good novel to be read to fill my leisure time, well, you know life is quite boring after exam. huhu..
when it was the time to go back, we were lucky enough bcoz Penang people were very helpful.
few Chinese man offered to fix our car. and finally the car can start again. phew.
it was a nerve-wrecking moment for us. thank god everything went well.
after that, we thanked the guys and drove back to SP.
we reached Ipsah safely..but we dropped by Kudin at Bertam. becoz he wanted to stay overnight at his aunt's house. that's all i guess. bye for now. daa..
these are the pics of the day!






p/s: i spent money a lot yesterday. die die die..huhu..but nice roxy bag that i got..hehe..thanks to ecah, zaty, ain, mufid, neda, soleh, naia, and kudin. yesterday was a blast! great food, great walks and great spend. hehe :D
with love,
TiNa.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

it's nothing, but check it out.

what does my birth month say about me??

check it out!!

Fun to be with- i don't know about this. ask my friends. they know me better.
Secretive- yes.not all things can be shared with others
Difficult to fathom and to be understood- hmm..nobody understand what i really want exactly..
Quiet unless excited or tensed- actually, i'm a talkative person.
Concerned about people`s feelings- yes. i do care bout others.
Friendly- of course. people will love to befriend with me.
Approachable- hehe..try la kalo berani. i'll kick your ass. warning for the dudes :D
Emotional - sometimes, when things out of control.
Easily hurt- i can't stand when people talk bad bout me. huhu..
Forgiving but never forgets- yang lepas tue lepas. friends?
Dislikes nonsensical - not into harry potter.. rubbish..sorry potter fans.
Caring and loving - this sounds like me. i care and love my friends, family and cats.
Strong sense of sympathy- boohoo..can't stand to see others suffered.
No difficulties in studying - so far everything is ok. can cope with my course.
Always broods about the past and the old friends- huhu..miss my old friends..i hope they are doing well. long time no see them.
Loves to be loved -yes. who doesn't want to be loved by the loved ones. ehem..

Love.
TiNa.

nature freak!

oh dear, suddenly i got this feeling. i'm yearning for nature so much rite now. so stress in here. miss homie and craving for nice food. huhu..exam is over. but why do i feel unhappy?

with love,
Me.

Highlights!

hi i'm back!!.

highlights of my days recently:

1) just finished my final exam. phew..really tough dude.

2) preparing myself for Biro Tata Negara. it's time to brush up my history knowledge..huhu..

3) busying myself filling in forms and documents for the fly purpose

4) watching movies at night, to kill boredom for sure.

5) what else ar? i think that's all.


ok. about my exam. frankly speaking, i think i did quite well la.. after all hard work and group revision. i'm satisfied with my performance in the exam.
i pray hard that i will pass the papers with flying colours. amin..

oh gosh, i'm so fucking hungry rite now. i've been stuck inside the hall for hours, to fill some forms and bla bla.. going out this evening to buy some stuff and run some important errands.
damn, so sleeepy. slept at 5 am last nite. reaally need to eat la. lapau tahap cipan.

p/s: budak2 nie ajak gi meronggeng kat Penang. what do u guys think? hmm..i think let's rock out! babe.


with love,

TiNa.
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