Sunday, November 29, 2009
tsk tsk tsk. i don't know why i have this feeling. i feel that my mom and dad aren't excited at all about me going to oversea. plus, i'm hurt actually. so very hurt. that my mom and dad didn't congratulate me when i passed the final exam. :( i guess they forgot about me. or they don't care at all. tsk tsk tsk. this evening i heard a conversation between my mom and ayip. i feel very hurt. i know i shouldn't be emotional about it. but i can't help it. i keep thinking about it till rite now. ok. i feel hurt. deep down in me i feel like my mom and dad don't feel happy about the fact that i'm going to oversea and need to use a lot of money. if they don't like it at all. why sent me to Ipsah in the first place. why let me took the course in the first place. i feel like i'm putting burden on my parents' shoulder. i feel useless. feel like a total loser rite now. bcoz i'm unable to earn my own money. i still need to cling on parents' money. i feel hopeless. i wish i have my own money. sadly i don't have any. i'm waiting and hoping for the scholarship money. i need that money badly. i shall go i guess.