Sunday, November 29, 2009

total loser.

tsk tsk tsk. i don't know why i have this feeling. i feel that my mom and dad aren't excited at all about me going to oversea. plus, i'm hurt actually. so very hurt. that my mom and dad didn't congratulate me when i passed the final exam. :( i guess they forgot about me. or they don't care at all. tsk tsk tsk. this evening i heard a conversation between my mom and ayip. i feel very hurt. i know i shouldn't be emotional about it. but i can't help it. i keep thinking about it till rite now. ok. i feel hurt. deep down in me i feel like my mom and dad don't feel happy about the fact that i'm going to oversea and need to use a lot of money. if they don't like it at all. why sent me to Ipsah in the first place. why let me took the course in the first place. i feel like i'm putting burden on my parents' shoulder. i feel useless. feel like a total loser rite now. bcoz i'm unable to earn my own money. i still need to cling on parents' money. i feel hopeless. i wish i have my own money. sadly i don't have any. i'm waiting and hoping for the scholarship money. i need that money badly. i shall go i guess.

9 comments:

Att Ashburn said...

tina..dont say like that..
i think bila ur mum said that to ur bro, it means she cares bout ur needs there..kalau tak, mesti dia dah beli telescope utk adik tina..

be strong. maybe kalau u need money, u can try working..just a suggestion..
cheer up dear.. u'll miss ur family when u're in nz..hehe

QisTina said...

i try to cheer up.
sadly, happiness doesnt last longer.

mamma mia! said...

tina same la kite. mak ayh aku takde reaksi. dan ayah aku pun congratulate tru sms dan ayat nye adalah, tahniah atas kejayaan anda, hahah

dan aku tak berani nak bicara pasal dwet since dorg da bg 1500 hari tu

so il try to work 4 dis 2 month.. huhu unless they all ask, nak duit tak? bruuuuuu la aku cakap

lagipun dorg x bpe nk excited sbb abg aku dah pnh fly g aussie.

Merce said...

tina ... jgn la terasa hati...
bese la tu...
kadang2 tu cara parent ko elak nk beli brg utk adek ko... dgn gunakan ko sbgai alasan... maybe...
hehe... kalo dlm family ak ...
this conversation actually is quite common... nothing to be offended ...
just be chill ye tina...
when ur parents said like that..
it shows that ur parents concerned about ur study.... just think positive.. parent mane x amek berat pasl anak die...

so jgn la amek ati sgt ye....

QisTina said...

thanks everyone.
i appreciate your support and concern towards me.

mR SyamEL said...

meh daddy nk bg pesanan~~
ahaha,,
besa la 2,,
zaman skrg nk gna duet,,
masok toilet pon pkai duet,,
so, kdg2 org tua kita tension ngn duet2 neh,,
prkara biasa,, so, untuk ilangkn ketensionan org tua kita,,
we should study hard,,
don m8 them sad,,
one day kita belanja depa p disneyland hong kong ke,,
mana2 la,,
sabar,, sabar,,

QisTina said...

bengong la ayat ko syamel.
tapi xpe.
aku suke ayat ko.
it brightened my day.
bahahahah..
*marah azu kalo dgr ayat nie*

woi mangkuk,
update la blog ko.
dah bersawang dah aku tgk.
wakakak.

mazhad said...

xley la kalo xkomen hal cmneh.hmm...kdg2 jadi parent neyh xmudah.jadi anak gk xmudah...tgk dr sudut positif.at least u'r parent usaha untuk cari cagaran n duet blanja 2.

deep inside bukan dorg xheppie.cuma dorg kna pk tggjawab duet dlu sbelum jadi heppie...they will definitely misz u n vise versa goes 2 u.huhu...

soal tgg jwb.kdg2 with age come all diz.nnt bla tiba masa kita akan fhm...huhu...k.take care...

infinity1811 said...

hmm....u parents surely proud and excited bout u going oversea...trust me...even if they have fear of the burden but still they enjoy the sweetness of u going abroad...

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