Monday, August 31, 2009

oh crap!

oh crap!! my life is a total mess!!
elt i haven't started doing. crm is in the progress. ltl. shoot!!
not even touch the journals. wawawa..
fuh fuh.. ya allah tenangkan lah hatiku. thinking to stay up till sahur time. really need to be hardworking tonite.

i think i begin to accept the cruel fact that i've been mentioning in the previous posts long long time ago. even it hurts me. i still need to accept it kan.
life needs to go on. i don't want to upset myself thinking bout things that are impossible or hardly likely to happen. huhu..
i have to be strong..i still had friends around me. they are the best things that happened in my life. i will smile for the sake of them. i don't want them to see my glum look.
i must be happy and cheerful all the time. shoot!! i should cut the craps now.
ok..i shall go now. assignments are waiting for me. daa..

Me.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

when it rains, I love talking to myself.

hi people.
i'm back in maktab.
and i feel so exhausted after a long travel.
oh my goodness,
it is so freezing cold in here, rain is pouring heavily outside.
sometimes i don't like rain. rain brings sort of darkness, cold and gloominess into my life.
when it rains, i usually feel sad.. i don't know why. huhu..
i feeel so cold. hopefully tomorrow there is no assembly.
i don't think i will be able to get up early and dress up for the assembly. i think i will end here.
i'm so sleepy. gudnite people.
sweet dreams. daa..

with love,
Me.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Blessed Ramadhan.

hello everyone,i'm sorry i haven't written anything in here since the last post.
huhu.. sorry, i'm not in the mood to blog lah.
it's not that i'm busy like hell, it's just that i don't know what to write about.
so instead of me talking about plain craps, better i just be absent for while from this world of blog.
so people. how's your Ramadhan? mine was a little bit tiring.
but so far ok. i'll try my best to perform my puasa this year. insyallah..
talk about assignments.. oh crap! i haven't finished them.huuu..
well, today i went to UKM's library to do some findings.
my dad drove me there, thanks dad!! i met up with Ecah and Atia.
yup. i did find what i have been looking for. and i spent about 10 ringggit for photocopying purpose. phew.. btw yesterday i went out with Fida to buy bus tickets for this coming Raya.
so far..for the past few days..i spent my money quite a lot. huuu.. moga2 murah rezeki raya tahun nie. Amin2. i think that's all for now. see you guys soon.

daa..

with love,
QisTiNa.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Happy Ramadhan People.

hey,
i'm home!! huhu.. don't be too excited Tina, you still got tons of assignments to be done!
huhu.. ok besok puasa!! puasa jgn x puasa tau. wishing all my Muslim friends,

"Ramadhan al-Mubaraq"

'semoga Ramadhan kali akan lebih bermakna dan penuh dengan keberkatan'

with love,
Me.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

thanks so much Madam.

oh my love,
The world is looking for you,
You come everyday in my dreams,
Come into my life please,
Oh my love.

p/s: hindustan mode. hehe..anyway thanks Madam Azmah for the warm treatment and delicious food. Love you!!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

shitty.

damn!!
saye byk keje nie.
tyme nie la nak suruh tgk cite katun..
grr..
ikot hati tamau turun..
huhu..
ape barang tgk cite katun..

Monday, August 17, 2009

A surprise for birthday girl

Aishah's birthday was a blast!!
thanks everyone for making aishah's big day memorable and special.
so, i won't do the talking. my fingers are tired to type some more.
let the pics do the talking ok.

here is our birthday gurl!!






cake+flour+chasing others+cream+mocha+specially+for+Aishah

with love,
TiNa.
:D

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Happy Birthday My Roommate!!

Happy Birthday Nur Aishah!!

My dearest friend and most beloved roommate!!



Wishes for You!!

N- Nama Mu sungguh ayu dan sedap didengar.

U- Umur Mu sudah 2o tahun ye.

R- Raut muka Mu yang innocent dan ala2 anak Mami tapi sayang ader dark circles di bawah mata Mu. oppss..

A- Anak kedua terakhir dalam family, sepatutnya bersifat manja tapi sayang x manja pun. Kamu seorang yang a bit garang and a bit keras hati. Huhu..

I- Indah sungguh persahabatan saye dengan kamu. I love you roommate!!

S- Seorang kawan yang baik, concerned towards others, pemurah, kind-hearted dan best roomate ever!!

H- Hari-hari bersama kamu sangat seronok dan sentiasa dlm ingatan Ku.

A- Agak penjimat orangnya & Agak choosy bile bab2 memilih boyfriend nie.

H- Hadiah present Mu on the way. Bese2 je..hope you will like whatever i give to you.

p/s: Sorry rumet if i have hurt you before or not being nice to you. You are my bestie forever. I wish we are roommates forever!! Love you so much!! Have a nice day rumet!!
with love,
Me.
:P

Saturday, August 15, 2009

heartache.

saye sgt sakit hatiii..
huuu..
my heart is paining.
please stop.
i beg you.
please stop paining.
huhu..

oh dear. i wish i don't have a heart.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

dark side of me.

ok people. just wanna share with you guys,
about my dark secret. haha..dark la sgt kan.
i got a brand new habit, i will sleep around 5 in the evening and then wake up in the middle of midnite. what the heck??
and now here i am, sitting in front my lappy,
can't sleep at all. huhu..

i have to change.
this habit is not healthy at all. huhu..
tina tina kamu jgn tido byk sgt. nanti merana diri. actually i'm not really tired.
but i sleep like i haven't been sleeping for a week. huhu.. now i feel like mengong2, hehe..due to hours of sleeping.

ok lah.
enough craps for tonite.
daa..

with love,
Me.

Monday, August 10, 2009

wanna know a secret?

psssttt..
my roomie started to like hindi songs..
hehe..i like..
i heard her humming a hindi song..
wahaha..

roomie,
tujh mein rab dikhta hai yara meh kya karo.
hehe..
paham x?

haha..
ok cau dulu.

Me.
:)

Sunday, August 9, 2009

it's done. happy Me.

SBE portfolio done!!
wanna know what i rewarded myself today,
i slept for 5 hours!! huhu..
otak mengong jap. but never mind. i feel satisfied.
it's been a long time, i haven't slept blissfully like that.
ok ok..haishh..tonite for sure i won't be able to sleep early..huhu..
my mom always said to me whenever i was at home,
"ko nie, siang tido mati, x bangun2, malam nanti jadi musang, x leh tido. pastu tue ngadap TV sampai kul 5 pagi"
haha.. tonite i become musang berjanggut la.

tetiba je i feel so pissed off!!
i wrote something on this person wall,
but she didn't reply my comment. huhu.. what a snob!! grrr..
hey do you think you are sooo good enough!!
huh..whatever!!

p/s: memang suka sgt tido petang. it's a disease not habit dah. heee..

with love,
Me.

Friday, August 7, 2009

in a pain.

oh god,
what's wrong with me??
not feeling grateful to what i already had.
blaming the fate,
blaming the god,
astagfirullahalzim..
what's wrong with u Tina??
where is your faith??
where is your confidence?
where is your positive thought?

i'm helpless,
i lost,
i gave up,
life is cruel,
i hate them.
somebody need to guide me.
i'm losing the right path.
i'm losing the aims of life.

love??
there is no such thing like true love.
i don't believe in true love.
in this world, beauty will win, but the kindness and pure heart will lose.
this is the fact of life.
i sounded like i just broke up with my boyfriend right.
but trust me, none of it happened.
i didn't break up with anybody.
something has just happened that forcing me to write this entry.
somebody said something to me.
something that is very hurtful.
it made my heart paining.
my heart is paining.
and i want it to stop paining.

i'm afraid i won't be able to give love to people,
i'm afraid my heart will turn into a stone. a cold stone.
i'm afraid i won't trust them anymore.
i'm afraid i won't experience the feeling of it anymore.
i'm afraid my heart will close forever.

i wish i don't have a heart at all.
because my heart is paining and aching every single day.
i wish i won't be able to feel anything.
i wish this, i wish that!!
so many wishes.
i should be careful for what i wished for.
why life seems so hard?
why? why?
why can i just disappear from this life.
i can't take it anymore.
there is so much pain inside my life, my heart.
people keep giving me pain.

i just want to be happy. that's all. help me Ya Allah.
i'm losing faith. i tried so hard not to lose faith in You.
please guide me Ya Allah.
hanya kepada Mu aku berserah dan meminta pertolongan.

hamba Allah yg lemah,
Me.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

midnite update.

oh my goodness,
tonite i feel so worn out,
so tired. so helpless.
don't even have the energy to stay up tonite,
even there are heaps of report to do,
i just feel tired. i already consumed nescafe,
but i guess it didn't affect me. i'm still tired like hell.
huhu.. enough rambling i guess.
nite2. daa..

p/s: Goodbye SK Khir Johari. i've learnt a lot for the past 2 weeks. and i'm gonna miss you all!! Andy, Lisotha, Cikgu Ros, Puan Hasnah and everybody in the school.

with love,
Cikgu Tina.

luahan hati.

some people always take for granted for things around them,
they don't care people's feeling, they don't realized that they are hurting people who are very close to them. i'm tired to please people. it's enough..i have my own dignity and ego

Me.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

classroom is a zoo, metaphorically speaking :P

melalui hari2 terakhir di Sk. Khir Johari..
eh..mane andy??
andy merajuk ngan cikgu lagi ker??
huhu..
tadi masuk class 1 B..oh my goodness..
bising cam zoo..
huhu..
sabar je lahh..
cikgu sabar je tadi..kalo ikutkan hati mmg kene pulas je telinga dorang!!
grrrr..

bakal cikgu?? i still cannot believe that i'm going to be a teacher..

with love,
Cikgu Tina.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

SBE update!!

Oh my goodness, I haven’t updated my blog for agessss!!
Oh..you poor thing. I have neglected you for such a long time.
it's because i haven't been online-ing for about 1 week. huhu..
Ok. Hi peeps!!
So, what’s up guys??

As for me, I’m just so busy with SBE.
I went to the school, did some observation and oh yeah I did enter the classes and even taught the students.
How cool is that right??
But deep down inside me, I feel like teaching is very stressful.
Teaching is another thing.
The main thing is to control the classroom.
It was very hard to tell them (the students) to keep quiet.
They would be quiet for like 2 minutes after that they would make noise again.
I felt so tired, my throat ached and I felt helpless.
I couldn’t force myself to be fierce so that they would fear me.
I couldn’t do that. I'm not used to be fierce. Infuriated, stern, fierce are just not me.
I’m a cool person. I seldom portrayed anger look on my face.
Being stern and fierce is just so not me.
Suddenly, I have this thought. The thought that I will not be respected by the students.
The students are not scared of me. The students will ‘pijak my kepala’
Huhu..so scaaryy lah that thought. But what am I supposed to do??
I don’t have that ‘stern look’ on my face.
Or should I just pretending to be fierce in front of them while the inner me is giggling and laughing out loud seeing their innocent looks and eyes on me.
i can’t be mad at them. They look soo innocent and blurrr..hihi..ok ok..cikgu Tina.
Awk x leh sengih2 in front of them, awk kene garang!!
Awk kene tegas!! Huhu..susah nyer nak jadi cikgu!! Argghhh..

Pic of the day!! with students from class 4A

with love,

Cikgu Tina.

opppss jap..to be continued tau!!
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