Wednesday, March 28, 2012
It's been a week and i still can't believe that she's gone, as if it was just yesterday when we met, chilled, laughed out loud at all the things we shared and said during our outing. It's just so hard for me to accept her death. it was so sudden. she
is was like no other. she is was my closed cousin and my best friend in the whole world. when she's gone. i feel like a part of me is missing. i feel like so kosong. so very alone. sometimes i wonder, why do all the people that i loved so much keep leaving me. Atuk, Nenek, then Along. as a Muslim, who are we to question Qada and Qadar. Kita kena pasrah dan redha akan ketentuan Nya. everything happens for a reason. sometimes, kita sangka sesuatu perkara itu buruk bagi kita padahal ia adalah perkara yang baik untuk kita.
Allah is testing me. i know that. that's what i'll be going to do. i just need to let it go. Move on. live my life. but sometimes, it hurts me so much. the goodbye does not hurt me. but the flashback follows. i can't help it if old memories keep playing in my mind. i can only pray for the best of her. Moga Allah tempatkan arwah di kalangan orang yang beriman. Along, you'll be dearly missed. no one could ever replace your spot in my heart. Al-Fatihah. Semoga tenang di sana. i love youu Along xoxo