Empty.

something is holding me back.

i felt bad when i laughed.
i felt bad when i smiled.
i felt bad when i tried to be happy.
at this moment, i feel only emptiness.

i miss you nenek. ain't no sunshine when you're gone :(

Happy Mother's Day.

Happy Mother's Day Mama.

i love you so much. thanks for everything :)

I'll be strong for you Mama.
I'll be a good daughter for you Mama.
I'll take good care of myself for you Mama.
I'll make you proud Mama.
I'll make you happy Mama.

i'm sorry for everything. forgive me Mama. and i thank Allah for giving me such a wonderful mama.

i'm glad and thankful that i still have parents. thanks Allah :)

Love,
Me.

seandainya.

seandainya nenek masih hidup,

ayong makan bersama bila nenek makan,
ayong tidur bersama bila nenek tidur,
ayong menyahut bila nenek panggil,
ayong dengar bila nenek bercerita,
ayong patuh bila nenek suruh/larang,
ayong ketawa bila nenek bergurau,
ayong cium dan salam nenek sebelum keluar rumah,
ayong solat jemaah bersama nenek setiap hari,
ayong buat nenek gembira setiap hari,
ayong ucap terima kasih setiap kali nenek memberi,
ayong minta maaf setiap kali terkasar bahasa dengan nenek,

seandainya nenek masih ada.

nenek, ayong rindukan nenek. nenek pergi tanpa sepatah kata. ayong dah takda nenek. maafkan ayong sekiranya tangisan ayong buat nenek terseksa di sana. ayong sayangkan nenek. setiap kali malam menjelma, ayong resah. hati tidak tenteram. hati ini terasa sayu. ayong rindukan nenek. setiap kali lepas solat, ayong sebak. setiap kali bacakan surah Yasin untuk nenek, ayong sebak. ayong tak sangka nenek dah pergi tinggalkan ayong.

innalillahiwaiinailaihirajiun. Al-Fatihah buat nenek tercinta. i miss you nenek :(

nenek, i miss you..

i wish it was a merely dream. but it wasn't. i have to move on, they said. am i capable of doing that?

i miss her :(

what a game. Go Canes!

hello beautiful earthlings!

i'm backkk..

gonna update about yesterday. went to watch and experience my very first New Zealand rugby match between Wellington Hurricanes and Chiefs. Hurricanes defeated Chiefs 32-27. what a game. You gave us a wave. Go Hurricanes!

Hurricanes 2010.

Me being a Hurricanes supporter =)

yeay! we won! clap3.

i will never forget this experience. it was an awesome nite. i screamed a lot. i pissed a lot. it was a deadly cold nite. but i was satisfied. i was happy. Go Hurricanes!

p/s: credits to Mufid and Aisha for the pics. Love you hun!

With so much love,
TiNa.