Semoga Malaysia aman, maju dan terhindar dari bencana. Marilah kita bersama-sama memelihara kedamaian dan kemakmuran negara dengan saling hormat-menghormati dan toleransi antara kaum. Perpaduan kaum adalah perisai kepada negara kita daripada ancaman dan anasir luar yang cemburu melihat kesejahteraan negara kita. Generasi muda Malaysia, ayuh! bangun! jangan leka dan tidur. majukan diri anda demi bangsa dan Malaysia. thank you Malaysia for sending me to NZ. you have sent me far away from my homeland for me to gain knowledge and experiences. you fulfilled my dream. i owe you a lot Malaysia. i will come back soon Malaysia. to serve you with great honour. thanks so much!!
till my last breath, i'm proud to be Malaysian :)
i do love NZ.
but i love Malaysia more!! Happy 53rd birthday Malaysia ♥
will be Leavinggg on a jet plane this Sunday. Sydney, Australia, here i come babeh!! but, first destination, pergi jalan2 makan angin kat Auckland dulu for 2 days. then baru pergi Oz for 4 days. ngehee..way excited to go there. spoke to Mama the other day.
Me: Mama, ayong nak gi Oz weekend nie. Mama: Eh, kau biar betuul. Me: Betul la. Nak gi Oz. Awatnyer? Mama: Kau baik2 Farah, tue negara orang tau. kot jadi ape2 ker? Me: Mama relax le. xde bende pun. Pergi ngan kawan2. Mama: Baik2 tau. Jaaalaaaan je ko eh? study okay tak? Me: okaaay jeee. Nanti ayong beli ole2 untuk mama.
sorry for not updating ya. been busy bee with revision, tests and Terawih :) will be updating soon. Inshaallah.
This song dedicated to brothers and sisters in the whole world. Ramadhan Al-Mubaraq :)
Semoga Ramadhan kali lebih baik dari Ramadhan tahun lepas. May this Ramadhan brings me closer to Allah and Islam. Once, i walked further away from You. Aku lupa. I was ignorant. May this Ramadhan will change the entire me and hopefully my imaan for Allah will increase.
Aku cuba berubah demi Ramadhan yang mulia ini, cuba untuk memperbanyakkan amalan dan ibadah di bulan ini. Itu janji aku. Insyaallah. Kuatkan aku Ya Allah. Semoga aku kuat melawan segala nafsu demi menunaikan kewajipan ku sebagai hamba Allah.
Selamat berpuasa dan menunaikan ibadah Ramadhan mama, ayah, ayip, abang ngah. I miss you guys so much. Sadly, i can't be with you guys this Ramadhan. Adik-adik yang ku sayang jangan ponteng puasa tau :) Ya Allah, moga keluargaku tergolong dalam kalangan orang-orang yang beriman. Amin.
benda dah berlaku. aku redha. aku pasrah dengan ketentuan Nya. everything that happens must have a real good reason behind it. and so my laptop was attacked by a dumbasshole virus. the whole system went crazy and infected. aku terima. there was a reason for that. i think i have sinned. and that's the result of the sin that i have committed. O Allah, forgive me. verily, i forgot that You're watching me.
"and whatever strikes you of disaster, it is for what your hands have earned; but He pardons much." -Surah ash-Shura, verse 30
indeed, Allah is Kind. atas apa yang berlaku. my laptop dapat diselamatkan dan still boleh function normally. thanks to this hamba Allah. he's a genius. i called him doktor laptop :)
"verily, Allah is the best of providers." -Surah al-Hajj, verse 58
atas kehendak Mu, laptop dah okay. thanks for everything O Allah. also, i have realized my wrongdoings. You gave me a chance to repent. dan aku sangat bersyukur. thank you Allah for opening my heart and eyes :)
Ramadhan is just a few days away. so, let us welcome the holy month with a big heart and let's do our best to perform Ibadah to Allah the Almighty and to make use of the whole month to strengthen our Iman (faith) to Allah, the Oneness and may Allah bless every single deed that we do throughout Ramadhan. Insya Allah.
ohh dear. out of sudden, teringat dekat someone who is very dear to me. okay, before that, salam takziah buat Ecah dan keluarga. Al-Fatihah. Moga arwah datuk Ecah ditempatkan di kalangan orang yang beriman. Ecah sabar ye. i will be at your side if you need me. count me in. i wanna share your pain together. don't hold back your tears Ecah. sometimes, crying is good. cheer up kay Ecay. I ♥ you rumet :)
it has been 2 months since nenek passed away. i miss you nenek. it is irony. last Ramadhan, i could vividly remember breaking the fast with you nenek. masih segar di ingatan Tina bila kita bersahur bersama. Ya Allah, i'm sooo gonna cry. at that moment, i never thought that it would be the last time we sahur and break fast together. never crossed my mind that nenek would be gone one day. sobs.
nenek, you didn't know how much i miss you. you didn't know how much tears shed for you nenek. you didn't know how many nights i cried myself to sleep. you didn't know how many nights my pillow was damp because of the sobbing. you didn't know because you are gone. gone forever from this world. at times, i couldn't believe that nenek is gone forever.
last Raya, i could vividly remember, tina salam and kissed your hands nenek and asked for your forgiveness. i could vividly remember, you shed tears on the first day of raya and i felt that really weird. now, i understand why. you already knew nenek. you already knew that it's almost the time. the time to leave the world. but i wasn't really aware. sobs. but this Raya, i will live with fact that you are gone. nenek. Ya Allah, kuatkan hati aku agar tidak menitiskan air mata lagi atas pemergian nenek. tidak mahu nenek terseksa.
sobs. dalam dunia nie, neneklah yang paling sayangkan Tina. tapi, nenek dah tiada. i miss you nenek ): tidak ku sangka, dalam keseronokan beraya tahun lepas, it was the last raya i saw you nenek. the last raya for me and nenek together. the last raya, i kissed her cheeks. sobs. Ya Allah, sayu nya rasa hati ini. sepatutnya, rasa tidak sabar menantikan kedatangan bulan Ramadhan. tapi, terbalik pula. rasa sayu. rasa macam nak masuk dalam duvet dan nangis sampai bengkak mata. rinduuuuu ):
Ya Allah, tenteramkan hatiku, tenangkan jiwaku. sobs.
Peace, that was the other name for home (Kathleen Norris)
sesungguhnya, rasa diri nie tak terurus sangat. missed study, missed dinner. my mind was elsewhere. felt sleepy for the damn whole day. almost gave up finding jobs. rasa hati tak tenteram. dunno why? the truth is saya rindu rumah ): sobs. i miss my family so much. i miss the warmness feeling of having them around me. i miss mom's cook and dad's voice. i miss my bro's lame jokes. i miss my younger bro. i miss the moment when i kissed his forehead. i miss my fav cuz too. life without them is merely so not cool. i miss everything about Malaysia. the food, the malls, the pasar malam, the people.
undoubtedly, i feel homesick. sobs. did i make the right decision of not going back?? but, i wanna stay here longer. it's only for damn 2 years man. yeah, it's true, like people said, 2 years will pass by in the blink of an eye. i want to work and gain some experiences. after this, i will never have such opportunity again. but, i'm missing homie. ohh man. i'm facing a dilemma rite now. i wanna go hooomeee. huhu.. mahu tapi tak nak. macam mane tue? hurm. duit lagi. kalau balik, confirm terbang duit dalam 1000 NZD. *sigh* crap, it's freaking 5.00 am. damn, insomniac. huhu..
seriously, cemburu tengok kawan2 riang-ria balik hujung tahun nie. sobs.
okay. this is like the cutest advertisement that i have ever watched so far!!! i gave it 10 outta ten laaahhh.
MEET LEE MIN HO. ada kenal?? well, he played a leading role in Boys over Flowers. BOF is a major success and a crazy phenomena across Asiaaa. no wonder laaa.. mamat nie is a HUNK okay? HOT! ok then. happy watching! i can't stop giggling watching this ads. seriously, Lee Min Ho is sooo adorableeeeee.. purrrrrrfect complexion and delicious.. hahaha.. just joking.
this guy surely has undergone a plastic surgery. what do u guys think? licin nyer kulit muka kamu, kalah muka girls :P
as you guys can see, my blog has got a new look/a new layout. well, i'm pretty bored with my previous, old, lame layout so that's why i need a make over. Obviously, pink is my faavvv :) but that doesn't mean i'm a gay?? am not!! okay. yeah i heard some "what colour are you?" says that pink describes a gay personality. euuuwww.. stupid quiz. Zzzzzz..
on the other hand, went to SJS just now. out of 3 jobs that i tried to apply. only 1 managed to go through. somewhere in Miramar, it's a cleaner job. i'm still thinking about it. becoz it's quite far from Kelburn. hurm. nak call auntie tue ker or xnak? oohh dilemma. ok then. that's all i wanna update u guys at the moment. till then,
i created this poem like ages ago. it came out straight from my heart. hehe.. don't have the title for it. Enjoy!
i see something in you, and i don't know what to do, the 'thing' in you, draw me closer to you, i can't help it. i try to go far from you, but the 'thing' in you, keep pulling me towards you, what magic did you cast on me, that made me so dazed and my tongue feel so numb, i see something in you, that i'm not sure what it is, but one thing i'm sure about the 'thing' in you, i see something good in you. something that made my heart melts. something that soothe my soul. i see something in you, and i don't what to do!
tadi rasa sangatlah bosan. join lah kejap Yahoo Chat. masuk room chat Pakistan. ceh ceh ko nie Tina. nak chat dengan yang Pakistan je. yang hidung ala2 hindustan macam Shahrukh Khan lah katakan lah. haha..
dah join chat room. suddenly, ada someone buzz. nickname tak boleh blah. love_seeker. nickname nak desperate je dorang nie. miahahah. chat punya chat. sharing punya sharing. you guys baca lah. have fun :)
what a douche bag mamat nie. seriously, bikin orang panas je. dia ingat aku nie student job search ker? sedap je, nak suruh aku tengok2 kan kerja kat NZ nie. macam good good je mamat nie kan?
love_seeker: any pic send plz
qistina: well, i'm not comfortable showing pic of me to strangers
love_seeker: ok
qistina: u know these days, lots of freaks, perverts. please understand me.
love_seeker: can u send work visa for Malaysia or Nz
qistina: what? why?
love_seeker: becoz i wanna make money.
qistina: i think you have to apply it first.
love_seeker: oh ok. how?
qistina: u just go to your official immigration office in your country.
love_seeker: then, what i do?
qistina: you fill some forms, medical check up, then u need to pay for the fee.
love_seeker: ok. give me any your fax no. i wanna send my documents.
qistina: what documents?
love_seeker: i mean my resume, my experience certificate
qistina: but why?
love_seeker: for you jaaaaaaannnn, to see any job for me.
qistina: pardon??
qistina: ohhh my gaawwwwdddd!! u are using me!!
love_seeker: what. noooooo
qistina: yes you are.
love_seeker: nooooooo.
qistina: we just met. and now u asked me to do this and that for you. what da hell???
love_seeker: nooooo. plz
qistina: i'm mad!!
love_seeker: sorrrrryyy. i'm a fool
qistina: yeah right.
love_seeker: sorrrrryyyyy
qistina: from the start, i wanted to chat with you. getting to know you. but you kept asking me about visa, work, Nz. what daaa??
love_seeker: soooooorrrryyyyy.
qistina: bye!
love_seeker: from now i never ask you about visa or work okkkkkkk
qistina: freak!
love_seeker: plzzzzzzz. sorrrryyyy.
qistina: go away!
Aku pun ape lagi. terus click X. malas nak layan. pervert pakistani. asshole. trying to take advantage of me? kiss my ass jerk!
dah lah call me jaaaann (means my love). eeeeuuuuwww, freak. FYI, Hindi is my 3rd language. Miahahaha.. bengong giler ko nie Tina. padahal, i learned those words from Hindi movies. hahaha..
phew. tak paham kenapa aku marah sangat. padahal chat bodoh2 je pun. adoyai.
