Ramadhan dan kenangan.

salam,

Ramadhan is just a few days away. so, let us welcome the holy month with a big heart and let's do our best to perform Ibadah to Allah the Almighty and to make use of the whole month to strengthen our Iman (faith) to Allah, the Oneness and may Allah bless every single deed that we do throughout Ramadhan. Insya Allah.

ohh dear. out of sudden, teringat dekat someone who is very dear to me. okay, before that, salam takziah buat Ecah dan keluarga. Al-Fatihah. Moga arwah datuk Ecah ditempatkan di kalangan orang yang beriman. Ecah sabar ye. i will be at your side if you need me. count me in. i wanna share your pain together. don't hold back your tears Ecah. sometimes, crying is good. cheer up kay Ecay. I ♥ you rumet :)

it has been 2 months since nenek passed away. i miss you nenek. it is irony. last Ramadhan, i could vividly remember breaking the fast with you nenek. masih segar di ingatan Tina bila kita bersahur bersama. Ya Allah, i'm sooo gonna cry. at that moment, i never thought that it would be the last time we sahur and break fast together. never crossed my mind that nenek would be gone one day. sobs.

nenek, you didn't know how much i miss you. you didn't know how much tears shed for you nenek. you didn't know how many nights i cried myself to sleep. you didn't know how many nights my pillow was damp because of the sobbing. you didn't know because you are gone. gone forever from this world. at times, i couldn't believe that nenek is gone forever.

last Raya, i could vividly remember, tina salam and kissed your hands nenek and asked for your forgiveness. i could vividly remember, you shed tears on the first day of raya and i felt that really weird. now, i understand why. you already knew nenek. you already knew that it's almost the time. the time to leave the world. but i wasn't really aware. sobs. but this Raya, i will live with fact that you are gone. nenek. Ya Allah, kuatkan hati aku agar tidak menitiskan air mata lagi atas pemergian nenek. tidak mahu nenek terseksa.

sobs. dalam dunia nie, neneklah yang paling sayangkan Tina. tapi, nenek dah tiada. i miss you nenek ):
tidak ku sangka, dalam keseronokan beraya tahun lepas, it was the last raya i saw you nenek. the last raya for me and nenek together. the last raya, i kissed her cheeks. sobs. Ya Allah, sayu nya rasa hati ini. sepatutnya, rasa tidak sabar menantikan kedatangan bulan Ramadhan. tapi, terbalik pula. rasa sayu. rasa macam nak masuk dalam duvet dan nangis sampai bengkak mata. rinduuuuu ):

Ya Allah, tenteramkan hatiku, tenangkan jiwaku. sobs.