Bad news for me, i'm back in Ipsah. arrived at 6.00 pm just now huhu.. the hostel is still empty and dark. haha..serves me right, who asks you to go back early?? well, it's not my intention to go back early. it is because the tickets for Saturday are all sold out!! ok.. throughout this holidays, i discovered a lot of things about me. first, i discovered that i'm so silly. second, i discovered that i can be easily fooled by people. ok, let me share with u guys why i called myself silly, i have a brother, and i love him, and i trust him, and i thought he will never ever lie to me, but, at the end, he lied to me!! grrr.. so mad with him. he talked bullshit said that he would never ever touch cigarettes or smoke. few days ago, he confessed to me that he smoked. then, he was so slumber and lit up the cigarette and smoked in front of me!! argghhh..i was so stunned and couldn't believe it. my brother is a freaking smoker!! i wanted to cry at that moment, but i held it. i didn't want to look stupid in front of him. i realized that i couldn't do nothing to stop him, it's too little too late. he is a smoker and i hate the fact he smoke. somehow, i feel i'm a loser, i failed as a sister. i'm not a good sister because i couldn't prevent him from touching that 'dirty' and 'harmful' things. i'm so failed as a sister..huhu.. i'm so foolish that i believe him and he certainly had me fooled!! grrrr.. i'm so mad with u bro!! you let me down and you lied to me.. oh god.. i'm so not in the mood to blog anymore, i'm freaking mad rite now..