Rindu.

Peace, that was the other name for home (Kathleen Norris)

sesungguhnya, rasa diri nie tak terurus sangat. missed study, missed dinner. my mind was elsewhere. felt sleepy for the damn whole day. almost gave up finding jobs. rasa hati tak tenteram. dunno why? the truth is saya rindu rumah ): sobs. i miss my family so much. i miss the warmness feeling of having them around me. i miss mom's cook and dad's voice. i miss my bro's lame jokes. i miss my younger bro. i miss the moment when i kissed his forehead. i miss my fav cuz too. life without them is merely so not cool. i miss everything about Malaysia. the food, the malls, the pasar malam, the people.

undoubtedly, i feel homesick. sobs. did i make the right decision of not going back?? but, i wanna stay here longer. it's only for damn 2 years man. yeah, it's true, like people said, 2 years will pass by in the blink of an eye. i want to work and gain some experiences. after this, i will never have such opportunity again. but, i'm missing homie. ohh man. i'm facing a dilemma rite now. i wanna go hooomeee. huhu.. mahu tapi tak nak. macam mane tue? hurm. duit lagi. kalau balik, confirm terbang duit dalam 1000 NZD. *sigh* crap, it's freaking 5.00 am. damn, insomniac. huhu..

seriously, cemburu tengok kawan2 riang-ria balik hujung tahun nie. sobs.