As long as I live, I won't stop loving you.

So I watched Jab Tak Hai Jaan last night. (English translation, As long as I live, Malay translation, selagi saya bernafas). I've been wanting to watch this film since I first saw the film poster at GSC. FYI, I'm a big fan of Shahrukh Khan. hey, I'm serious. I love him like a looooot. I've seen his movies since I was 9 years old. huge fan huh? ha. So, I've been planning to watch this film with my deary cousins. It ain't that easy. They didn't agree at first. They wanted to watch the vampire movie. the problem was, I watched the Breaking Dawn already. In the end, I was able to convince them to watch this film. yeay! note to self, please wear a thick clothing or sweater or sweat shirt or jumper whatever you call it if you're going for midnight movies. It was freezing cold in the hall, and I was frozen during the 3 hours of movie showing. So, the movie basically is about... oh no. do I really have to tell the synopsis here? The movie is freaking 3 hours long and that means it's a loooooong story. -_-  oh, you're wondering how was the movie yarr? I don't want to use the adjective 'awesome'. The movie was okay. Alright, I'll try to shorten the synopsis just for my readers. yeah like do I have readers? ahaa

      Basically, the movie is about a love triangle between Samar, Meera and Akira. Samar is an immigrant in London, who does all kind of work in London for a living. One day, He meets Meera, a Londoner, who has issues with her life, not happy with her engagement bla bla. Samar helps Meera to solve her problems, teaches her to sing a Punjabi song and they fall in love with each other. Meera is very religious and has faith in God and one day, Samar meets with an accident, she starts praying to God to save him and makes a vow never to meet him again. Samar recovers and he is angry with Meera for leaving him and makes a vow to risk his life everyday. He leaves for India to become an army posted in Kashmir. 10 years later, Akira, a Discovery Channel journalist, reads Samar's diary and finds out about Samar's love story. Akira requests her boss to make a documentary about bom disposal squad.  Later, Akira joins Samar and his army colleagues, become friends with them.  Akira develops feelings for Samar, but he rejects. Akira finishes her documentary and departs for London. In order to launch her documentary, she needs Samar to come to London. Samar comes to London and meets with an accident. He loses his memory only remembering events before his first accident. Akira meets and asks Meera's help to recover Samar's memory. Meera tries to recover Samar but she gives up after few days. Akira takes the job to recover Samar. She finds out Samar is very lonely without his love, Meera. Akira meets Meera and asks her to reunite with Samar but she is hesitant to break her vow to God. Samar regains his memory and meets Meera. He gives her a condition whether to come along with him or he will keep risking his life and Samar departs for Kashmir. Akira sends him off and they bid goodbye to each other. Meera realizes that her vow only gives Samar the suffering that is much worse than death. She departs for India and meets Samar. In the end, they reunite :)

phew. I told you it's a long story. I have omitted few insignificant details in the synopsis. tak penting haha. ohh, love is very complicated ha. So, this is my favourite song from the film, called Jiya Re. I love this song. very lively song. this song was shoot in Kashmir. such a beautiful place. I wish I could go to Kashmir or India someday. I really like the characters of Akira. In the movie, she is very happy go lucky, passionate about life and very determined to realize her dreams. So sad she can't make Samar to fall in love with her. frankly, I don't like the characters of Meera. She is sooo annoying. She leaves Samar then she wants him back. blergh. one more thing, she is a beauty with expressionless face. aha. #teamAkira okay folks, enjoy the song yarrr :)

As I'm about to post this entry, I'm dancing and singing to Jiya jiya re jiya re Jiya jiya re jiya re Jiya jiya re jiya re jiya oh ohhhhh

Silly silly me aha :) x

It's not everyday, you'll find someone who can put up with your bullshit. Hold onto them seriously.

Day 01- A picture of you and your friends

    My girlfriends and me. They are my good friends, my besties. Since I don't have any sisters, I only have two biological brothers, and have always wanted a sister, now I get like 4 of them. These girls are really like my own sisters. I spent longer time with them than my other friends. I can't really imagine what my life would be without them. Where would I be without these incredible, amazing friends. We have been friends for quite a long time. They have always been there for me. I shared my laugh, cry, be silly, my little secrets, and not to mention I turned to them when I needed a little love and support. They taught me some really valuable life lessons, girly stuff, and day-to-day stuff. I have to be honest, we did have some tough moments together, some friendship issues and everything in between. that's normal in a world of friendship. In the end, we'll always stick together. I thank God for sending these beautiful angels to me. One of them is a bride to be, this coming 2nd of Dec, she will officially become someone's wife. Congratulation Annie. can't contain my excitement. I'm so happy for you.

p/s: It's really saddening  to think that each of us is going take different train in life. May the friendship last forever wherever we are :) x I'm 100% sure that none of them will ever read or find this post. aha. they're not into blogging. but, 4 words, I love you guys x

10 days of challenge.

So, I found this list and thought I would try it out. For me, this is like one way of me getting back into blogging. I have lost the blogging mojo lately. don't know what's happening to me. Therefore, doing this list it's like a medium for me to finally say some things that I felt I have wanted to say for a long time. So let's see how this whole thing goes:

Day 01- A picture of you and your friends
Day 02- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 03- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 04- A picture of you and your family
Day 05- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 06- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 07- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 08- Something you crave for a lot
Day 09- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 10- Your favorite song.

So, goodluck Tina! Happy blogging ha :) x

Still swooning over the boybands.

here's my humble confession, this post is kinda embarrassing. aha :) I feel the need to blog about this matter. haha. the boyband era is officially back. when I was 12 years old. I was obsessed with BSB, Westlife, Blue which is cool because they’re like mature boys and way older than me. now that I’m turning 23 years old. I have a huge crush on the current biggest boyband on this planet, One direction which is really odd and a bit pedo because they’re just young kids.  Well, Zayn, Liam, Niall are 20. Lou is 21 and Harry is 19. Tina, don't even start discussing about them being so good looking. okay, I got it. Understood. So currently, I've been listening to their latest tunes, their second album, called Take me home.  I'm not gonna lie that they have some really good tracks in the album  like Kiss you, Little things, They don't know about us. My favourite track in the album is called Over again.

I know exactly what all of you are trying to say, that 1Direction is for kids. absolutely not!  I'm not gonna lie that their music is pretty catchy and the lads are quite talented. provable. they can sing. Holler! they sing words that every girl/woman in this world wants to hear. what's the problem with that? I'm totally fine with that. I know a few people who really like to mock me for liking 1Direction so much. you know who you are. here's the thing. I don't freaking care. Say what you want to say.  I just don't care. I chose my music. you have a problem with that? no? good. so, scoot. one more thing one does simply say 1Direction are gays. Because I will kill you. aha. hey, I do listen to other band like Maroon 5, Fun and The Wanted. The Wanted is like an older version of 1Direction. aha. Music is universal. I listen to every kind of music. So judge me not by the type of music I listen to. okay?

Something to laugh at. aha :)

Post Practicum Reflection Final Part

The approaches that I used for classroom behavior management are:  

1. Assertive approach which proposed by Lee and Canter 
2. Behavior Modification Approach which proposed by B. F Skinner

      The Assertive approach shows the class who is the boss. Pupils who disobey receive one warning and then are subjected to a series of serious sanctions (as cited in Burden, 2006). For example, the ‘Angry box’. The idea is for the teacher to respond to a pupil’s misbehavior quickly and appropriately. The ‘Angry Box’ is used regularly during my lesson. Pupils who misbehave, despite the first and second warning, their names will be written down on a piece of paper and to be put inside the box. The box will be sent to the discipline teachers for further actions. The ‘Angry Box’ is amazingly effective to control the classroom behaviors. The pupils fear the box.

     Behavior Modification Approach by Skinner suggests that behavior is strengthened by immediate reinforcements which are positive and negative reinforcements. Examples of positive reinforcements are, (as cited in Kauffman, Mostert, Trent and Hallahan, 2002):

1. Social, such as verbal comments (“You are right”, “That’s correct”, “That’s good”), facial expressions, and gestures, 
2. Graphic, such as written words of encouragement, 
3. Tangible, rewards such as pencils, erasers 
4. Activity, such as appoint the good pupils to be a leader or monitor for the group work.

        Rules are established and enforced. Pupils who follow rules are praised and rewarded. Punishment can be used to reduce inappropriate behaviour, but sparingly. I often asked the pupil to explain to me why he or she was engaged in that behavior. I think it is important to give pupils chances to explain themselves. Every day, I reminded my pupils to be disciplined, be good.

Post Practicum Reflection Part 3

        Some of the misbehaviors that I observed in the classroom during the first month of practicum are answering back, annoying others, poor homework, nonstop talking, yelling, not paying attention, moving around the classroom and blurting out the answers without raising the hand. Misbehaviors include behavior that interferes with your teaching and interferes with the right of others to learn (as cited in Burden, 2006).

the most mischievous kid in my class. very cheeky. 

        So the next months, what I planned to do, before the lesson starts, I wrote the classroom rules or expectation I have for the class on the blackboard. If the pupils insist on not listening or talking, I raise my hand (cueing) and I give them the ‘look’ until they be quiet and have their attention. Then I said, “everyone’s eyes on me and shut your mouth” something like that. I didn’t ever start the teaching if a pupil still talking. I demanded respect from the pupils. It is very important for me to teach not only from the front of the classroom but from everywhere, from back, sides. This makes the lesson more interesting, and often I can keep eye on the pupil as a whole and pupils will know I am paying attention to them. So they will not try and do something else.

okay folks, to be continued

Every saga must come to an end.

Hola. 

So I watched the Breaking Dawn part 2. holy poo poo it was sooooooo good. Amazing movie. Somehow, I feel so sad that Twilight saga is finally over. I can't really explain the feelings.  I don't know how to put my mixed feelings into words. I nearly cried and got really emotional in the ending. I am forever team Edward. hell yeah!

Twilight Saga has always been there for me. in my teenage years, in my student's life. I never failed to watch all 5 Twilight movies. I'm definitely a twihard fan right? So go stfu Potter fans. you're not welcome in here. ha ha.  I'm so going to miss Twilight movies. gutted it's over. Thumbs up if you really want Stephenie Meyer to make another Twilight books :)

I love this soundtrack. It's really a beautiful song. I literally cried at the end of the movie when this song was played during the flashbacks of previous Twilight movie. ha ha I was so embarrassing. I'm soo gonna miss all the Twilight casts (Rob, Kristen, Taylor).

this is my favourite quote from the first book, Twilight.

Edward Cullen: And so the lion fell in love with the lamb. 
Bella Swan: What a stupid lamb. 
Edward Cullen: What a sick, masochistic lion.

Post Practicum Reflection Part 2

        When I first taught the classroom it was difficult for me to get all pupils’ attention. They were very talkative and it was hard for me teaching while they were talking and doing other things. I realized that you have to know pupils and know their names to get their trust and control the class.        

       Grabbing the attention of the pupils is also another issue that is vital when working as a primary teacher. This is because the English language is foreign to them and therefore as the teacher, I had to make the learning process of this language as interesting as possible. Therefore, to prevent boredom and pupils’ distraction, I prepared interesting set inductions in my lesson plans. My analysis of the class showed that this class had not done anything before that involved a warm-up activity. Therefore, when I introduced the set induction activity, they showed an interest to the lesson. Furthermore, I used picture aids such as PowerPoint and flashcards to help them learn some words and phrases. One of the advantages of using pictures in teaching is its ability to attract the attention of the pupils and enhance their ability to retain everything they have learnt in class, especially when introducing new words. 

        Group work is another issue faced during my practicum days was related to classroom management. Since I believe pupils should be able to roam freely, the classroom environment became much more chaotic. This type of cooperative learning environment also fosters an increased noise level, which seemed to disrupt other pupils. I will be better prepared to overcome such dilemmas in the future. It is very important to keep the classroom under control during the group work. I provided the signs “We Need Help” to reduce the noise level during the group work. Pupils need to hold up the sign with their mouths closed if they encounter any difficulties. I will go to them and give guidance to them when necessary.

To be continued...

Midnight rants.

I'm so bored of being bored because being bored is really boring. 

That statement really explains me these few days. frankly, I don't know how to make my life even more interesting. those stuff that I usually do, here in Msia, like strolling at the malls, watching movies, or window shopping, they just don't give me any fun or pleasure anymore. I'm so bored and I'm totally sick of it. I've been thinking and recalling my old life back in Wellington ya know. so cheesy. I know. okay, I know that I have to look forward, move on. get a life. The problem is me. my INABILTY to stop remembering the past. I really miss the little things I usually did back in Welly. omaigoddd, why am I so pathetic.

To make it worse. I even browsed some old pictures from my life back in Wellington. found one and I'm gonna share it here. 

whoa. why so serious Qistina? I have never seen me being so serious like that. This is a very rare picture of me being so serious.I guess that all my life I never want to get too serious about anything. omaigodd i do talk shits these days. of course I have never seen me doing anything. I can't see myself. lol. except if you're in front of the mirror laa so you see yourself. big lol there.  I hope tomorrow and the next next day will be better days for me. If my upcoming days didn't turn out to be good. I will be back again and pour out my daily rants to you :D

p/s:  In bed now, still figuring out how my life should be for the next couple of months.

Post Practicum Reflection Part 1

I'm back. I'm so sorry that i don't blog much these days. it's just that I don't blog for people to read anymore. I only blog for self-satisfaction. If I have something really worth to share, I will share here. Right now, I'm going to share about my post practicum reflection. FYI, I finished my practicum like 2 months ago. since that, I've been really busy with Induction course, Bina Insan Guru and stuff. So I totally forgot about existence of this blog. ha ha

     So, my experiences in SK Aman Jaya have been a real eye opener in terms of the theoretical classroom versus the real world classroom. During the first month of practicum, I struggled with classroom management and behavior management. I was so tired of yelling and nagging inside my classroom. There has got to be a better way to manage the children. I hope I manage to find it over the coming months. It is hard enough when they don’t understand me speaking in English but it is harder when they are misbehaving. My cooperating teacher, Sir Yusuff advised me to be strict and just make them fear you. 

       I identified my own weaknesses and strengths throughout the practicum days. I struggled with the time management. The planned time for every stage seemed to run off. The presentation stage for several lessons was done too quickly, usually lasted for only 10 minutes. I should be able to provide more inputs during the presentation to cover those 15 minutes. Perhaps, I should carry out Q and A session with the pupils and try to elicit answers from the pupils. The production stage usually took more than the given time. An example of a scenario, half of the pupils didn’t bring the scissors and glues. Therefore, they took longer time to finish the task I assigned to them.

     Besides, what didn’t go well is my voice projection. There were 36 pupils in my classroom. The pupils at the back complained that they didn’t hear me really well. I really need to work on my voice projection so that pupils at the back won’t be left out and missed my instructions. According Brown (2001), a good teaching requires a good voice projection where you do not have to have a loud, booming voice, but you need to be heard by all the students in the room.  

okay folks,  to be continued :)