hello weekenders!

     Yeay!! it's finally weekend..wanna rest as much as i can.. wanna sit in front of my lappy and watch movies and mind my own business. i love weekends. it's the days where i can relax and having my own good time.. haven't study anything at all for the past few days. not in the mood huhu.. i wanna study but so many things disrupted me from doing so. but tonite for sure i won't study at all..gonna watch movies as much as i can.. *scanning at my laundry basket now* omg!! the clothes are piling up like twin tower huhu anak dara ape nie.. hmm..i will do my laundry later tonite.. aiyoohh..why am i so lazy?? hey lazy butt get your ass off from the chair!! angel speaking, "tina..tina..you have to buck up!! procrastination is not good" ok ok angel..i will study and do my laundry but later ar heheh..

why oh why?

why oh why??
dear Allah..why are You testing me like this??
i'm so fragile..i cannot accept this fact...
Dear Allah..please give strength to face this cruel reality..
since when..i'm not sure..but what i'm sure is this feeling is growing and blossoming each day..
and how to stop this damn feeling..because i'm very sure that i will lose in this battle..
how to destroy this feeling??
i hate this feeling..hate it so much..it's killing me and torturing me like hell..
seems that fate is totally making fun of me and laughing at me right now..
the fate maybe says like this "haha..serves you right..why didn't you tell.
now you are the one who's suffering from broken heart"
life is cruel..and the fate is teasing me..
i lost the battle already..
oh dear..i wish that i don't have a heart..

i don't want this heart..
so that i won't have any feelings..so that i won't be hurt badly like this..
oh god..why am i being so emotional?? letting go is the best option..
but the question is am i able to do that?? am i that tough to do that??

why oh why.

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Three names I go by:
1. Tina
2. Farah
3. Kuceng Sepi *smile*

Three Jobs I have had in my life:
1. a student
2. babysitting my sloppy bro..
3. housekeeper..kemas umah each time balik cuti..

Three Places I have lived:
1. malacca my hometown
2. penang, Bukit Mertajam-ex rumah nenek..now nenek dah pindah duk ipoh..
3. kedah-sg petani

Three Favorite drinks:
1. hot chocolate
2. coke, pepsi
3. milo ais

Three TV Shows that I watch (currently):
1. supernatural season 4
2. criminals mind season 4
3. gossip girl season 1

Three places I have been:
1. langkawi
2. alor setar
3. pangkor

People that e-mail me regularly:
1. -none..skype kan senang..hee..
2. -
3. -

Three of my favorite foods:
1. fillet fish, McD
2.snack plate, KFC
3. nasi kerabu..hee..

Three friends I think will respond:
1. cikgu miera
2. kyron
3. nak tag wanie..hee..

Three Things I am looking forward to:
1. get good exam results
2. do some savings..
3. sleep blissfully..hee..

Bersatu ke kite?

yesterday at surau,
my course mate, ieha..sharing some tazkirah with us..
i totally agree with her saying that our cohort susah nak bersatu..
that's totally true..
through my observation..
kite nie ramai, 59 person but kite tak bersatu..i can see that fews puak2 and gangs in our cohort..
why does this happen?? i'm not sure..maybe because different regional or kite semua nie tak sekepala??
why must berpuak-puak?? we are going to oversea..insyaallah..
there..we totally need each other..we totally need to unite..because that's a different whole world for us..do you guys think the mat salleh will befriend with us??
no!! there are just like us..stick to our own community..
kalau dari sekarang kite tak bersatu..we will get into trouble once we were there..
amalkan attitude kawan dengan semua org..jangan pilih kawan!!
kite semua bagaikan saudara..kenapa perlu ada discrimination..
yang otak2 gile2 satu gang, yang otak ingat buku 1 gang, why does this happen..
susah sangat ker kite semua nak jadi satu gang..gang nz cohort 1..
this is what i have seen for the past 2 years we were being together..
sometimes this happened because all of us were separated by different classes..so it was hard for us to communicate with each other..everybody is busy with assignments and classes..
but we need to find chances..to mix around..find chances to get to know others..
chances are everywhere..we just need to think and find them..
i believe kite semua akan bersatu one day..just not sure when the time will come..
oopss..it's 8 am already..Lingo class here i come..
have to go now...
bye..see you guys around..

with love,
me again..

my bad =(

to all readers,
sorry that my previous posts are a bit controversial and containing nasty words..
my bad..
sorry to all that feel offended by my posts..
sometimes people are just out of control..i couldn't control my emotions at the moment..
sape boleh tahan kalo kawan baik kite sendiri kene fitnah atas bende yg dier x buat,
xda ribut xda taufan tetibe je fitnah org lain..xpaham betul..
kesian sgt ngan kawan saye tue..nangis x henti2..
hmm..i promise that my next post won't contain any bad words..sorry again..
to some people who don't know anything about the 'issue'
my advice to all is do not interfere lah..don't make it bigger..what is done is done..
let it goo..pleasee..
i admit that my language is a bit harsh and rude..maybe because i was bred in Melaka..org Melaka kan kasar bahasa nyer..hehe..
sorry again everybody for the bad words that i used inside my blog
kepada sesiapa yg terasa ngan post saye..i'm sorry..i lost my sanity at the moment..

truly,
Tina..

she's so lucky..

how could this happen to me??
i have to admit that this year is very unfortunate for me..
i really have a bad year..huhu..
first, i lost my phone,
then, my saving is decreasing day by day..huhu..
and i have to deal with many conflicts, family, friends, money, my own feelings and so on..
now i feel totally guilty..
i feel jealous towards this person..
oh god!! she is so lucky..her father just bought hp for her..and her hp is totally freaking cool and high tech..
huhu..envy her so much..
some people are just so lucky..they don't have to work hard to get what they want in their life..
but for me..
i have to use my own money to get things that i'm dying to have..
life is being unfair to me..
why can't i get what i wish for?? all my life i never received any expensive presents from my parents..i didn't mind because i knew they have lots of responsibilities..
so i just kept quiet all this time..i don't want to trouble them..
haishh..this problem won't come out..if i had lots of money in my pockets..
it's all about money nowadays..money can make you sad and happy..
Ya Allah..murahkanlah rezeki ku..

to that 'person'..best nyer dpt hp baru..you are so lucky to have parents like that..sorry that a wave jealousy washed over me..i couldn't help it!!
have to go now..
need to attend miss haiyon wedding this evening..
daa...

with love,
me again..

Tagged by Ainul, teman sekolah

this picture was taken during our trip to Sunway Carnival, Penang few months ago..we were fooling around inside the Reject Shop store..hehe..miss that moment..we rented a car to go there..we didn't buy anything at the shop..coz nothing captured our eyes..

1. Go to your photos folder in your computer.
2. Go to the 9th folder of photos.
3. Go to the 9th picture in that folder.
4. Put the picture on your blog and description of it.
5. Invite six friends to join the challenge.
6. Link them in your blog and let them know they have been challenged.


people that i tagged:-
1. cikgu miera
2. att, teman borak bola
3. miss fazielah, schoolmate STPM
4. cik alia, schoolmate STPM
5. opie, schoolmate STPM
6. kudin, classmate Ipsah

p/s: STPM stands for Sek Men Keb Tinggi Perempuan Melaka..just info for you guys =)

-Lost in Langkawi-

hye peeps!!
just wanna inform that my absence in the blogsphere these few days is due to I'm on holiday in Langkawi..heheh..
enjoying myself here in Langkawi with zaty's family,
they are so cooool...
i'm totally having great time here..*smile*
thanks zaty, auntie, uncle, atikah n memey!!
i will be back in ipsah tomorrow..
ok..have to go now..
daa..

with love,
me!!

p/s: the post title is totally crap..hehe =)

-trust & backstabbers-

ok..i have several things to say here,
first of all,
i want to say about loyalty and trust..
i just don't understand why this person tends to trust other people that she doesn't close enough and she hardly know them..
why can't she trust her own best friends..friends that have accompanied and followed her for about 2 years..
i just don't get it..humans are unpredictable..
why is it so easy for her to trust other people's mouth rather than her own best friends..
i just don't understand..
these friends that always at her side, shed her tears, take care of her, comfort her, console her,
walk with her, listen to her..
but she have never seen that..she never appreciate that..how sad..
please lah can't you see that we are true friends..all your dirty secret we kept deep inside our heart..can't you see that??
oh god..i think i will cry..huhu..
Ya Allah, You really tested our friendship..

secondly..to all the backstabbers..please stop whatever shit you are doing..
ruining other people's friendship is no fun ok..

that's all i wanna say..
to all people out there,
buat baik berpada2,
buat jahat jgn sekali..kalo dah buat jahat tue..ngaku je lah..xyah nak tuduh org lain..

whatever,
me!!

-attention-

dear friends,
my blog is under construction now,
segala kesulitan amat dikesali..
i'll be back soon,
just wait for me ok..

Love,
Me.

Happy Monday!!

hey hey people..

the wireless is available now..
so i shall update my blog..
hmmm..i've been thinking these few days..
about my financial condition..
i'm not sure whether my saving is enough for the next couple of months..huhu..kepala pusing
by now..i have to cut down on my expense..
and i shouldn't go out often..
my saving is decreasing..and so worrying me..
ok..one more thing..
i wanna share something in here..
before this i have always seen my friends crying very much over a guy..
i felt sympathy for them..and i consoled them..
but deep inside my tiny heart..i yelled at them..telling them how stupid they were crying because a guy..i can't help it.. it's so stupid..
you don't need to waste your tears just for a guy that you also don't know whether your relationship will last longer or not...it's useless thing to do..to cry over a guy..it's pathetic..
i know sometimes in a relationship..there's ups and downs..but you guys don't need to cry lah
i bet..the guys never cried over their girlfriends..so why need the tears??
just be happy with your life..no need the crying parts..ok
I hope people who read my post won't be offended with my point of view..
this is what i feel..and i didn't say that i was right and people outta there wrong..
it's just a thought..my thought..
ok then..
i need a short nap now..
will be updating soon..
daaa..

Lots of love,
Me.

p/s: the title is nothing to do with the post..hehe..

Jangan Tegur??

heloo people,
it's 12.30 pm now..
and i'm practically doing nothing now..
at first i wanna finish my literature presentation but suddenly laziness strike me,
and i don't have the mood to do it..maybe i'll finish it tonite..*smile*

ok yesterday,
me, zaty, naia, ain, mufid and katty went to PC fair in CS..
before shopping..we had our lunch at old town..
i did a lot shopping there..
i bought new hard disk, laptop skin, vacuum and headset..
huhu..
overall i spent around 300 ringgit yesterday..
i didn't regret because i need those stuff..those were my essentials..
after that we bought movie tickets for 'Jangan Tegur'..
our movie was at 4.30 pm..
to kill our time before the movie started..we played bowling..
me partnered with zaty and we beat the other partners..*smile*
unfortunately, i didn't manage to do strike or spare..huhu..
memang x pandai main bowling..hehe..
the movie was ok..full of suspense scenes..
but i'm getting bored with malay movies nowadays..
horror malay flicks usually evolved around exorcism..exorcism..and exorcism..
so used to it..haishh..can't they think of other stories to make..new and fresh horror movies..for examples.. hmm.. i also don't know..haha..
ok then..i should stop crapping now..
ko nie Tina.. asyik nak condemn orang je..haha..
i gotta gooo..
daa...

with love,
me again!!

-Paint Ball Pics-

hi guys..
as i promised you guys in the previous post,
i will post some pics during the paint ball activity,
enjoy the pics!!

us before departed..

us again..notice me and hakeem doing 'poyo' stunt..

the guys..

madam marsilah with the girls..

the 'senapang'..actually there's a name for that thing..but i forgot already..hehe..

the Marshall was briefing us..

us..posing before the battle..

this is where the game took place...

us..i wasn't in the picture..

wan bean dengan gayanya..hehe..

break time with madam marsilah..

view from far..

guys stop!! violence doesn't solve anything..hehe..

paint ball rock!!

overall this activity was totally fun..no kidding..
i also received some souvenirs from the game..
overall, i got 5 bruises on my body..
they are so huge and ugly..huhu..
never mind bout that..
bukan selalu dapat lebam..hehe..
frankly speaking..paint ball is so fun!!
and it is so much fun when we play it with our coursemates..
wish i could play the game again in the future..
ok..guys..
have to go now..
daa...

with love,
me!!

-the suffering ended-

good evening dearest bloggers and friends,

oh my goodness..
finally the suffering ended today..
for the past few days i had been busy doing the literature folio..
i have to admit, this task is the harder and the most difficult than others..
this coursework really tested my patience, intelligence and stamina..
i had a couple of sleepless nite just because this coursework..huhu..
therefore, these few days i had been extremely tired and sleepy during the day..
now i can sigh a bit..folio done already..i feel so relieved..and the pain and suffering i got from this assignment now immediately eased..
after this, i can concentrate more on other things like my BM drama, folio BM and literature presentation on micro and macro teaching..huhu..
it's like tons!!
i wonder whether i can get back my beauty sleep..huhu..i need a long and deep sleep man!!
ok what else??
currently i've been listening to this Indonesian song titled Bukan Superstar by Project Pop,
yes i know..it's out-dated already..what to do man..i'm really slow and left behind when it comes to latest songs..huhu..
sorry..i lost my phone..and rarely listening to the radio..
ok.. i like the song..and it's quite funny especially the lyrics..

Andai aku Pasha Ungu
semua wanita kan memburuku
Bila aku Ariel Peterpan
kau yakin ngefans karena gua keren

Haa haa haaa… Haa haa haaa…

Sexy badannya.. Mulan Jameela
cantiknya dia seperti aku
Giring Nidji sahabat aku
dekat denganku.. dialah aku..

Tapi kenyataan aku bukan siapa-siapa
kuingin engkau mencintaiku apa adanya

Ku bukan superstar kaya dan terkenal
Ku bukan saudagar yang punya banyak kapal
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priyayi
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai

Haa haa haaa… Haa haa haaa…

Andai ku Letto wis pasti aku wong jowo
Tapi kenyataan aku bukan siapa-siapa
[ Bukan Superstar lyric found on www.lirik.tv ]
kuingin engkau mencintaiku apa adanya

Ku bukan superstar kaya dan terkenal
Ku bukan saudagar yang punya banyak kapal
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priyayi
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai

Kata orang ku mirip Glenn Fredly
suara merdu, wanita jatuh hati
Namun semua itu hanya mimpi bagimu woohoo~

Jadi… semua itu hanya mimpi?
Ya iya laah… masya ya iya dong
duren aja dibelah bukan dibedong

Ku bukan superstar kaya dan terkenal
Ku bukan saudagar yang punya banyak kapal
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priyayi
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai

Kamu bukan super, kamu bukan setar
Kalo digabungin kamu bukan supersetarr..
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priyayi
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai
Haa haa haaa… Haa haa haaa…

i like it when the lyric said 'tapi kenyataan aku bukan siapa2, ku hanyalah orang yg ingin dicintai..'
it stayed in my mind..as i already knew that i'm a nobody..and i just want peole to accept me for who i am..i'm not prefect..but i'm willing to change for a better person..
ok cut the crap..
so sorry that i didn't update bout our paint ball activity last saturday..
i don't have the pictures with me..
i need to get it from my classmates..
but i promise you guys.. i will update soon about the event..huhu..sorry guys..
things have been pretty busy lately..
ok then..
i shall end here..
daa...

i'm signing off with love and relief..
me!!

Kem Singkir.

good day people!!

we played paint ball yesterday,
at Kem Singkir, Yan..
will update soon about the event..
more pictures to come...
wait for me ok..
daa...

i'm signing with love,
me!!

once da Reds, always da Reds.

hello living people!!
hope that everybody is in the good shape and leading a happy life,
as for me,
so far my life is getting better,
and thanks to Allah that i have friends who always stand by me,

actually i don't have any ideas on what to blog about,
hmm..maybe i can talk bout my interests,
i bet that not everyone knows that i'm a football fan, (bola sepak ye, not American football)
my passion towards football is soo strong..and high..
i still remember those days, during my schooling days,
i stayed up late till morning just to watch football match on ESPN (my fav channel)
my parents didn't say anything because they already knew that their daughter was 'gile bola',
haha..
wanna know my favourite teams??
England and Liverpool,
overall, i'm a die hard fan of Liverpool,
i totally like Liverpool,
for me, Liverpool is the best team in the world..(mesti org kater aku nie poyo, teams Malaysia x support, team overseas pulak support)
haha..
don't mind what others think bout me,
i just love Liverpool,
remember the song..and You'll never walk aloooneee...
the craze for Liverpool started when i was in form 4..
i still remember the UEFA Champions League final, Liverpool Vs AC Milan in 2005, Instanbul,
all predicted that AC Milan will be the champion because Liverpool wasn't good enough and being called as 'underdog',
but during the match,
Liverpool had trasformed from 'underdog' team to 'magnificent' team,
their spirits was on the air,
and they never gave up to put the ball on the net,
in the first half,
liverpool was left behind AC Milan 3-0,
they never lost hope till in the second half,
they managed to catch up and they draw with AC Milan 3-3 till the injury time,
in the end, liverpool won the penalty shoot-out and became the champion for the 5th time throughout Liverpool history,
i fell in love with Liverpool straightly after i watched the match..it was the greatest match in the history of UEFA Champions League,
it was called by the football spectators as the miracle of Instanbul because Liverpool managed to catch up after left behind 3-0 in the first half,
that's how i fell in love with Liverpool,
hehe..
interesting rite,
my favourite player is Steven G, he is the heart of the Liverpool team and the captain,
i like him so much...because he is so adorable..hehe..
plus, he is one of the best midfielders in the world..Go Gerrard!!
now, i've been the Liverpool supporter for almost 4 years..and i don't think i will stop from supporting Liverpool in the future..
nowadays, i hardly watch liverpool games but i always keep up to date with the Liverpool performances via internet and newspaper Kosmo..ceh2 macam manager lak aku..hehe..
ok my friends i shall go now,
i will update real soon,
daa..

p/s: rase2 nyer Liverpool bole jadi juara EPL x this year??

with love,
me!!

don't make me hate you literature

good morning people!!
how's your day so far??
ok?? or bad day??
as for me,
i think for the coming days,
it will be bad days for me,
our literature assignment is killing us!!
i'm starting to hate literature..huhu..
kinda regret that i chose this subject as CS subject,
aiyohh..it's too late to regret now,
the sem is coming to the end now..
i better move on and stop regretting..
but..
seriously,
literature is killing me dowh..
15 poems and 2 activities for each poem..huhu..die la..(ayat mdm bebe)..
huhu..
one more thing,
i heard I4P tesolians received letters from their twinning university,
huhu.. mana aci nie..
why Ipsah only received emails from VUW..
hmm..pelik2..
ok, for the past few days,
i had rashes on the left side of my neck,
and it's a lot and feel very itchy...
i wanna scratch it so damn!!
huhu..
i went to clinic already,
and i took the medicine regularly,
and the rashes started to dry and became very ugly to my eyes..huhu..
hope the rashes will disappear very soon,
hate it because it's such an eyesore..
okla..
gotta go..
i will update real soon,
wait for me ok..
daa...

with lots of love,
me..

it's a damn quiet night...

hi guys..
don't know what the hell am i doing in the middle of this night,
it's a damn quiet night..
huhu..
pity her.. she's sick..
and she was mumbling bout things that i don't understand..
huhu..
so worry bout her, get well soon ok dear,
i love you ok,
we all love you and will always at your side,
trust me that you will never walk alone after this,
just get well ok..and stop thinking bout that 'person',
huhu..
better go now..
daa..

with love,
me..